Even if the city is filled with smoke

Because of the fires


Even if the smokes feel my lungs and brains and make me feel dizzy

I still smoke cigarettes
And smoke ****

.....my brain feels...

Kinda....light.

In the rush of childhood
I think we are all selfish
And just want everything now
And we don't appreciate small things as much

I feel as so
With everyone in my life
I don't care as much as I should care
I feel like I put on a show
.....

I wanna feel  every emotion
Love everyone like should love
Grasp my childhood and slow it down

I only live one **** time

You control me
I control you
Both restrained
Vulnerable to the love
We have
For each other's body

Mother father
I didn't mean to falter
In your eyes I didn't become so
With my mind
Drew another path
Hated and saw it was filled with rot
Of course you would , from your perspective
But I do not apologize for my life style
I do ask for forgiveness I did not mean
To hurt you so, but If I was not so selfish...

Lover, sister
I hurt you Two
With these decisions I make
I no longer seem to do what's good

Friends
I know u have good  hearts
Good mind
A great personality
A Second  family
I'll see you as that
Even though you " seem" to be
" bad influence "

Two sides
Different WANTS
You want that
You need this
I am stuck In the middle
Desperate to keep both happy
I know it's impossible
But why does it have to be
Can't it be pure simplicity?

My lover
If I do not see you
For these next days
....please do not ignore me
And fill yourself with sadness
IN the end
I'm here to cry with you

rainy days are peaceful inside your house
in your bed
sleeping

but rainy days are always adventure of the unknown
once you step outside

i dont know if i hate the whole world

or the whole world hates me

But to bad that I didn't know

I am very sorry