I saw You today.
I had no words for you,
You walked past and didn't even notice me.
I heard it threw a friend you was moving,
To find ya self.

I guess like you told me.
I saw her too,
holding your hand & gazing up in to your face.
Shes beautiful.
You always did know how to pick them.
I kept walking thou, But silly me I did turn back.
I had to get on last look,
One last glimpse  of what use to be My everything.

I saw her Today.
She came in to my shop,
I almost hit the floor.

She said she was looking for a dress.

A beautiful off white dress is what she picked out.
Creme colored with pearl tear drops and laces entwined.
the head dress Well she settled for a Crown

I kept my composure ,
Never saying  anything of importance,
I couldn't let her know who I was
or what I meant to you.

Her Mother was teary eyed and so Happy,
I hear her Say
Your the luckiest man in the World.
As She laughed she said She was the lucky one.

I know just what she means,
I too once was lucky to be with you too.
Everything you did was almost too perfection.
I ruined it and Now I'm helping Ya fiance pick out her gown.

I walked home after closing shop,
As I walked in central park I think to myself,
I wish I was her.

I saw you TODAY,
You were running out of the church,
Which was packed,
And everyone was all lined up on the steps,
As you run down towards your limo, You look up.
Smile to me from across the street.

You don't even say Good-bye.
I hope She makes your life complete&happy;!
I hope  YOUR happy,
I hope you have and receive everything you
desire in this life.
I know as these tears fall,
They will one day dry.
I saw You today & all I can tearfully say is.....
Congratulation's!

Always Me Ayeshah
Copyright © Ayeshah K.C.L.N
1977-2008 All right reserved

Do You know why I stay away,
Put Space Between Us two?
I think you do and it's sad really cuz I really like you,
Like you more than I should and more than I care to admit,
But what gets me is I hate that I fall so hard, fast and easy,
Yet I hold myself way back from letting you In,
Trying & hidding my true feelings,
It's not that I'm scared or anything(lol yeah I am)
I just know that Your not ready
for all that I am,
and All that I can give to you
Which is all that comes with me,
So I stay away and hold my self back,
I speak mostly when spoken to and Only comment a little,
Cuz if I said I want you, And  if I said I'm Yours,
Plus if I said I need you more than you ever could of thought,
I'd probably scare you off,
If you really knew what was going in on in my head,
Like how I want you in my bed,
How I'd hold those strong arms around me
and Rock you til YOU fell fast asleep,
How I'd cook just to watch you eat,
Well I can't say these thing to you,
Cuz if I did then
I'd loose my VERY Best Friend!
Maybe I wouldn't but you see
I'm also some what of a Chicken -
ONLY when it comes to YOU!  
If I told you that I  was in awe with all you do,
What would you say-  what would you do,
If i said Kiss me just slightly on my cheek,
Would you do this and more?
Make me crave even more,
If I said I wanted to be more than your babies momma,
Spend a life time making Us happy,
Keeping you satisfied,
Being your Queen
while letting you be King,
I think about you too often to count,
And its sad really cuz
I can't speak clearly when your around
its like my tongue got tied down,  
What if I told you I once watched you sleep,
Maybe it was just a dream,
Yet I look at your lips  while I fantasy about that body,
I look ad those hand ,
So strong , How I'd let you hold me,
Molding me close to you,
See If I told you these things you'd likely scream ,
Run from me,  
Just maybe huh?  
What I'm unsure of is how can I keep hiding
this burning desire to be more than just your friend,
When I know your not ready,
When I know there isn't room for me,
See  BABY
I notice along time ago that
Your the strong silent type,
The Big soft hearted Giant,
Yet I know your also the type to wreck havoc
when someones Coming with disrespect,
Your a humble Man
and if I had you in the palms of my hands,
I'd cherish all that you are and
Love you for the Man you've already become,
Take you for who you are and Keep us on point,
I know you must hear this a lot, I'm sure I'm not the only one,
To be caught  in your poetic verses,
or shown the many side of your philosophical  greatness,
I know so many women feel as I do,
They too may not have told you,
Maybe some have and just like me they too fantasy about You,
For A man you have  the sexiest ***.
A brain & body to match,
Your words make me crave just one touch,
See I already said too much,
I sound so silly, Imaging me saying how
I really feel or ever saying these things to you,
Funny but when Your around it's like  
I have a speech impediment,
I start talking with a stutter,
How crazy am I
Cuz  I can't "forum"(form) the right words,
I can barely think .
My mind draws a blank.
How would you feel truly; If you knew my feeling
& knew too they  go deeper then you think,
right to the roots,
The very heart of Me,
My soul weeps inside to be touched and concord by only You,  
If ever you were to find out-  
WELL  I think I'd crumble. Fall to my knees,
Cuz Your the essences that gives me peace,
You make me feel like a brand new women ,
Your A gentle-man.
Who Knows How to
really
Treat this Lady(your friend )ME.
You keep me leveled and Don't even know it ,
I wonder how You'd feel if you ever knew.
I'm infatuated, Basically in love with
YOU?!
That's why I'd loose my mind if You Ever Know!
Always me Ayeshah
©1977-2009 Ayeshah(A.K.K.C.L.N)
All rights reserved.

Look at me and see what I am Not only am the chief,the house keeper the mother and cloth mending dish washing single parent, I am more than book and education more than one nation and My God has shined on me many times,

Cuz He says O sweet child of mines, Look beyond what Men have taught you,Look past wars fought over you,Not me but many have started for the same,

A Woman, That's what I am , I am sister and cousin, Auntie and niece,Daughter and Lover don't bring out the Beast, I am more than a *** symbol,Artist or model, More than a page or chapter You might of started.., More than a notch on ya belt,

I am more than fist pounding on my face, More than you saying it has to be your way! I'm the grand daughter and great step child, I am the wisdom from generations past the voice to history,I am the present and may-hap the future,You never know,

I am slave no more to you or my self, I am Worth more than any-ones wealth,I am courage in a land of lost hope, I am a voice that can't be choked,I am a survivor and A bilingual queen, I am of powerful stuff its more than you'd dream,

I am A giver,hardly the taker, I am the love you may of never know or the special one you let go, I am determined and stubborn,I listen ,I seek and I lean, Life's what I make ,

You can have it your way just as long as you know that I am ME and always will be.., I'm more than submission and More than a follower,

I lead on my own and do what My heart say, I ask not for recognition-unless I'm deserving some, I ask for compassion in a Land it seems there's none,I am understanding and self growth,I am the teacher, The student all in one, Can you understand,

Ya words can't hurt me cuz I am too proud

Even in saddnes I walk with a smile, Ya fist only leave marks now, Ya jealous ways aren't welcomed here, Ya fear has dried all my tears,

The pain you thought to inflict on me is beyond you ,I am out of ya reach,

I am Woman and I do more than roar my back against the wall and look its time to add up the score..,

I am friend and I am desire, I am a head turner,lighting minds on fire..,

A mind that tinks all on it's own,Now don't you wish you was king of this throne?..,

I care more than I need to but do it my way!

I am me and that's

Never Gonna Change!

Always me Ayeshah