How was I supposed to know
That you were hurting me so
You were the only one I had
you knew that I had nobody else
yet you still ripped my heart out
after so many years I gave you everything I could
I gave you my time my money and even my heart and yet you just threw it away
I just realized now that you're gone and you did nothing for me
I was just way too **** desperate for companionship so I let you walk all over me
and I thought it was genuine I thought you really cared
I didn't realize that you were never there
when I needed you what was I supposed to do I felt all alone then you got mad when I was sad and said how your stuff mattered more than me
I put aside everything for you
I would cancel my plans if you called I would do anything at the drop of a hat just so I can make you stay I put all of my own things out of the way I put you above myself because I had nobody else
I did everything I could how was I supposed to know that you would throw me away like that
That one day you would just drop me like a rock in the ocean just drift away like I was nothing
one day we were hanging out and having fun then the next day you blocked me I don't know what I did or what happened
but you have no idea how much it hurt
You said you wouldn't be like everybody else
You said you would stay you said I was important to you you said I meant something to you
But I guess that all was a lie
you weren't even there when I almost died
It was then I realized I'm truly disposable and replaceable
That no matter what I'll do I'll never be good enough I'll never have the right stuff to stand by someone's side

You don't gotta tell me twice cuz I was hypnotized
I just know when I looked into your eyes
I see the light brought into my life
you still make me happy even though it was temporary cuz one thing I am certain you won't cause me misery
Even though it's temporary you can remember the happy times we had cuz I might not be the one for you but it was nice while it lasted and that's okay I accept my face so everyone can just move on with it

its been a rough patch this year
so much has happened
but I wasn't prepared for you to disappear
it was so hard to hear
so hard to see
that you wanted nothing to do with me
were you full of glee
now that you got rid of me
what am I supposed to do
I thought I meant something to you
all the years that passed by
meant everything to me
but nothing to you apparently
you left me with nothing
not even a text goodbye
you have no idea how hard I wanted to cry
did it mean nothing when you were by my side
when I almost died
I thought we talked it out
going through the ups and downs
you said I meant something
you said I was important
was that all a lie
just the thought makes me die inside
even now I wanna cry
but I know I'm going to make it out alive
just know you won't be there to see me thrive
ill go back to living my own life
all alone and by my own
it seems to be set in stone

it's raining, it's pouring
it's four in the morning
the thunder rings as the man is snoring
it wakes him up and out of bed
till he slips and hits his head
there was no real warning
when he falls and the sheets turn red
it won't be long and he'll soon be dead
his family will be in mourning
but for now, they won't see
that he has gone missing
how long will his body wait
will it begin to dissipate
all we know is it's too late
to say those final goodbyes
no matter how hard they try
they can not turn back time

its been a rough patch this year
so much has happened
but I wasn't prepared
for you to disappear
it was so hard to hear
so hard to see
that you wanted nothing to do with me
were you full of glee
now that you got rid of me
what am I supposed to do
I thought I meant something to you
all the years that passed by
meant everything to me
but nothing to you
you left me with nothing
not even a text goodbye
you have no idea how hard I wanted to cry
did it mean nothing when you were by my side
when I almost died
I thought we talked it out
going through the ups and downs
you said I meant something
you said I was important
was that all a lie
just the thought makes me die inside
even now I wanna cry
but I know I'm going to make it out alive
just know you won't be there to see me thrive
ill go back to living my own life
all alone and by my own
it seems to be set in stone
all that I have known