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Feb 2014 Alice

Awkward

Feb 2014 Alice

Andrew Durst

Awkward

We are a moment of awkward eye contact
         and sweaty palms;
All the tension of the world
      weighing on feeble shoulders.

I'm not sure if we're going anywhere,
Or if we're already where we need to be.

Walking past you in the hallway,
Always makes me
              Think.

Feb 2014 Alice

did i find you?

Feb 2014 Alice

Sir B

did i find you?

have i found you?
have i finally found love?
after a long time of nothingness
is this it?

a person
who actually sees the true me?
a person who gives me butterflies,
when I talk to them
someone I can take to the Netherlands with me?
Or just talk about the most random things
and it would still be okay

Have I found thee?
Or am I hallucinating?
I feel like I found you
A magnificent person
An indescribable human being
With great intelligence
Who enjoys being themselves
And doesn't mind talking to a lame kid
I think you are it
I feel like I found someone
To obsess over

Just wrote something to ease myself off of the headache and to focus on the better things in life... Have a nice vacation everyone! :)

Feb 2014 Alice

My Shadows

Feb 2014 Alice

Sir B

My Shadows

My shadow should be
proud of me
because I have done good things
Like
Write poetry
And
Fall in love with amazing people
Who did break my heart
But it doesn't matter really
I am not a likable person
Done just as many stupid things
Like
Try to **** myself
But hey
It doesn't matter
Sometimes, time hates us
Sometimes it doesn't
And sometimes
You gotta do it to relieve yourself

So in the end
My shadow should be proud of me
For I have done
Things which are stupid and things which
Are intelligent
So shadow please
Be proud of me
And don't leave me here alone

So yea. Wrote it while sitting in a car to DC. Hope ya'll are having a wonderful day... See you guys later.

PS - Thanks for the all the support. VERY MUCH appreciated

Feb 2014 Alice

Good game

Feb 2014 Alice

Sir B

Good game

'Twas a good game
But now I
MUST LEAVE

Goodbye and ***** you for tricking me.
You will pay, but not yet

Pained hurt everything you can think of that sad and evil… I will be leaving poetry and quit being on these accounts. If you would like to know my new and other account which might come alive. Ask, otherwise, patience.… it'll get you very far in life

Feb 2014 Alice

Eh

Feb 2014 Alice

Sir B

Eh

Sorry for the lack of anything.
I am going crazy
you know
new year
and other fun stuff
:)

Enjoy your year

The page is 1/365
Write a new story worth reading. I promise it will be interesting, and also trudge through another year again, please. Don't **** yourself. I know i want to. But, again. I made it through you can as well. So, please. Go onwards to glory and live another year! *DO EET!!!

How ****** evil am I you ask. Oh you know. Not much... definitely not much.

Feb 2014 Alice

Learned a lot today (Soliloquy, in a way, though not hilarious)

Feb 2014 Alice

Sir B

Learned a lot today (Soliloquy, in a way, though not hilarious)

Learned so much more today
haha
fluke of conversation
turned out to be worth it

you.
have
in the end
been better than I have
survived more
endured more

ha.
i thought i was
the one in peril
no
I misunderstood

I never even
paid
or gave
anything to you

i didn't promise to help
didn't follow through anything
hurt you more

just,
all the more reason for
me to apologize to you

ooh, I don't like the feel of this
I should have realized
i didn't

Apologies

**Sincerest Apologies

Yes, you would know on instance its about you, written on the night of 6th January 2014 at 23:01 (finished). Sincerest Apologies and I cannot do this enough. So much hurt and pain, and discomfort. I.. have forever hurt myself now, and you too. Apologies.

Feb 2014 Alice

It's happening and has happened

Feb 2014 Alice

Sir B

It's happening and has happened

It's happening again
I am spiraling down
Feeling like I am losing memory
Feeling like being a useless
Oxygen consumer

It's happening again
My life being ******* up
Me going and knocking
On the doors I said I wouldn't

It's finally happened
I am there
Everything was blurry
But I am there

Just to sadden everyone.… I am never okay, never have been… everyday feels horrible.… no sleep just study and stay up never sleeping because I fear losing my memories.

Feb 2014 Alice

how harsh does life get?

Feb 2014 Alice

Sir B

how harsh does life get?

How harsh does it get you say?
oh, nothing much.
Just have to find the correct person

**haha.. correct person

11 hrs outside of house debating does this to my mind and makes me sadder

Feb 2014 Alice

how to keep oneself going

Feb 2014 Alice

Sir B

how to keep oneself going

The past made the present you,
but don't let it change the future you,
the future you can still change*

Clearly.
Things are affecting me.

Humph.

Feb 2014 Alice

No-matter my words

Feb 2014 Alice

Sir B

No-matter my words

No matter the words i speak of
No matter what i would want

nothing getting accomplished
and nothing's going to be good

its a messed up world
with another messed up person

who can't think right
and cannot differentiate
the wrong from right

No matter the talks i talk about
No matter which scenes i play
cant dream.. so its invalid really

No matter the hymns
or the chimes of birds

No matter the flute melodies
or violin cries

No matter the world

------------------------------------------------------

but worlds the matter
and i am unable to do anything

not able to talk
not able to do nufin!

God.
Nothing works
ughhh

Bad luck
bad luck
bad luck

that's what follows me around

death, suicide
sleep forever

****** my soul already

Have to go to another debate tournament with a senior and he is going to count on me being good and advantageous, because he wants to go to nationals... I, am probably going to be his downfall.

Just have to have hope that i don't break
his dream and another person's
who also counts on me.

just. don't want to be a another cause to a sad ending!