I'm so drained and tired
I feel strained and uninspired
I feel empty darkness flooding in
Taking me back to where my pain begins

As I'm walking through the wreckage
Of my torn and tattered dreams
My life burning with the bridges
That were built up by their schemes

They held my joy hostage from me
Then told me I am not enough
I became my own worst enemy  
Because believing them was rough

They severed all my strength and security
Like the mighty Sampson with his hair
I am ****** by inferiority
And it's getting harder and harder to care

My heart had been broken and scattered throughout
But it always pulled itself together
Now it's completely hollowed out
And it feels like it will last forever.

People tell me this is for the best
But do they know that for sure
Pain has stolen all my rest
I don't know how long I can endure...

I've been convicted
By my own mind
Because I am conflicted
From my life being in a bind

My heart is broken
My soul is bereft
I am trapped - soft spoken
Half of me is left

You were my favorite part of me
What have I become with out you
You smiles alone set my mind free
Now I'm a hollow human forever blue

The silence is just too much
The lack of your laughter drives me insane
My silence is hell - music my crutch
I can't even find pleasure in rain

Because I'm drowning in brackish waters
That flow from my own eyes
As I think of my sons and daughter
As we again, say our goodbyes

I'm not strong enough to let you go
But not stable enough to keep you
I pray each day you know
My love will always run true

My sentencing is life forever lonely
Arms that feel so empty and weak
I will hold this place in my heart for you only
Until we meet again..my life is bleak

You have been called
Will you listen?

You have been called
Will you answer?

You have been called
Will you hesitate?

I heard you
I swear I did
I called back!
I swear!
But was it enough? Was I too late?
Did I forget? Are you still my mate?

The wind whispered and whistled
all around the bow
I shivered when the beam hit me
the light shined so bright
When it faded all I could see was you.
I could hear you calling
I could hear you laugh
I could hear my tears
and wondered why
Why would I cry?

I am blessed for each breath
each moment with you and Toby
I will learn to savor the flavor
of joy in each stride
Dignity until I die
and a love that won't

I cover up how cold I feel,
With a warm smile.
I gloss over what's inside
so I can hide it for a while.

It doesn't mean that it lasts
for even more than an hour
the best way to hide your tears
is to merely take a shower

Let the sorrow wash off your skin
Breathe in the heat and exhale
Learn to wash away the gloom
and you shall never fail

I just started to feel alive
The fear of death swells again
My heart begins to dim - it fails to thrive
My smile slides away - put on for a friend

My tears fall like summer rain
The joy mixes with the pain
I forget who, and where I am - at last
Surrounded suffocating by failures past

We fled across all the seven seas
In our ships with billowed sails
We had it all, in just the breeze
and entire countries on our tail

Down the rivers and the streams
We raced through the summer haze
This was what made up our dreams
Until our love became a maze

We got ******* in disappointment and words thrown
Like stones to build the maze up higher
I felt like all my dreams were dashed, and love had flown
But we scaled the dark tower to the crest of hopes Spire

Your eyes make me forget the moon
that is something that has never consumed  - me
Luna and Music were my only friends
after all of the parties would end

I was always filled with anger and darkness and spit in my eye
and a ******* to anyone who passed me on the fly
Somehow I got lost in your eyes again today
I felt my mind begin to fray
you touched my hair, he nudged my face
I felt out of place

Erratic nature and a spirit unbroken
unbridled fury and whispers spoken
friends holding hands, lovers; true
But most of all I like time spent with you
talking or laughing just doing what you do
I don't think you know I admire you too.

From Day 1 My eyes lit up
Embarrassment hid it away
If I had let it my heart would have flown away
It fluttered in my chest, my hands started to sweat
What was coming over me
Made me want to flee!

Raise the sails and red flags.
Fly the black flag under the moon
your advice I like the most
Is flee from doom and gloom.