As I write the pain eases
My chest becomes lighter
The constriction like venemous jaws
Circling like a Boa
Tightening
Until I flood the page with my hurt
And it escapes my heart
It's been a few years I've been like this
I miss being that carefree child

When i go grocery shopping,
I see families, couples, love
And i just feel sad
Never jealous
Everybody has their own blessings
But that would be nice
I've never felt love
And i don't think it exists

I have been so lonely for so long
Craving an intimacy I cannot find
That when I come across any affection
I fall so deep.
Hopelessly pining for someone
Who considers me a casual encounter
How could you let me hold you like that
If I meant nothing
If we could have nothing
How could you let me ******* like that
kiss you like that
Want you like that
And then be nothing
My love turned to hate
My hate turned to rage
And now I am scared
Of my enduring anger

I long for something so simple
Something people take for granted
Something you see everyday
In the road or in a shop
Something so obvious that
People who have it don't realise

You thought the opposite of addiction was
Sobriety?
No
The opposite of addiction
Is
Human connection.