Just one more drink
And I’ll feel good
Just one more and tonight
Can be a night I don’t remember

Just one more dance
And my feet will be free
And I’ll no longer be glued
To this seat that holds me captive

Just one more song
And I swear I won’t care anymore
And all my worries
They’ll just fall away to the beat of the music

Just one more step
And I won’t look back
Not even if you’re hurting
Not even if it rips me apart

Just one more night
And I can leave this place
I’ll run so far away that no one can catch me
And I’ll be free for once

Just one last time
And I won’t have to lie to myself
I’ll finally scream my truth
On the rooftop and everyone will know

Just one more tear
And I won’t let you see me cry anymore
And the pain that I hold onto
Will be mine forever

Just one final breath
And it will truly be my last
But don’t worry about me
Because it’s for the best.

A safe place
That’s what you are
Somewhere that I can rest
And my mind no longer races with fear

Just talking to you brings peace
And I don’t worry about consequences anymore
Because I feel protected
With you there’s safety

But you’re so much more
You take me of out my comfort
Tearing down the walls I’ve built
Showing me that there’s more

You force me to be true to myself
To take risks
And encourage me to embrace the me
That I see when I look in the mirror

You pull me out of complacency
And bust through all my doors
Daring me to live again
Reminding me that there’s more to life

And though that’s a lot to be
That’s what you are
You’re so dangerous that I shake with fear
But you’re also my safety net to fall back on

What if I could fly
At any moment just take to the sky
I’d fly all the way to the sun
Even if it burned me alive

What if I could change
I’d be a better person for you
And I be happier with what I have
I would if I could

What if I could hide
I would Turn invisible for a while
Just to be by myself
Because I feel alone anyways

What if I could climb
I would climb to the top of the tallest mountain
And everyone would look like ants
And I wouldn’t care about them anymore

What if I could run
I’d run out of this house
And finally see what’s outside these walls
The world would be mine

What if I never knew you
Our lives might be better
And we wouldn’t hold each other back
I wouldn’t know that I’m not enough

What if I didn’t cry
I would be strong and hard
And words wouldn’t tear me apart
Your actions wouldn’t phase me

What if I didn’t care anymore
You could walk in and out
And my smile would stay the same
My life would continue without you

What if you die
I would hate myself
And I might never forgive you
I would just rot in this hole forever

And what if it never ends
I would always feel this way
And I would always need you
And you still wouldn’t see me

I write for me
It doesn’t matter if anyone reads it
I don’t care if anyone sees
I write when I want
About what I want
However deep or shallow I feel
However obscure or blatantly obvious it seems
I don’t write for anyone
I won’t change the words that come out
I won’t edit my thoughts
I write for me

So often does the light shine down
To catch the shadows
And scare them back into their place

The sun, usually thought of as that
The strong presence in the sky
Fighting the dark and winning

But what does the sun have to fight?
What enemy lurks in the day
No shadow dares to show its face

In the night the true evil appears
Darkness covers everything
And the shadows feel free to roam

No light can conquer such darkness
And the sun doesn’t even try
And most of the good become cowards

The moon still chooses to shine
Even though the odds are stacked
With what little light she has the moon tries

And though it’s almost hopeless
She does conquer some
And darkness dims in her light

No, the moon is no coward
Not afraid of a little darkness
She hangs high and proud and shows the dark

That not every shadow can live
Darkness will never have free reign
She’s convinced that darkness cannot win

Yes, the moon will be there in the sky
Every night for all of time
Fighting and shining with every ounce of her being

The sun can hide all she wants
Save her mighty light for the day
And shine bright when everyone’s awake to see

But never forget the moon
When the darkness comes again
And she’s needed more than ever

Take all that I have
And use it to fill you up
In all the spots that you need it most
The places left empty from the past

Fill all the parts
That leave you feeling empty
Until you’re so full
That you no longer hurt

In fact, give that to me
And I’ll hold onto it
And you’ll forget about
All of your pain

Don’t even hesitate
I have plenty of room
And seeing you hurt
Breaks me

Just hold on to me
And together we can fly
Anywhere you want
And we’ll feel everything so deep

And I’ll turn your pain to happy
I’ll dry your tears on my shirt
I’ll hold you until the stories over
And we can write a new story

Of freedom and laughter
Constant and peaceful
And not just okay
But extraordinary

When I write, it’s like the pen comes alive. It’s like every word just pours out and I don’t even have to think about it. My whole world revolves around this one sentence, this one paragraph. And it has to be written. I can’t stop it. The words are formed with passion and pleas. With emotion and brokenness. And if I didn’t write them, my brain would implode with all the pressure from today’s truth, my truth. Writing is like a breathe of fresh air after a long dive. It’s like opening my eyes after a nights sleep. It’s like tears falling when I hear a beautiful song, or gasping when I look up at the moon and stars. I just do it. And it heals me.