Falling in love is cheaper
Than talking to you,
So that's what I think I'm going to do.
That's what I'm going to do.

The spells I cast
have been achieved
by others.

Leave me to
my dullest needle.
This sting only
numbs the pain.

Candle light improves
my perception.
Silhouettes live out
their time in all
dimensions.

Time carries itself
upon the
wings of memories.

I only try and make
sense to me.

Loving and Leaving
are old reissued
beginnings in
my world.
Freedoms momentarily,
forever has never
been longer than
a year.

She promised me
almost everything,
and yet the
Dragon won my
heart.

I did not look
up as she walked
herself out.

I watched time
watching me
and made
no effort
to change it.

I'm trying to run but I can't hide.
So if you find me I won't be surprised.
Please, tell me all your plans,
And I'll do my best to understand.

I can't believe,
What you've done to me,
And I cannot breathe,
I'm drowning in,
    All your apathy.

I'm looking for the pieces of my pride,
I lost it all in the seems of time.
I do not care for the pain,
I have what I need to make it all go away.

I can't believe,
How could you do this to me?
It's getting hard to breathe,
     I swear I'm drowning
In all your misery.

Tell me you lost it,
Tell me you lost it,
Tell me anything.
Make this all okay.
I think I'm beginning to
            Suffocate.

Your "love"
Hit me like a
Sucker punch
To the jaw.
So I couldn't
Say a
Word.

And the whole
Time we were
Together,
I was
Swallowing
Shattered
Teeth.

I don't
     Believe
Anyone is a
    stranger
To hardship.

    But if you are...

Well,
    What a
Horrible
    And  
         Inexperienced
Life
You must
      Live.

I always ask myself questions:
am I good enough?
do I really have potential?
does anyone actually care?
why do I feel so displaced?
It's upsetting; knowing that I'll probably never have the answers I'm looking for.
But, I guess it's meant to be that way.
Whether or not it's for better or worse, I'll never find out.
These questions I have are the offspring of my doubt.
I'm trying my best to keep these feelings of disappointment and stress at bay.
But every time I try to speak; I find myself searching for the words to say.

People will believe
What they want to
Believe.
          It is not up to Us
To decide whether their
Beliefs
Are fact or fiction.
          So don't waste
Your time
Worrying about what
Other People's
Judgement and Concerns
May be.
          Because in the end,
    You're only left
With
     Yourself.

I'm stuck
In the toughest moments
From few and far between.

Searching for something
      Searching for anything.