My body ready to give up
as I sit here on this wooden desk
listening to a cliche teacher
quoting Shakespeare
I agree that he's great
But my body continues to slowly shut down
and the doors that lead into my eyes
begin to close
My mind drifts off, not caring

"Love me better", she says
"It takes time", I say

Living this mundane life
On a quest for a wife
Its something I strive for
To walk across the beach
Holding her hand
Ever so gently
and as I watch the sunset
I look to my side and see your smiling face
I wish you could take me to that place

Thats what I want
But thats not what you want
You want someone to love you better
Someone to listen more
Someone to listen for
You want someone to love you better?
But I can only love you the way I know how

So I finally understand why you walked out of that door
Why you stopped talking
Why you stopped walking
Why you stopped holding
and as my hand drifted away from a place called home
It searched over yonder
Another place of warmth
So as it slipped into the slit in my pants
and my back hunched over
With the thoughts of you weighing me down
Making me lose my seal
which used to hold me together
My mind runs rampant
and I wish...
I wish...
I wish I could've loved you better

As you sit their with your white skin
blowing bubble gums
becoming one with your phone
as you research the latest drama
blasting music from the latest artist
I wonder is that all you are?
Is your beauty just the make up and attitude towards life
Now trust what I say you're gorgeous
But as you stroke your pants and you stare at me with those blank eyes
Touching your cheeks to make sure you aren't "fat"
Wearing clothes to show off your "personality"
Something about how you look
Attracts me to you
and as you nibble your finger nail
and give me a small side glance
as you quickly turn away
and imagine days on the beach
I look at you and imagine the same thing
To bad our personalities
are to distinct
To finally become one

Teenagers, thats all we are,
we strive for happiness
striving for something beyond our own comprehension
Working day and night for our due pension
We want to grow up but were so young
On the quest for love, yet we procrastinate till tomorrow
to find it
Make it our own
Were stuck in our own world, never letting anyone else in
Thinking school is a waste of time
and partying all your time away
Thats all we are
Striving to be the best we can be to not disappoint
Searching the world for something to call our own
Learning and discovering
Finding our  identity is our goal
Finding love is our life
Our minds are a rhythmic mess
Our neurons blasting every time we touch
Cause thats all we are
The stress we make up on our own
The electronic Buddhism we blast through our crown
Flying from mindset to mindset
Destructive monster one second
Average Human the next  
and in the end
It doesn't matter
So long as I'm still a teenager
I have my whole life ahead of me

Intellectual thoughts and conversations are not my forte.  Instead lets sit down and talk about your day

You were amazing
I could feel your thoughts flow through my very body
Every time you spoke
Every time I caught a glimpse
Thats all I could catch
My net was to big
I was fishing for something beyond my grasp
I knew
My body knew;
because every time I want to talk
My body freezes in place,
not allowing me to walk
I was like a middle school girl around you
Except I was 16
Your Black hair
Your Opinions
Your Big dorky smile
I couldn't take it
It made me want to be around you
But it pushed me away
All of these cliches in this poem makes it lacklustre
I know
But I'm just spewing out the thoughts
that come out angrily
every time I open the book
and see your face
With the green light  next to you
Telling me to go
But i'm not mobile
So I just sigh as I close the book
Realising that your intelligence and hilarity will never be near me
Ever again