Aoife

Aoife Nov 2015

It’s being kept safe from harm. Being kept away from any physical danger or injury. Kept from bad company. Kept away from illness and misfortunes. From misdeeds and misgivings. To be safe and sound.

It’s being kept from hurt. Safe from emotional distress, from emotional pains and heartache. No more tears in your eyes from that. No more scars.

It’s being safe in His good graces. Safe in the strength of faith to hold on. The empowerment of one's own will to overcome hardships. It is the sureness to be able to overcome anything. It is a promise of goodness in life, in the hereafter and forever.

It’s being loved, and knowing it, feeling it. It’s being happy and content, with whatever you have. It’s knowing that you need not sigh of worry or regret or sadness. That the only sadness you have in life is entitled to you, instead of ones ****** upon you.

Safe is knowing love in the pureness of its meaning. It’s seeing the nakedness of the beauty of life. Safe is seeing that there are no two similar shades of colours in this world. Safe is knowing you can close your eyes wherever you are, and take in a deep breath, and tasting the air on your tongue, and feeling it fill your lungs, and not even worry about the beating of your own heart.

Safe is knowing that no matter how many times you've fallen, you get back up just the same. Safe is looking back at burdens, however heavy, and knowing that even they cannot bring you down. Safe is the helplessness you feel when you see just how vast the universe is. Safe is knowing that there is fear, but not one that can consume you. It is knowing that life is so much more than a set of rules or your own heart to follow. It is seeing how complex life is, and being able to forgive that complexity.

A safety that is not to be sought after but to be found. It is not a person, a thing, or a forever, but it is in small moments, that there is a true and absolute tranquility throughout your very being, from your very core, one that brings a smile to your lips instantly. That in that small moment, everything is so grand. Everything just falls into place. Everything is alright.

Safe is being hopeful. It is feeling hope.

Aoife Nov 2015

Trigger

She's ticking like crazy
Buzzing with electricity
Do you see it?

The crackles at each curl of her lips
She flickers every time she blinks

She is like lightning
The crack of a whip
A flash
An explosion
Roots reach from the clouds
The biggest spectacle in the sky

Everyone looks in spite of her blinding glare
And then she's gone.
The image of her burned in your eyelids.

You close your eyes longingly.

Aoife Nov 2015

may the black water come for me

I am an imperium of salt and smoke.
Mine a kingdom of one and all.
My castle up on clouds on the ground.
Majestic like a house of cards.

A blind king sits upon a broken throne.
A ghost and a statue the protectors at my gate.
A poet in my tower with a rose in his hands,
bleeding ink from the thorns.
A fairy wanders on the winds like echoes from beyond my walls.
A siren sits by a lake of black water,
and sings a silent song for the moon.

The moon calls upon the black water,
and sends its hunger in tides against my fortress.
The blind king smiles;
the bonfire burns safely within my walls.

Then a coward comes in seek of sanctuary.
Within my walls his madness infects me,
renders strife upon me, begets uproar,
and tears me asunder.

Madness infects my kingdom of one and all.
Obsessed, they destroy each other.
My kingdom falls into desolation.
Punishment for my pride, I become an imperium ruined.

Aoife Nov 2015

we think of you

As one and another, we are flawed. Together, we understand.

We ran unmoving against the hurricane wind.
We stay forever afloat in the sinking quicksand.
We are perfectly flawed, in the flawless circle,
together we are alone.

The night is bright in the glare of the darkness.
The stars have gone out looking for you,
while you sit in the darkness waiting for them.

The cold burned at our skin
we huddled for warmth
and for comfort
and we flinched at them both.

We remember that we are forgotten,
together we are alone.

Listening to the silence of the world,
eavesdropping, we thought we were,
so we cover our ears in embarrassment.

We are alone and we are embarrassed,
in the darkness where no one can see us,
in the silence we made no noise.
Do we want to be found?

We sit here together alone,
forever being just a “once”,
and then we think of you.

Our perfection is in you, as your flaws are in us.
The world moves as we stay stuck.

We are stuck as we think of you,
and you’ll only live as we think of you,
and we merely exist as we think of you.

Aoife Nov 2015

Waiting for Forever

I have breathed you into me, and feel you fill my lungs with such presence that you do not escape; you stay a pressure in my chest. And it hits me: what have I been doing all this while? When this is what it must really feel like to breathe.

I am at last living.

And then you seep into my bloodstream and you trail your touch throughout every inch of my body. You know me. For once I feel the tingling warmness of being alive. Suddenly everything simply makes sense.

You become imperative to me. You are wired into me. My senses know you. Every neuron in my body labours for you. Every instinct an effort to make you smile, laugh, to make you happy and to keep you safe. It becomes a reflex, second nature.

You are innate to me.

With this pressure in my chest, what do I need with air?

Aoife Nov 2015

If it exists

I fear you.
I fear your influence,
how you affect me.
Butterfly wings.

How easily I can fall prey to you.
You are both poison and antidote.
You are still perfect.
Flawless in my eyes,
I cast my eyes downward.

I still want you safe.
I still want you happy.
Really really happy.

Not a place.
Not a here or a there.
It's wherever I am..
Whatever I am..
Whoever I am..
I will still be...
Simply even merely be,
for you.

Just close your eyes.

Aoife Nov 2015

Cipher's Song

Take my name off the wall, for you have no regard for it.

Take my place off this earth, for I can cast no shadow.

Take my soul out of eternity, for I am less than mortal.

Take my love out of your reach, for I shall no longer exist.