Seeing you at first glance
Hearing your laugh
I’ve never felt this way
I thought it was normal
But it shouldn’t hurt this much
Taking this long to forget you is the hardest task I’ve ever had to do
I’ve had my chances but I guess the amount was limited
I should have shown that I cared
I should have embraced you
But I didn’t
I heard about your confusion and tears
I hurt you
The pain inside from the mistakes I made are unbearable
The reason I went to the other side of he world was selfish
I tried to forget you
Three months of crying and anger
You’re far from reach
But even if you were next to me
you’d be further than you were before
Even if you gave me another chance
I don’t think I’d deserve it
I crossed lines trying to forget what I could have had
Hurting others in the path should be unforgivable
People know I fear the word love
But if I were to truly say it
With real meaning
I’d say it
I’d say it to you
Only now can I realise what it means
Not nothing meaningless
But something that hurts for years knowing you can’t have it
Some thing that makes you laugh
Smile and dance
Something that gives you true happiness
I guess there’s not much else to say
Hopefully you find some one who appreciates you
Someone who doesn’t take more than one chance to realise it was meant to be more than just friendship
But also I hope you find someone who truly respects and appreciates you for the person you are
I don’t know when I’ll get over you
But words on paper seem like a great place to start trying

Cuando yo te miro
Eres la cosa mas bonita
Nadie es como tu
Ojala que tambien piensas que somos amigos
Seria triste perderte

Me disfruto de hablar contigo.
Ya se que estar saliendo con un Chico mayor
Y solo quiero que saves que eres un gran amiga mia.

Not only do they see
Or make life so interesting
Their also a way of showing yourself to some one
The colours of the texture
Sometime their too dark or too light
But sometimes their unique
Unique in a good or bad way
But the way I’m talking is good
Yours are something I have now words for
It’s not the colour
Or maybe it is
I don’t know
It seems to be something from a movie
Your eyes aren’t of this world
That are magical.
Sadly you aren’t mine
And sadly I’m too far away for me to express my feelings
Although we are in the same building
It’s a maze to get to your heart.
But that’s another story
A different story.

Your rosy cheeks
Your flawless features
And your beauty mark
Oh how it amazes me to see
See how perfect you are
The art you make is stunning
Your are amazing
Although love would have been expressed to you before
I no longer feel it
I do not know why
I feel the word friend is great
It makes me happy to know
To know that friendship is something I’ve obtained
but my views sometimes change when I am around you
Your laugh is a dream to me
But I feel like I should keep this emotion away from you
Just in case I lose you too.

How do you forget?
Forget something you love so much.
My love for you is too much.
I already want it gone
Something like you and me
Would never happen.
Watching you as you watch me.
Why is it making me hurt?
My love for you is too strong
I am weak.

Answers need to be given for what I know
To forget what we once had, a kind of friendship.
Nothing to you but something to me.
The sight of your eyes are stars
The stars to my night.
Now they are gone
None can replace what was once there.

The feeling of love
A word so easy to say
But hard to obtain.
Haven’t you ever thought how?
How other people do it?
Love one another.

Each person has a different story to tell
Some of wonder
Some of drama
Some of love
And some of heart break.

I wish I could travel in time,
To where everyone else is.
I’m still in the past.
I’m not on the same page,
Maybe I’m too different,
Or everyone’s more different than me.

I don’t want to be a burden.

Love is too strong, there are ways to stop it,
But as I’ve said before I am too weak,
It is a part of me
But I always try and hide it,
So here it goes
Canda Munani (I love you)

Your glassy exterior makes you wanted
Your looks are deceiving.
My taste buds tingle to your smell,
I scoop you into my mouth.
Your warmth shows creaminess
Your taste is indescribable
Sweet and gooey
It is hard to believe you are made of nuts
I’ve had a lust for you for a while
I finally have you
You are mine.

It digs deep
Unpleasant and hurting
I want it gone.
You are a star
Amazing to see
But too far to touch
Or be close to.
I wish for my mind to be
Erased.

Close ups determine something’s true self
You can discover it’s details
It’s flaws and beauties.
When you look from a distance
It may look ugly or pretty
But once close to
It could be the exact opposite,
It misguides you
As if it were a visual or physical lie.

Not all truths are truths to be told,
Secrecy is an understanding hidden,
From those around us.
Secrecy is a truth that should be,
Said or held captive in the minds of
The people we love.
Secrets are our trust and friendships,
Our life is full of them.
They give the anxiety of lust,
Lust for knowledge,
Knowledge of understanding.
But sometimes they aren’t told,
And our lust is strengthened by the
Things kept from us.
A secret is like a puzzle
It takes a longtime to resolve,
But once it’s all put together
The image is then shown to us,
The whole image
The truth
And depending on its looks
It can be either beautiful or ugly
And because of this.
Secrets are the things we keep
From one another to avoid
Havoc and scandal.
But it doesn’t just cause disaster
It gives hope
It gives desperation
It gives happiness,
Happiness of finding out a secret
That was meant for you
A surprise
A happy one of friends and family.

I’m confused
Why does it confuse me?
Its so small
but so heavy
You look away
What did I do
We were so close
We talked
We laughed.
Time has passed
We both have changed
And now I must face what I have done
Stupidity controlled me
You may think it’s unimportant
But to me it was
I failed you
And I must face what happens next.

I want to live
Live as if I had no rules
Live like today was my last
Enjoy what I have
I respect death
But I’m scared of it
Life has been good to me
And I want to embrace it
But I know that one day
I’ll let go
And when I do
I want to go somewhere nice
And for the people who haven’t let go yet
I hope they don’t forget me.

They said there’s infinite possibility in the universe
So there’s possibility of hope
Who knows maybe StarWars is real
Or even a world where cruelty doesn’t exist
Who knows?
Maybe we have possibility
Infinite possibility
We just need to work for it
Or it’s just destiny
And we’re all drones to the system
Or maybe I’m thinking too much
Maybe I’m going crazy
Who knows?

We don’t talk
I don’t blame you
We’re both different people
But if only you knew
I feel stupid to like someone so much
Only dreams can ease the pain
Maybe things weren’t meant to be
Maybe it’s my destiny
I can see myself already
In the future
Living with dogs
Lots of dogs
I’ve accepted it
Finally
It’s hard to accept, but life’s life
I suppose I’ve missed my opportunity
I’ll wait
Probably until the next life.

I hear it whisper my name
I hear it follow me
The creaks in the floor boards
I know it’s there
The yelling
The screaming
Just leave me be
Questions in my head
What do you want?
You hurt me
I can’t see you
But you can see me
Please leave me
I feel like I’m going crazy
Please leave me in peace.

I see her
She’s dressed all in white
With as smile that warms the heart
She’s happy
She deserves this
I will be sad to see her go
Someone who used to be so small has grown up so fast
It brings tears to my eyes
I believe in you
If only time didn’t move so fast.

When the sun goes down
I come up
My shade is warm
My light is cold
The seas change to the sight of me
People believe I’m made of cheese
What a weird world you live in
Don’t change me
Don’t make me feel self conscious
You’re you
And I’m me.

Life
What does it mean?
I’m lost
And sometimes I lose hope
Things go bad
Things you hope go well
But I just sit and wonder it’s meaning
It’s complicated
And the things
The small things
They make life complicated
And you overthink
And you cry
I feel as if life’s a trial
It has its downs
But what can I do?
It’s life.

I feel scared
It watches me
It taunts me
Any moment now
It’s my time to go
It’s my time to run
I’ll be free
From him
From his grasp
I feel the cold of brushing air
I feel the heat of the floor
My feet step by step
Closer
Closer to freedom
I will be free soon

I begin to sweat,
I hear nothing,
I begin to up the pace,
I see you,
Panting I run to you,
As I begin to hear the sound of sirens,
I fall down to hold you,
I call your name in hope of a response,
I hear nothing,
Your eyes closed,
Your skin cold,
A tear falls from my cheek into an abyss of nothingness,
And in a way I do too,
I’ll see you again one day.

You brought me into this life,
You bought me things,
What else could I have asked for?
But you gave me the choice,
Stay or go.
Going was sad,
I feel as if you died on that day,
You were someone else after,
She gave you a chance and you lied,
You pushed the truth away,
It didn’t just save you,
But it hurt the ones close to you,
You act happy,
I know you too well dad,
Well I think I know you.
Why can’t you have stayed the same?
Now times have changed,
I have changed.

We think,
We feel,
We are our own mind,
But our minds aren’t just,
We may feel pain and your mind makes it worse,
Like love.
The kind you know would never happen,
You try to hide what’s inside,
From yourself,
It your mind always finds a way,
A way to remind you,
It changes you,
You become someone you’re not,
and it hurts,
Your mind hurts.

I see you, but you don’t see me,
I like you but you don’t like me,
I’m stupid your smart, we used to be friends.
But a way to solve my hurt in my heart I pushed you away,
Our somewhat of a friendship ended
It wasn’t what I wanted,
But you don’t go for people like me,
You hate me and it was my fault,
I mourn about it,
But it’s hard to express it around other people,
I act serious when inside I’m shouting and crying like a child.
I don’t know what to do,
I’m lost,
I try to avoid you even though you may not care,
Our small conversations may not mean anything to you,
But in a way I think I love you.

Hope is what keeps someone going
But if it’s taken away
There is no hope
So there is no purpose
Then you lose hope in other things too
So hope should never be broken
Hope is everything
We are built on hope
And in a way we are
Hope

Sadness is neither too big nor too small
It is just itself In many ways
Sometimes it appears when one does not want it
But doesn’t when you call for it.
You may choose what you do to avoid it
But it will always appear.
Sadness revolves around our lives,
From day to day life
Or the thoughts of those around us
Sadness has taken us captive
Escape it not an option
Because happiness is limited.

Your eyes are the stars to my night
Your smile is the sun to my sky
You are the topic of my dreams
Not all dreams come true
Or come to the light of reality
You are but wonder
Something too good to be true
My love for you is too great
Too great for me to bare
I haven’t any hope in this life
This life of reality and awakening
But I do in my dreams
Hope comes to me when reality is gone
I am lost
Lost without my dreams
My dreams are my reality.