In the bustling pulse of this town, where aspirations weave together,  
I drift through the currents like a shadow shrouded in dusk.  
Faces swirl around me, yet none truly perceive,  
In this sprawling sea of souls, I find myself adrift, a mere fragment lost at sea.  
An echo of laughter dances on the breeze, a whisper of grace flickers by,  
But I don this veil of despair, a mask crafted from silent cries that you're just too busy to hear.  
Each glimmer of joy is but a fleeting mirage,  
I’m crushed beneath the weight of the monotonous grind,  
By the hollow, obligatory applause that stings more than it binds.  
With every echoing heartbeat, a question reverberates,  
Am I truly alive, or simply moving along?  
Gazing through the glassy panes I call eyes, the world spins wildly away,  
I’m a ghost wandering in daylight, both present and astray.  
To feel so entwined, yet impossibly far apart,  
A haunting melody of the heart, forever torn from the start.
In this silence, I scream, though the words never form,  
A tempest inside me, forever a raging storm.

I hear a voice deep within,  
One that whispers shadows, urging me to give in.  
Yet I know I'm still here,  
Fighting through the doubt, pushing back the fear—  
With that voice in the back of my head...

It began when I was just nine years old,  
A time of innocence, but a story untold.  
In moments that should have felt safe and bright,  
Something shifted inside; it didn’t feel right.  
But I was still a child, just learning to stand.

My heart raced with confusion,  
And in silence, I felt the intrusion.  
My thoughts screamed for help,  
Yearning for comfort, as I quietly wept.

I write this with compassion, sharing my truth,  
Challenging the weight of every harsh word,  
To the voice that once whispered discouragement,  
I owe a sincere apology, for the pain I’ve endured.

You slipped in at nine, as laughter took flight,  
A seed of uncertainty in a heart full of light.  
I fought through the silence, face down the ache,  
Yet your echoes lingered, a shadow I couldn’t shake.

My heart beat loudly, drowning out grace,  
As your taunts grew, it felt like a race—  
To find the soft whisper urging me to stay,  
To breathe through the storm and chart my own way.

I acknowledge now the struggles we faced,  
The battles within where courage was chased.  

But it’s time to say, with a heart that’s grown brave,  
That this journey is mine, so I’ll no longer cave.  
I never thought I’d find the strength to say,  
It’s time for you to go, and let me find my way.

As I follow the footsteps of a heavenly melody, guided by the gentle hand of God, I navigate through valleys of uncertainty and peaks of faith. I find solace in His presence, as His light illuminates my path with love and grace.
Like a river flowing towards the vast ocean, my heart resonates with the rhythm of the universe, surrendering to the wisdom of the Creator's plan.
In each moment of surrender, I discover the beauty of trust and the peace that comes from walking hand in hand with God.

And as I stand before him, I am unafraid to confess my wrongdoings, for I know His mercy is boundless and His forgiveness is infinite.
Like David, I make my plea with a contrite heart, seeking redemption and renewal in the presence of the Almighty.
With each confession, I release the burdens of my sins, allowing his grace to cleanse my spirit and restore my faith.
Through deep humility, I find strength in vulnerability; by acknowledging my transgressions, I open myself to the miraculous power of an undying love.

I stopped listening to music.
I figured I needed some time alone with the silence.
And to be honest, it has been speaking to me all along…
I just couldn’t hear it.