An apathetic indifference can't stop me
From catching every move you make
Crestfallen by a dissatisfied need
When will this become too much to take
Barely distracted and always searching
For a way out of this synthetic reality
Guilty of doing the exact same thing
I try to drown particular memories out
Together we're forging a way to be happy
Rebuilding boundaries on shifting ground
Without destroying absolutely everything
As we hide from these secrets we found

In the midst of a sickly revelation
Standing unafraid before you
We're trembling, but it's not cold enough
Over us the trees are gently swaying
Casting our shadows into darkness
My heart is scraping against us
Unprepared for moments like this
It is a drastic game we're playing
Safe if we stay away from the edges
But we made no promises

So unsurprisingly
I find the distance has returned
We're pretending
Avoiding
The reason it hurts

Just breathe deep, sleep, ignore ourselves
Cling onto anything else
Destroy all the emotional ties, but I
Still find parts of myself
Come alive when I drown in your eyes
I begin to cut off the air supply
When I feel our hearts begin to swell

But it's too late to stop this now, I'm
Wandering the memories through sound
I can't seem to throw it all away
Even when I'm given a path out
I used to know how to shut this down
Instead I struggle every which way
Trying to find the right way around
This growing, empty space

Fifty thousand miles of memories wouldn't Erase this feeling from eternity
I tried my best to deny it but couldn't
  Everytime my heart skips a beat
I'm so tired of staying away so I'll be
Escaping this sea of false beliefs

It's impossibly you
This icy embrace that's reviving me
Reminding broken lungs how to breathe
I am remembering how to be free
And there's simply no turning back now  
Into the same monster I was before
I'm stopping my heart from slowing down
This old imposter cannot continue
Or control me anymore

Unfamiliar
My body has forgotten to breathe again
Disoriented
I can't see perspectives in the same way
My Painkiller
Why didn't you take control as I descended
Unprecedented
Into an unprotected state
No one had comprehended
This depressive rage
Love suspended
An open cage
Unintended
I escaped

You're the darkness found inside mysteries
The questioning force behind every good deed
The forbidden knowledge we all subconsciously seek
The desires, the cravings, a raw ecstacy

You're the demon whispering possibilities
The master of revealing all insecurities
The influence that allows my denied reverie
The obsessions, the passions, a vicious need

You're the only one listening to my inner screams
Breathing in my new discoveries
The dreams, the nightmares, the secrecy
The only one accepting of every last broken, jagged black piece
The chaos, the seduction, the temptuous belief
In the reflection I see my own monster within
It is a creature I've decided to keep

Integrating your vicious presence
I've nowhere left to hide anymore
So now I look up at you, breathless
Giving in, until my eyes find yours
I whisper, yes, I'll take your test
And it's through you I will explore
You are my strongest weakness
A skeleton key to a treasured door
And with a power I will not ignore
I'll do my bidding without remorse
Watch me take down this delusion by force
My will to live, our energy source

Submitting to invasive tendencies
I climb over mountain peaks with visceral fragility
I wait to jump, exempting this desire to feel freedom, to experience pleasure painfully
Struck down, I laugh in the screaming face that spits back at me
I look away as any place offering safety flees
I am one shattered shell withholding dangerous needs
A seed waiting to expand explosively
Corrupted by generous moments of greed
Watered by each and every one of these
Hellish fantasies that catapults completely
Any common sense of distracting decency
From getting in the way of succumbing to reality
I'm allowing these taboo emotions to openly bleed
Frozen in place I watch them slide over me
My body is freezing beneath this showering volcanic release
I can't control it, I don't know why this is unfolding
But I'm willing to see where this is going
The wind is picking up around my knees
And there is this knowing
That another dimension has found me
And is slowly consuming
A tsunami of need