It's sad when no one is there for you when you need someone the most, just someone to pat you on the back and tell you that you deserve everything in the world,
It really hurts when you don't have no one to trust, to confide in, to compliment your flaws,
To lift you up when you're down,
It's hurts when you can't​ hug your brothers​ for their birthdays​, you got to miss it and it just tears you down,
It hurts when no one is there to wipe your tears, and tell you don't cry when they're gone, it's so **** painful when you haven't seen your blood in 2 or 3 years,
It breaks my heart to know that I probably will never see my brothers again,
But in the end of it all, it just hurt, to nor have anyone there to listen to your words..

It takes courage to love a man that doesn't love you back,
It takes time, your energy, and your strength,
Somewhere in all the time, someone has to have the courage to love who they want,
He doesn't love me the way i love him,
He says he loves me as a friend....

My life was just life before you came,
When you came, it became more than life...

I dream about your cheek dimples,
I think about  how my love is so simple,
I fantasize about you laying your head down on my stomach,
I dream about you loving me to my bones, to death, to eternity, from the bottom of your heart,
I think about the times I had you so triggered,
I swear my love for you has gotten a little bigger,
I dream about you, trying to wake me up by kissing me on my neck,
I thought love was only a painful kick,
I miss it when you used to smile at me,
I wish I had the guts to tell you that you can't leave me here,
I want to be hugged deep into your strong arms,
If I ever kiss you, I would **** your lips right off your face,
Just know that no girl can EVER take my place,
Because you are what I crave,
If you don't love me how I love you,
I will spit on your grave,
I can't force you to love me,
I can't force anyone to love me,
But any guy or man, would be so happy and grateful to love a sweet, ******* loving girl like me,
Without you, I fell imprisoned, locked up in a closet, that's so dark, you can't see your hands,
It feels like everything I did for you, you've taken for granted, you've always taken for granted, even me,
I fantasize about you, I think about you, I dream about you, daydream about you, wish for you,
But have you ever wished for me?
It's so hard to just forget about you and how your smile and your face used to always light up when you seen me,
But now, you don't smile at me anymore, you smile at your guys friends and you girl-friends, but they don't need to be smiled at like that,
I would **** for you,
You make me seem crazy because you're the one that made me crazy,
Just know that I love you to the bottom of my feet,
I love you from all the way to Heaven and back, but, like I said before, you take me for granted...

Next week, you're gonna be gone,
I promise you, I will try to find you,
I can't believe you're leaving me,
But I know you're doing it so you will have a future,
You're graduating and I can't accept that,
You're probably gonna be making millions,
I am happy for you,
But you still know what I am feeling for you,
And what I feel about you,
Because once you leave school, and graduate,
I will regret not letting you know I love you so deeply,
I just know that. . . Do you love me ?
Because I don't know what you feel about me,
I don't know why you stopped talking to me,
Is it because I liked you so much that I could have killed you
So no other girl or woman could have you and break your heart,
Because I never will,
I know what it feels like to have your heart broken,
Because you broke mine when you told me you didn't love me...

Am I lucky to be alive,
Am I lucky to have a normal life,
Am I lucky to still be this age,
Am I lucky to have a few friends,
Am I lucky to be at home with my real mom,
Am I lucky I still live with my mom,
Am I lucky or not lucky?
Or don't I appreciate nothing?

I wanted to die a long time ago,
And I kinda want to die now,
My life is in the palms of my hands,
But I just want to vanish, quick,
People in my life try to destroy me with their words,
And it works,
People don't care how I feel. . .