It's not easy holding up this cup
Looking for a break
The way you look at me
Causes me to hide my face
I had dreams
More than you could imagine
Now I'm lucky to make it in time
For shelter before the coldest
Hours of the night
Praying the sun will keep me warm
As my feet scream for me to
Take a break
I had a family, a life, an identity
I wasn't so fortunate when
The wrath of those waves
Poured in
To be forgotten and never
Searched for pains my pride
I gave in, thinking my dreams
Are just that now....dreams
Reality is these lonely
But loud streets
"Go get a job!"
As you spit on my embarrassment
Never to be thought of again
As the light turns green
And you drive away
But me...I'll be here
Fighting for turf that
Belongs to no one
If only I can just
Make it to shelter
Before those coldest hours

Who do you see?
huh?
Who do you see...when you look up there?
i don't know
i see PEACE colors SELF space
Do you see her?
Come on...don't look at me like that
The way you get lost looking at the sun Maybe hoping she's looking at it too...
At the same time...
So are you aligned?
Do you see her?
no... she's too far...she couldn't wait
And you hold that regret?
yea...everyday
But you must certainly feel her
no... not anymore

When you said it's either
Me or her
I wanted to cut you off
And say YOU
But I couldn't

I shed my tears freely because I know no one will walk in.

Tonight
Tonight we'll dance
Letting the music drift
But not of piano keys or guitar strings
Drifting of the sweet sound
The sweet sound of your voice
Its rhythm in motion is one
I close my eyes to
Heartbeats in sync as our feet
Follow each other
Tonight we'll laugh
For I love seeing you smile
Shaking your head to all
of my banal jokes
But still, you smile
Your laughter is one without judgment
Just joy
A moment away from the pain
Tonight I'll hold
Holding on to a second chance
A chance of connection fabricated from
Unpredictability
For one cannot predict love
I could not foresee you
How far we've come
Promising to never let you go
Tonight was full of dreams
Hoping never to wake up

You found me floating, unconscious
The air seemed thin and breathing
Became troubled
I was going through the motions
While my vision was on repeat
I didnt know how to foresee the
Knowledge of you, until I saw you
That first moment was awkward for
The both of us, but your beauty
Was so overwhelming and captivating
I needed to know more
You beat me to the table
As I was approaching, something
Else grabbed your attention
Maybe it was the terrible karaoke
Bleeding through the speakers but
Either way, each footstep towards you became a step slower
My mind couldn't wrap itself around
How beautiful and alluring you were
Just looking into the distance
You were soft to the touch
Your mind was racing as we sat
And talked that night
I think that's what reeled me in the most
Months have passed
And my vision just sees you
I'm frozen within this moment
Im frozen with the thought of everything
About you
Our first kiss seemed so innocent
Like kids
Our first kiss opened every airway within
My body
You became oxygen for me
Being around you everytime seems
Like the first and its hard to imagine
The night ending
But I hold on to it
I hold on to you
Your smell, your touch, your smile,
Your lips
My dreams remember you
So there is no gap between reality
And oblivion

I cant tell the difference between
love and pain.