I don't want to give my hopes up,
I don't want to be cheated on or dumped,
I just want to be loved and to feel loved,
And I just want to spoil a guy with my heart and love,
When I seen him, I didn't feel so dumb,
I felt like this could maybe be the guy of my dreams,
The guy that really deserves my love,
I asked myself, "How many guys thought I was cute or fine?"
None.
I will keep trying to get in contact with my first boo, because I haven't even heard his voice yet...
I want to hear his voice.

People wonder why my life is so boring,
I tell them it's boring because people don't never want
to take me nowhere,
It's like I'm contagious,
No one likes me happy,
People have great times without me,
I sit down in the same spot everyday,
Wondering if someone is coming to take me to have a great time,
I always think that people are thinking of me, but they're not,
They're hoping I get thrown into a ditch,
My life is so boring because I don't have any friends to take me out,
I don't have a boyfriend to talk to when I'm bored, I have no friends who don't have fun,
My friends are exposed to good times and I'm just a wimp about everything,
I didn't ask for a boring life, it asked for me, and it got me,
Everywhere I go, is in my house. . .

I love you more than the blood that's running through my veins,

i love you more than the air I breath in,

i love you more than the times my heart beats,

i love you more than the ground I walk on,

i love you more than happiness,

i love you more than I, myself,

im glad you stood up for me,

and didn't give up on me,

and that's why I love you.

I LOVE you more than anything.....Mom

You make me feel like a free spirit,
Tonight I’m gonna live it,
When I’m away from him, I have a fit,
You make me feel fearless,
If I hate you, it’s gone be a limit.....

His kisses are deep,
He holds me in his arms until I fall asleep,
I can’t believe he actually what’s me to love and keep,
He promised me he’ll never leave,
This is far too hard for me to believe....

The day my grandmother died,
I wasn't thinking about her,
At first I didn't cry,
But when people kept talking about how her life ended, I cried until this day.

When the wind blow soft and smoothly,
I can hear the trees whisper,
I can see their leaves shuffling around on the ground, coming towards me, as if their trying to warn me about something.

I’ve been through it all,
The betrayal, the verbal abuse, the mean looks,
The pain and the hurt,
I’ve been in deep situations where my own friends would talk hell about me,
I’ve been the one who always cried with a broken heart,
But people don’t care, about me, about my hurt, my aching, my pain,
To them, my feelings are irrelevant but to God, they aren’t because I know that God will always be here,
My feelings matter to God....

He accuses,
I’m gonna be the one he loses.

I need some love,
Love that's strong and tough,
I need love that can't disappear with dust,
I want and need love; I don't want or need lust,
I am not trying to rush love; Because love can't be rushed......

She is a beautiful woman,
Nice compliments keep comin’,
She has a heart of gold,
She taught me how to cook and fold,
She told me the saddest things I’ve ever been told,

She has an issue but we can work it out together,
Because I’ll be by her side forever,
I’m not going nowhere, ever,

I’ll be there to understand her, listen to her and take care of her,
But we must do this as a unit, together,
I’ll be there for her whenever and whatever,

She taught me how to care,
She was there but she wasn’t there,
If I would have left her, it would have not been fair,

She is an amazing person,

But me and others see her in a different view,
Mom, if you’re reading this, I love you

Silence in which our hearts and wounds heal,
Silence in which thieves are afraid to steal

Seeing you puts a smile on my heart,
Your smile gives me sparks,
Seeing you at school is the best part..

I know I probably won’t love you forever,
But that’s because we’ll probably won’t ever be together......

I had a dream to become a Doctor,
Because I was bought a doll that came with
tools a Doctor would use,
I knew what I was doing, I wasn't never confused,
I watched shows when a Doctor would do CPR on a person,
And saving people's lives...I always wanted to save people's lives but who's gonna save my life ?? I changed my mind of becoming a Doctor, because I wouldn't know what to do... But I still love watching surgical videos on YouTube.... but now, I want to be a hairstylist....a therapist....and other

I made a stupid mistake by getting in that car,
And making the wrong decision,
But I didn't get in that car by choice,
I got in there by force,
And I wasn't happy and I didn't have joy

I wish I could sleep in bed all day and dream,
That's the only possible way we can hold hands in the moonlight
And the only way I can love you fully

I haven’t been on here for a while and I regret it.
I’ve just been going through a lot of life stuff
But now , I guess I’m fine.

You can contact me on Snapchat @liyahgisele

My sun has come,
My sun has gone,
But it still sets and it still rise,
And it always make me feel at home.

I am not gorgeous,
That's too much of a word,
I am not beautiful, that's word is not strong enough for me,
A lot of people from my past called me ugly,
They told me because I will never be loved by a guy,
Because I look and sound like a guy,
None of the good words are for me, many say and I just believe them, but none of the good words describe me, only the mean and cruel ones, every who despise me says,
I feel the way they make me feel,
They call me all the mean words in the world and make me feel that way,
Never had I felt cherished and loved because I'm not loved. .

When I hear your voice, I jump up and down like I'm a baby who hasn't seen her mom in a month,
When I hear your voice, I bark and scratch on your door like I'm a dog that wants to play and have as much fun as I can. !!!

I see in your eye,
That I’m your butterfly,
You say sweet things to me that makes me almost cry,
You said you don’t like me but I feel it is a lie,
When I see you, it’s hard to say bye,
You’re as sweet as a blueberry pie,
I feel like between me and other girls, it’s kind of a tie,
Maybe you don’t want a settle down type of girl like me,
Maybe you want a girl that’s a freak,
You looking at me sometimes is what I can peep,
If I can have you, I promise, promise to keep,
Because when it comes to you, I’ll always be that deep

Life is so hard, especially when you go through the struggles alone,

You cry so much and prayed but no magic happened, nothing good happened,

You scream help, but no one extended any helping hands, no one heard your scream or felt your pain, no one did,

Life is all about giving up and giving in and people looking down on you,

Only one person can pull you out into the light, hear your cries, and not just stand there, but calm you and tell you everything is going to be ok,
  
Life isn't all a big party when you're so alone, no friends to call, o no one else's house to go to when you don't feel safe at your owns,

Life is dealing with all the trolls and bullies in reality and on social media,

Life is so real and true and it breaks your heart when you hear the truth about it all.

Life is every good and bad meaning in the bible.

He keeps hiding in the shade of the trees,

He keeps blowing away my beautiful leaves,

He is the reason why my heart bleeds and screams,

He has two personalities; one is like the birds and the other is like bees,

I want and need him to please keep appearing in my dreams,

He's the reason I sleeps and breathes.

But why does he keeps hiding??

Great,  now its the new year,
That time is getting closer where I have to face my worlds biggest fear,

And that fear, is walking across the stage, in front of this hug crowd,
It’s like over your head, there’s a really dark cloud,

I’m scared to walk across that stage,
I’m just very frightened and afraid,

I want to start this year off by being CONFIDENT, HAPPY,
What I never was in the year 2017 or any other year out of my entire life...

I ran down the road to quickly get home,
My grandmother wasn't there, I suppose,
I looked at my dog who had quickly grown,
I took a step in my grandmothers' room which smelled like cigarette smoke,
I seen my mother's brother who I desperately wanted to choke,
I always wondered why he'd lie about always being broke,
My mother looks just like me; She could be a secret clone,
Many people at my school asked me why I didn't have a phone,
I told them the reason, and they looked at me wrong,
When I looked at DJ, I was so very sprung,
When I looked up, he was already staring at me, and I thought he was the guy I had won.

I rubbed the ice on my arm,
The ice melted slowly on my arm,
Making me shake, uncontrollably

Love is like having a serious crush on a guy for almost two or three years,
Love is wearing the same socks a love on gave you,
Love is saving someone who you felt ruined your life,
Love is when you get a shirt from your crush and you put it on and you never take it off,
Love is breathing in the strong cologne your crush has on,
Love is dying for someone you really love,
Love is the most strongest word in the world and love can be very dangerous and deadly. . .
Don't ever say the word "Love" unless you mean it and you know what it means,
Because if you don't know what it means or what it stands for, why are you saying it,
Love is like the pressure I'm feeling in my heart,
Love is like having a seizure because you see and crush or love one and they look so incredibly hot, like they're on fire

When will I find someone who bring out the good in me,
When will I find a good luck charm,
When will I be so happy to wake up in the morning time,
When will I believe God is real and he exists,
When will I be the old me again,
When will i find happiness,
Will I ever be happy,
Will I be that inner child I always were,
When will I hav a chance to breathe again,
When will I have so much hope and faith. . .

Next week, you're gonna be gone,
I promise you, I will try to find you,
I can't believe you're leaving me,
But I know you're doing it so you will have a future,
You're graduating and I can't accept that,
You're probably gonna be making millions,
I am happy for you,
But you still know what I am feeling for you,
And what I feel about you,
Because once you leave school, and graduate,
I will regret not letting you know I love you so deeply,
I just know that. . . Do you love me ?
Because I don't know what you feel about me,
I don't know why you stopped talking to me,
Is it because I liked you so much that I could have killed you
So no other girl or woman could have you and break your heart,
Because I never will,
I know what it feels like to have your heart broken,
Because you broke mine when you told me you didn't love me...

It takes courage to love a man that doesn't love you back,
It takes time, your energy, and your strength,
Somewhere in all the time, someone has to have the courage to love who they want,
He doesn't love me the way i love him,
He says he loves me as a friend....

It rained on my birthday today,
I prayed the sun would come put, but it didn't,
I prayed a smile would rise upon my face, it did, but only because someone made me laugh, not because I got anything for my 17 birthday

it was my destiny to be your friend,
it was my destiny to wish we never end,
it was my destiny to never pretend,
I know my kindness was the only thing to you, I could lend,

You are the moon when there is no sun,
You are the flowers when May has begun,
You are the stars that glow in the night,
You are MY moon that shines so bright,
You are the baby that cries it mother's name,
You are the love that drives me insane.

"Look at that star""Do you see how beautiful it is?", "Thats How beautiful You are"

The sky looks so beautiful today,
Part of it is blue and the other half is gray,
The sun is barely showing it's rays,
I really hope to see the sun after this very day

Oh such a laughter ever heard,
As high and sweet like a bird.
From across the room,
And to end all doom.
Full of music and love,
As beautiful as a dove.
It'll spread from one to a million dots,
And'll make you shoot lots of basketball shots.
It'll make you feel greatness and successful
And'll make you sad, less and less.
Oh, don't tell me you know you need it,
But by bit
It'll be really great,
Like a game when you need a break.
If your heart has a hole,
You'll pay a million goals,
For such a priceless thing.

Poetry makes me feel so alive,
Poetry is an extreme,
Poetry makes me, for some reason, makes me wanna fight for justice,
Poetry is the reason why I'm never bored,
Poetry is something all young people need to explore and need to do with their free time,
And then, maybe everyone and everything will be fine, poetry is something we all need

I'm not about to waste my tears,
I'm not afraid to admit that you are one of my fears,
You are just like dears,
Afraid to get too close to me,
But you know you love me,
You are just afraid of me,
Like I said, just like the dears.

New friend, I ask that you be yourself around me,
I ask that you be open and free,
I want there to always be a we and not just me,
I ask that you be yourself, nice and not like other people in my life, so ruthless and mean...

He’s more than divine,
He sends chills down my spine,
He makes my face shine,
He makes me want to read between the lines,
I FEEL like maybe someday he’ll be mines...❤️

I see life when I look through these trees

I see love when I look through these trees,

I see happiness when I look through these trees,

I see god when I look through the trees,

i see a face when I look through these trees,

i see your face when I look through these trees,

i see a future when I look through these trees,

I see a better life when I look through these trees,

i see my future through these trees,

i see what I want in life through these trees.

I will someday give you a key to my heart,
I will someday open my heart for YOU,
I will someday give you the key to my life,
I want you to know more about my life-My personal life,
I someday give you the key to my background, I would tell you every detail about me from my past,
I will someday give you a key to my house,
That way, you can just walk in my house whenever you want,
My house will be your house.....

The wind frozen me,
The sun warmed me,
The wet and soggy ground tripped me.

I shed hair everyday,
Bumps popped up on my body,
Everyday,
I stretch my itch everyday

Sing me a lullaby because I can't fall asleep,
Sing me a lullaby so I can fall asleep
Sing me a lullaby because I'm scared and I need you to sing to me.

I wish I could live someone's else's life for just one day,
I guess would like a little fun in my life for just one day,
My own life is complicated, boring, and too much to explain,
I'm more of a settled down and calm person other than being a wild person...

Is there's something wrong with me,
I know I been through a lot,
But really, is something wrong with me,
Why would I let all those things happen,
Maybe I didn't or don't have no control of my life,
Maybe I don't want t have control over my life,
People always called me stupid,
So I ask this question, "Is there's something wrong with me?"
And there's no possible answer,
Am I living the right life,
Why did I get bullied from the start of my life to now?,
Why do people insist on bringing back those horrible times,
And do I deserve this ? Do I deserve to be hurt just because of one small mistake? I been asked this question a lot, "Are you slow?" And I just shake my head no.
It hurts being called stupid or slow because of my kindness,
People take my kindness for weakness and I hate it,
They think I'm in some medication but I'm not and don't wish to be. . . And this is the question I been needing the answer to

The thunder woke me,
The lightning scared me,
The rain caused my tears,
The dark clouds inspired me