I’m sneezing
But I’m not shooting out snot
Feels like my brain is coming out
As if I had one

I strongly disagree with whoever claims
I’ll become well
Only takes time they say
Because it’s not my cold I’m worried about
It’s my sanity that will blow out
Bits of me in a napkin

Never relaxing until it’s not tragic
Mostly reading to avoid the traffic
Of emotions
Like rage and sadness
Too bad my depression doesn’t come with a description
Because I would of returned it
The minute I got it

To avoid my sudden supression of feelings
That I think bring
Too much of a commotion
To my self conscious.

Near the shore
Near the deep
Near the heart of the sea

The tides were high
Raging like a storm
The current went from sky blue
To as dark as noon

Slowly bringing me back
To the beach
To rest my feet
On the wet sand
My steps being marked
Soon a wave washes it out

Never to be seen again
Waves become calm and relieved
Of their rapids
Once again a beautiful sea calm as can be

Crying in my sleep
My mind going deep
The thought of a knife
Scarring my skin
Like a slice in the wind
Releasing the stress
From within

May not be right
Does more bad than good
But at the moment
Seems worth the blood
When really it’s not

Maybe I’m blind
Or too young to read inbetween the lines
But I’m sure that this isn’t worth the time
Instead of glooming
I should be blooming
For another day
Even if it’s bad
Because I’ll replenish after my bath

Thinking deep ain’t bad
But becoming negative only brings more pain than reassurance.
So you could brighten up a bit
Before you scare the kid from within.

I'm confused
You could say
I'm in a disarray
Never on track
Always acting wack
I wish I could understand
But sadly
This is out of my hands

Better to be
Than not to be
Wish I could please you
Sadly I don't know how to
Tell you what to do or what to say

I'm no expert coming to your complications
So don't feel like I'm going to help.
You might as well ask the devil for help,
Because I just don't know...

I’m bored
And I don’t feel adored
Why isn’t he or she giving me hearts
To please my ego
Thought I was retro
Really I’m the amigo who deserves your love from the get go
Maybe I’m high Matience
Maybe I’m evil
But can you really blame me for wanting your love
As if it was food
To please my hunger

I may be no Katness Evergreen
But I do know my way around the arrow
To get the succulent love from your heart
I may be the devil
Wanting attention
But can you really blame me
For wanting your love
As if I was a vampire
******* the red
From your heart
Never to gain color
Because of my cause

I believe it was worth
Too bad now that you’re worthless now
Your heart has no blood for me to **** out

I may be considered heartless and inconsiderate
You’re not wrong
I look for others’ hearts
To fill the gap in my parts
What you think may be right but soon enough you’ll become worthless to my cause
So feel grateful I even considered you
As my supper
A never fulfilled super

Day becomes night
Night becomes day
I rise
Then fall
My pride is strong
Later I’m self continous
And depressed

I raised my hopes
Instead I’m left with doubts
I can’t resist
The Scales always turn
Right or left
But never twist
So don’t try to twist my life around
Unless you want to make me cry
As you hurt me inside

Back and forward
Forward and back
I feel the sweet down my back
Always sad on one
Always happy on the other

Only in the middle
When nothing is moving
Back and forward
Forward and back

Emotions swing like a bat
The strings is what keeps me going
Hopefully they never snap
I’m being held by a thread
Only a matter of time
Until I’m dead

Back and forward
Forward and back
Soon enough I’ll go too high
Either in front
Or behind
Depends on which side
I swing far
For the rise

Back and Foward
Forward and back
My emotions are a swing
Always moving
In a pattern
Until I’m done
Good bye my swing of life
I Wish you forwell
I’m out of time...