Island horses
Run down the shores
Wander the seas
And weather the storms

Oceanic chaos
Thundering for more
A coral forest seance
Seaweed corridors

Island horses
A call to the old
Tsunamic power
A stallions' soul

I feel the call
It whispers deep
This animal spirit
Is within me

I hide behind a blue sky
Saw the birds flying in the current, high
Wishing for some star shine
I really love the morning time
Yet here I am inside
On the couch, with a slouch, hoping for a way out
When the door is right in front of me
But I'm convinced I'm too busy
I am climbing the digital tree
Forgetting to breathe
When I want to smell the airy breeze
Come up for air and stay there
Soul open, eyes closed, alert and aware
I imagined a place where...
I go to close the screen, but I hesitate
Is today really the day?
Couldn't I just sit here a while
Another year, read another mile
Like this, post that, fake a smile
Until I forget this epiphany ever existed
This future I've too long resisted
Now my mind and body is twisted
Unaligned and with no compromise
Or a sign things will be alright
It's a leap of faith, I read it all the time
Stay in the present, unravel the twine
Meditate often, remember your past lives
Stretch, Run, Play, repeat, then rewind
To release your fears and let in the light
To be out there and catch the sunrise
You're not alone, you know it's time to go
A moment can last forever
These pathways stay together
The brain is a place of endeavors
Where you can forget to remember
But when two halves become as one, trust inside
The words that speak from between your eyes
Let in spirit lest the ego try
To find a foothold in your mind
Start with the stars, and then the sunrise
Look up at the clouds and follow the silver line

Diamond blue dancer
Spinning faster and faster
Creating a whirlwind of love in your wake
Diamond blue dancer
Becoming a master
Of every moment you choose to create

I tried to save myself
By sprinting through childhood
I tried to raise hell
A teenager misunderstood
I tried to be well
And thought I was good
But I said farewell
To all that I could
In an effort
To not try anymore
Or do what I should
But be
All that I could

You don't know the extent
Of the words you spent
In excess, the mess you left
Is nothing compared to my torment
In the wake of your judgement
I feel hatred and contempt
For everything you say in ignorance
Has nothing to do with intent
Or anything truly relevant
I use poems as a way to vent...
But I walked away with regret
That I didn't carve you a new intellect
I know the answer shouldn't be violent
But I would do it here, and I should have done it then
I would banish you from using words ever, ever
Ever again

I deny that I am another one of this life's broken victims
But I am mildly catatonic, and so painfully aware
Of these cyclic, periodic, contrasting symptoms
That leave me alone with psychotic intentions
And gasping for air

As the fire within rages on, self decimation uncontrolled
My body shudders with released tension as my true colors unfold
Reminding me of unanswered questions and horror stories I hold
Will I blossom or blow up in this growing blackhole I've come to call home

I've decided to unleash what is now fully grown
A hushed monster I've hidden so well
No longer able to fight against its hunger
A creature unwell, deep under the icy gaze of a strengthening spell
Through to the underground beneath the grains of hell I let go of my old self
Exposed, I watch as the last mask shatters, rapidly decays
Finally awakened, I can hear the screams of my captured, fractured heart
And the crackle of a familiar flame
I turn to face it, and it was then I knew from the start
That this time there would be no chance of this chaotic trance
Fading away
Or falling apart

I disguise well

An angelic whisper, black wings unfold
Malevolent under a violent spell

As I reveal my true nature to control

My sanctuary, this world of written words
On my tongue, a serrated blade, but
Never could I have the luxurious pressure
So laced with poison every move I make
These three words in disarray
End every attempt to stay, so I
Run so faraway

Overcome by my own honesty
Ravenous, I am the fire that is starving
This vicious release, an undeniable greed
To burn every wall that had been guarding
This sweet destruction from renewing me

A chaos of rupturing desires in every direction
Once so invisible...I was the quiet, silent wind
But in this moment I'm an ocean of seven wicked emotions
Now bending to the whim of my hunger for him

In sporadic, spectacular fashion
I will not deny this feral passion
With a single glance at my burning reflection
I've shattered the illusion of a missing connection