Either love me or leave
Because I can’t ******* take it anymore
You never wanted me anyway
I can’t be who you want me to be

So many times I’ve needed you
And where the **** were you?
Thinking of yourself and making sure
That you were the one who came out on top

All you ever do when you’re here
Is manipulate me and brainwash me
Into thinking that I’m the one at fault
And somehow I believe it every time

You use my desire for your love as a tool
To get me to do things for you
And then as soon as you get what you want
You leave me broken and rejected

I can’t change how I was made
I can’t control who I’ve become
And if you had ever been there
Then maybe you could see why

But you never ******* were
You don’t know a single thing about me
And you have never done a single thing for me
So why do you keep using me

You take and you take until I have nothing left
And then you turn it around like I’m holding out
When I’ve literally poured out everything
And I’ve never held back

But I can’t anymore
I’m done with being your puppet
I won’t let you trick me anymore
I have to take care of me

I’m all I’ve ever had anyways
And I’ll be better without you in my way
Because all you’ve ever done is hurt me
And then blame me for being in pain

So either love me or leave
But don’t ever expect anything from me again

Oh, to reach the sun
So bright and ominous
Yet still giving life to those helpless and in need of warmth

The sun, so far away,
Yet so close
So that his warmth can be felt just past the tip of my fingers

Is he lonely out there?
Alone in the sky,
And does he yearn for the eclipse as I do?

How much longer can the moon wait,
Illuminating the night?
When will i run out of light to give when nothing can give it back?

But the sun would quench that thirst for light,
The hunger for something more
Im desperate for the sun to do what only he can do

But if the eclipse takes too much longer
I’m sure I’ll disintegrate
Because every night drains more of my light and before too long it’ll all be gone

I have to hold on to my last drop of light
I have to be able to make it there
To finally feel the heat
And let the flames devour me and make me whole again

A lifetime I’ve been waiting
And a lifetime more I will
If only my light will last
Because there’s nothing else I live for

I have no other reason to rise at night,
I have no other purpose to continue
And no other motivation to exist
I hold on for the sun

And I will continue to hold on
Grasping at every last ray of light
Until I can no more
Until the last spark, just to to see the sun.