People tell me I look good,
But I don’t feel like I do,
I don’t feel good about myself,
Like I’m supposed to,
Most people say I’m beautiful,
All the time like it’s true,
But there are a few,
Who say otherwise….
Only if you knew

He accuses,
I’m gonna be the one he loses.

I haven’t been on here for a while and I regret it.
I’ve just been going through a lot of life stuff
But now , I guess I’m fine.

You can contact me on Snapchat @liyahgisele

His kisses are deep,
He holds me in his arms until I fall asleep,
I can’t believe he actually what’s me to love and keep,
He promised me he’ll never leave,
This is far too hard for me to believe....

You make me feel like a free spirit,
Tonight I’m gonna live it,
When I’m away from him, I have a fit,
You make me feel fearless,
If I hate you, it’s gone be a limit.....

I know I probably won’t love you forever,
But that’s because we’ll probably won’t ever be together......

Seeing you puts a smile on my heart,
Your smile gives me sparks,
Seeing you at school is the best part..

He’s more than divine,
He sends chills down my spine,
He makes my face shine,
He makes me want to read between the lines,
I FEEL like maybe someday he’ll be mines...❤️

I can read you like a book,
I can hang you with my mental hook,
You pass me in the hall and don’t even turn to look.....

I loss someone who always had made me laugh, smile, whatever,
I loss a family member to a heart attack,
I’ll never stop loving you and that’s a fact,
You are something i will now lack,

I’m happy you made it all 2017,
All this sad stuff got me thinking god hates me,
God took you too early,
I know you’re watching over me,
I love you, My cousin James Adams,
I’ll never stop shedding my tears for you. You are still my buddy, cousin, everything...I’m glad I gave you a hug when I had a chance. I LOVE YOU ❤️

Great,  now its the new year,
That time is getting closer where I have to face my worlds biggest fear,

And that fear, is walking across the stage, in front of this hug crowd,
It’s like over your head, there’s a really dark cloud,

I’m scared to walk across that stage,
I’m just very frightened and afraid,

I want to start this year off by being CONFIDENT, HAPPY,
What I never was in the year 2017 or any other year out of my entire life...

I apologize for being too kind,
All my kindest moments I wish I can unwind,
Grateful people in this universe are so hard to find,
However, I’ll keep the nice people in my mind,

I apologize for opening my heart,
Especially for those who have no heart,
It’s ok because they weren’t there for me from the start,
Rude people from me, will have to depart,
Of me, they ruin every peace of my art,

I apologize for trying to rekindle things with people who just don’t care about me,
In every situation, I always thought, there could be a “we”

I apologize for stressing over whether people like me or not,
That’s why I don’t have a circle of friends, I just have a dot,

I apologize for not believing my instincts.....

Down in my heart, there’s lots of love,
In my arms, there’s plenty of hugs,

Down in my stomach, theres junk food,
On television, there’s plenty of things to brighten up my mood...

People ask me all the time,
“Why are you so skinny?”, “Do you even eat?”
And I always respond with “I don’t know why I’m skinny but I am appreciative to be skinny” and “I eat every chance I get when I’m at home”

The world is colder when you’re not there...

I can’t believe it’s almost over,
Our school years, our conversations,
Soon, everything with die,
We walked in together and now we’re about to walk out together,
It’s crazy how years come and go,
And they will never stop going,
We have to walk out of this school building strong,
Some of us had the best school years in the world,
However, some of us didn’t,
Some of us struggled to get to the point where we are today,
We made an incredibly huge step,
We just kept getting punched like. A punching bag,
We kept gteting punched but we came back up and we just took the punches we stood there and took it,
But in the end, we succeeded, TOGETHER

Sometimes I wonder,
How I’m going to be in the next five years,
How I look, will I ever learn how to cook
Will I keep my head in a book,

I’m giving up on love,
I want it to hit me so hard that
I wouldn’t even see it coming my way...

I don’t think I’ve been happy
if I wouldn’t have fallen in love with you,
If I wouldn’t have met you,
I’d be the most miserable guy in the whole school...

My dream is to be all that I can to be successful,
My reality is to be happy, inside and out,
I want my dream to become a reality
because my reality is already reality.

I hate Christmas, I never get nothing for it,
That’s why I’m not looking forward to it...

Halloween gone, Thanksgiving gone, now comes Christmas,
The time of the year where our families tortures us,
By not buying us any gifts or not giving a f*ck,

I want to drown in your love,
I want to be cuffed,
I just want to be loved,
I want to be hugged,
I want to be drunk in your love

I want you to drown in my love, in my faith, in my soul,
I want you to have a overdose for taking me so much,
I want you to love me a whole bunch,
I want you to fall in love when I hit you with a love punch

I want to be a photographer,
I want to be a model,
I want to be a hairstylist,
I want to be a poet(I already am)
I want to be a writer,
I want to be a philosopher,
I want to be a hair designer,
See? We all have dreams but not all of us achieve
our dreams

I want to CREATE,
I want to discover,
I want to achieve,
I want to turn this world into happiness

I want to feel secured in my life,
I want to feel protected, I want to feel safe,
But, everyone doesn’t get what they want...

Everyone lives their own story,
Everyone knows what they want to do,
Everyone wants different things,
Everyone get treated different ways,
Everyone live different lives and lifestyles...

I am a powerful human being,
When I am about to face my fear,
My heart quickly beating,

I am very VERY unique,
Many strangers can agree,
I make people laugh, I always succeed,

I am a hard working student,
I am more than human,
I am always making good movements,

What I don’t understand is why I’m always a second thought,
Other peoples attention can never be caught,
In burning flames of fire, I hope they rot,
No one will never like me unless I do something for them I was taught,
Their smiles and their kindness, it feels like I bought,
People just need me for what I got. . .

I want to drown in your love,
I want to be cuffed,
I just want to be loved,
I want to be hugged,
I want to be drunk in your love

I want you to drown in my love, in my faith, in my soul,
I want you to have a overdose for taking me so much,
I want you to love me a whole bunch,
I want you to fall in love when I hit you with a love punch.

I am a powerful human being,
When I am about to face my fear,
With my heart quickly beating,

I am very VERY unique,
Many strangers can agree,
I make people laugh, I always succeed,

I am a hard working student,
I am more than human,
I am always making good movements,

I am an outsider to most,
To many people, I am an overdose
They want a huge dose...

I feel like God has put me in a battle,
A battle with the people who can’t stand me,
It’s a battle because I try to be higher than them,
That’s a way of defeating them,
I’m at a higher level then they’ll ever be,
its a battle because they try to defeat me by their words,
God is testing me, he is try to see if I can survive this huge battle,
That’s what he’s trying to do,
I can feel him breathing over me, watching me closely

She moved away, an hour away,
Like I always did, I won’t see her everyday,
She had the game but she didn’t play,

She just left, with no words, no tears, no hugs and no good byes,
Why did she move? Who made her move? Are my why’s,
She won’t be able to hear my soft cries,
Without her, my soul slowly dies,

I felt like she had something mentally with her,
She’d always get mad when I put in hard effort to talk to her,

I know this is not that deep,
but she always sat down beside me and talked to me...
but she left me...

I don’t want anyone being tortured or hurt mentally and physically or verbally, so why would someone want that to happen to me?

Roses are red, Trees are green,
You are the most handsome guy I’ve ever seen,
On you, is where I want to lean,
“We belong together” by Mariah Carey, to you, is what I want to sing....

Don’t let them divide us,
They were always behind us, never beside us...

I wish I can put the broken pieces together in my past...

I was broken and abused,
Treated wrongfully and used,
And it was not funny..I was not amused....

What would the world be like if there was no god, no life, no future, no success, no nothing?

I don’t really understand why he doesn’t like me the way I like him...

I remember everything,
I remember getting picked up,
I remember getting knocked down,
I remember taking a step forward,
I remember getting pushed back a step,
I remember being so happy,
I remember being mad at the world,
I remember when something bad was said about me,
I remember being the most loved,
I remember being the most hated,
I remember being called good things,
I remember getting called bad things,
I remember when people wanted to talk to me,
I remember when they didn’t

Happiness happiness, where you are,
Happiness happiness, you went too far,
Happiness happiness, pull me from the dark,
Happiness happiness, come find my heart,

Darkness darkness, travels in my past,
Darkness darkness, never lasts,
Darkness darkness, complete your tasks,
Darkness darkness, don’t ruin my blast,

Future future, you have yet to come,
Future future, take me home,
Future future, make me strong,
Future future, make me numb,

Winter winter, you came so soon,
Winter winter, you made it so cool,
Winter winter, freeze the goon,
Winter winter, hides the moon...

Enter my heart with your actions,
Make me your biggest distraction,
Me without you is a huge subtraction,
Let’s not be a fraction,
Let’s be a WHOLE !

She had compliments always comin,
She couldn’t accept them or agree with them
because she thought she was an ugly woman,

She hated her own image,
She looked at herself in the mirror
She only had hate for herself...

There’s a lot of things I don’t know,

But I guarantee you, I will know by the next week or so,

Rumors, lies, and the truth spread but that’s how things go,

Perhaps, there are some things I rather not know..

There were some bad things said about me,

I cared back then, now I don’t,

There were some good things said about me,

I care, I always will,

My past is dark, but I feel that my future is going to be very bright,
That’s all I care about,

Is the good words spoken about me and the positive vibes and moods and my future

She is a beautiful woman,
Nice compliments keep comin’,
She has a heart of gold,
She taught me how to cook and fold,
She told me the saddest things I’ve ever been told,

She has an issue but we can work it out together,
Because I’ll be by her side forever,
I’m not going nowhere, ever,

I’ll be there to understand her, listen to her and take care of her,
But we must do this as a unit, together,
I’ll be there for her whenever and whatever,

She taught me how to care,
She was there but she wasn’t there,
If I would have left her, it would have not been fair,

She is an amazing person,

But me and others see her in a different view,
Mom, if you’re reading this, I love you

You put The Sun in my cloudy☁️world,

You put the heat in my cold world,

You put laughter in my boring life,

You are the funny, like to make people laugh type,

You put joy in my heart,

I’ll never do anything so stupid to make us go our own ways and apart,

You always have positive things going on,

You’re never torn,

You are positive and have positive things going on in your life,

I can imagine you being Bryan’s wife,

You don’t allow anyone’s negative words bring you down,

That’s the reason I’ve never seen you with a frown...


-Aaliyah Gisele