People wonder why my life is so boring,
I tell them it's boring because people don't never want
to take me nowhere,
It's like I'm contagious,
No one likes me happy,
People have great times without me,
I sit down in the same spot everyday,
Wondering if someone is coming to take me to have a great time,
I always think that people are thinking of me, but they're not,
They're hoping I get thrown into a ditch,
My life is so boring because I don't have any friends to take me out,
I don't have a boyfriend to talk to when I'm bored, I have no friends who don't have fun,
My friends are exposed to good times and I'm just a wimp about everything,
I didn't ask for a boring life, it asked for me, and it got me,
Everywhere I go, is in my house. . .

When will I find someone who bring out the good in me,
When will I find a good luck charm,
When will I be so happy to wake up in the morning time,
When will I believe God is real and he exists,
When will I be the old me again,
When will i find happiness,
Will I ever be happy,
Will I be that inner child I always were,
When will I hav a chance to breathe again,
When will I have so much hope and faith. . .

Is there's something wrong with me,
I know I been through a lot,
But really, is something wrong with me,
Why would I let all those things happen,
Maybe I didn't or don't have no control of my life,
Maybe I don't want t have control over my life,
People always called me stupid,
So I ask this question, "Is there's something wrong with me?"
And there's no possible answer,
Am I living the right life,
Why did I get bullied from the start of my life to now?,
Why do people insist on bringing back those horrible times,
And do I deserve this ? Do I deserve to be hurt just because of one small mistake? I been asked this question a lot, "Are you slow?" And I just shake my head no.
It hurts being called stupid or slow because of my kindness,
People take my kindness for weakness and I hate it,
They think I'm in some medication but I'm not and don't wish to be. . . And this is the question I been needing the answer to

I woke up this morning and I felt a pain in my upper back,
And it wasn't a good pain,
It was a pain that couldn't be relieved,
It was a pain that couldn't heal,
A pain that stunned out of nowhere,
My back still hurts right this minute,
But when I don't move and stay still,
There is no pain, and my back doesn't hurt at all. . . .

Love is like having a serious crush on a guy for almost two or three years,
Love is wearing the same socks a love on gave you,
Love is saving someone who you felt ruined your life,
Love is when you get a shirt from your crush and you put it on and you never take it off,
Love is breathing in the strong cologne your crush has on,
Love is dying for someone you really love,
Love is the most strongest word in the world and love can be very dangerous and deadly. . .
Don't ever say the word "Love" unless you mean it and you know what it means,
Because if you don't know what it means or what it stands for, why are you saying it,
Love is like the pressure I'm feeling in my heart,
Love is like having a seizure because you see and crush or love one and they look so incredibly hot, like they're on fire

I wish I have a guy I can give my naked soul to instead of my naked body,
I want a guy I feel a strong connection with,
I want a guy whose willing to listen to my boring stories,
I want a guy who likes when I stutter,
I want a guy who is like the married men on movies,
I want a guy who doesn't have a problem listening to me complain,
I want a guy who can find me and not run me away,
I want a guy I can run away with,
I want a guy who wants to explore me,
I want a guy I'm not so desperate to have,
I want a guy who I don't need. . .

I want a guy to make love to me,
A guy to **** on my toes,
A guy who can be close to me,
Mentally, physically, intimately, romantically,
A guy who still makes me nervous,
A guy who still makes my leg get weak,
And make my legs shake,
A guy who's love is like thunder,
I want a guy who I can trust to lose my virginity to