You care too much about winning,
When you're suppose to care about me.
My "best option" isn't you.
Let me go, I don't want to be your next
Competition.
Your child isn't a prize,
Your child is me.
I'm a person,
I'm sorry that you can't see that.

The fury.
The rage I've been building.
The breath for me to scream,
Has been sitting in my lungs.
This waiting game,
Is ******* ridiculous.
Why should you be allowed to decide?
My life should be my choices!
Stay out of it!
I want you gone,
So you called the police.
You're getting out of hand.
I won't back down,
I'm enjoying the anger I cause you!
I hope you feel hurt!
I have no regrets,
Except I didn't do this sooner.
I shouldn't have to fear,
Fear my own mother.

So confused
All turned around.
New people
New sounds.
Do I stay?
Do I go?
There's so many people,
So why am I alone?

I like to be alone,
But being alone surrounded by people,
That's not alone,
That's terrifying...
Isolating...
Cold...

Into the world I go,
Naked and alone
Just follow the path I'm shown...
Into this world so cold.

When we say goodbye,
You remind me it's not forever.
You told me it seems like,
My goodbyes feel like I won't see you again...
I cant tell you but...
My sanity relies on you,
Right now my being relies on you,
A day could be forever to me.
This week without you,
Unbearable.
I'll go insane...
My goodbyes aren't only to you.
I say goodbye to myself everytime you leave.

This mask is too tight,
I can't seem to get it off.
I put it on so long ago,
I never thought it'd get stuck.
It's been so long I can't remember,
I can't remember what I look like.
All I've known for so long is the mask.
But I've always fit the mask so well,
I can't seem to pull it off of me.
I put it on so long ago.
I put it on too tight.
It's form-fitted to me now...
Can anyone help me rip it off?
Please...
I'm begging...

When I see you,
I want to run into your arms
For you to hold me tight
For us to never let go.
And I know you wouldn't mind.
But I hug you fast
And I just settle with "hi"
A soft quick word.

When I see you,
The emotions rush over me
My smiles wants to grow
I want to smile uncontrollably
And I know you wouldn't mind,
But I keep the smile smaller,
For fear you'll realize how twisted it can be,
And my true self I can't allow you to see.
So I settle with "hi"
I say it fast and soft,
And smile a subtle little smile.