Laughter broke from our withered lips
and tears broke from our sleepless eyes
the window letting the december air
dance with our december smoke
that filled the room we sat in happily
listening to records
that played from a musical needle
which seemed to be playing forever
We smiled at each other
enjoying our friendly company
we played super mario world
taking turns
finding every level hard

We sat in room
with a wooden floor
and green and white walls

with laughter pouring out from our lungs
and happy running through our veins

enjoying the  december smoke
filling our lungs

Tell me your thoughts
of the deadly winter
and i'll"will say
"come under the covers with me
and follow my steps"
even though oh
my steps are faulty
i'll lead you the best way i can ohh

oh with these snowy flakes
take me away
with your -40 kisses
so we can freeze this moment time

OH OH Ohhhh
I'll tell you dear
my thoughts on the deadly winter

and you will say

"good, cause all i wanna do is sleep by your side
as the world freezes outside"

4th month

April 2013:

The month of my birthday came around
and i was looking forward to the day i turned a year older
My good friend started dating this one girl
and thats all he talked about,drove me insane
but he was happy and i was happy for him
I wrote a lot of poetry
of my confused state that month.
and continues making music with my friends
Warm weather was pearing over the hills.

The day of my birthday came,
my buddy came over and we walked around the mall
with a small keyboard we bought at a second hand store

He talked about his girl
and i shooked my head
and smiled.

3rd month

March 2013:
The snow melted
and the sun came out
the winter was slowly  turning away,
but the snow didnt leave.
the beginging of march
is snowed like it would in december
the cars wouldnt move
nobody would go out.
My poor mother still went to work that day
and car was buried under snow
my mother had to dig it out,
her bones cant take it anymore...

The snow melted days later
and i made music with my friends
i met this girl Alicia
we became friends, i never saw her again

Spring break came
and the girl from the past came up to me and asked me
"Do you hate me?!"
i was silent i didnt know what to repond
"...I used to, i no longer do. Its dumb to keep hating someone for the past"

"sorr-"

"dont apologize,its over anyway"

we smiled
and we became close friends.

I sat there
My head against the table
My hand up against my heart
It was beating really fast
I looked around
And everyone was looking at me with smiles
I'd say something
And they would laugh
My head hit the table as I laughed with them
They tried asking me question
I just laughed at the questions
They would laugh with me

We were laughing like stars
At night

2nd month

Feburary 2013:

1st month

Janurary 2013:

Snowing like hell, and the cold still eating out my bones
I still lingered on a bit of sadness, of the past
But i was better.
My best friend tried to **** himself
i said to him "Dont to that man!"
he apologized and said he never do it again
"You better not! now lets play some games, you idiot."
i smiled
he smiled and sat his in chair and i sat in mine.
I got a new haircut
with the sides of my head shaved
i looked like a mushroom
i liked it, wondered if it changed the thoughts of people bout me.
She still talked to me, though  i didnt want to talk to her , i did
she made me mad , but i wasnt dwelling in the past.