Up in the treehouse the lights have all gone out, and the curtains are keeping the sun from shining in. The floor boards are broken so you best watch your step or you might fall to the bottom and be met by your death. And I really don't mind if you want to fertilize the ground surrounding my fort, but if you're gonna do that let me know so I can dig a grave for your corpse

You took that life and then you ran away,  now I'm out to get ya but I won't be catching you today
Giving you a head start the way I was taught to do, because my mother always told me if it's love then she'll wait for you
Just figure out what it is you gotta do, I'll be right by your side whenever you're ready to

When you think you're hated there's nothing you can do
Just sit and wait for the monsters to swallow you
When the light is fading there's nowhere you can run
Just sit and pray you'll live to see the morning sun
When loneliness persists there's no one who can help
Just slit your wrists and accept your place in hell

You can only divide yourself so many times
You spread yourself thin over too many lines
The war you've been waging must be fought on all fronts
You have to look strong when you're the king of the runts
And when the war ends you'll go home to find
The life you left waiting has left you behind
Old friends will have forgotten that you ever left
And you wont find a single woman with who you have slept
All the people you knew wont recognize the man who's come home
At least on the battlefield you were never so cold or alone

Honest words are hard to come by, and I don't mean to say I've been telling lies, but anything that I have said has always been a less true version of the sentences swimming in the deepest depths of my head.

I used to wish for slits through my wrists and a hole in my skull, but when the blood would start to flow, I wouldn't learn anything I didn't already know, and the pain did not go, it only slowly continued to grow with each mark I left to show

I used to get into fights, screaming bouts against the wind and the sky, but when the words in my throat would finally run dry, I'd realize I had only been shouting in the hope of reaching the soul trapped behind my eyes, to free him from the denial that coated each of my lies

When you're feeling uninspired or don't know what to do, take a little nap and you'll always dream a clue

Reach down into your soul
You've gotta take control
Hold onto what you need
Give away all you can
And remember to love
No matter what happens

Let it rip, sink into me
Tell me how you hate what you see
Tear me apart, don't hold back
Let me hear the truth, let your heart attack
If you don't have anything nice to say, let it out and I won't turn away
I'll take it in stride
I want to know what you're holding inside

The last thing anybody wants is to be told they don't have a choice, that their mind on the matter is none but a harmless voice

Remember to fake it with all of your heart
I found that you play the most convincing of parts
When you're down on your knees
Begging of me
To set you free
But I don't want you or any of your responsibilities
Be a man
Take charge of your life
Maybe then
Some dumb girl will become your wife
But for now stay away from me
Don't you dare look at me
With those sad eyes
Remember the time
You said goodbye
This is like that
Except I'm letting you die
My friend
You will be born again

I dont care about who you claim to be
Because all i wanted was for you to be a friend to me
Though i gotta say, if it were up to me I'd leave
But i wont, because baby, I'm addicted to your disease
I love it so much when you've got me on my knees
And I pray to god that you'll never set me free

If you come over
I'll clutch my rabbits foot and my four leaf clover
I'll throw a pinch of salt over my shoulder
Then break my leg ten times over
And if I generate enough good luck
You'll actually want me enough to ****

I want your face, and all the pieces attached that make up your ***** sack. Latched together by bone, tied to all the tendons stitched to your skin, with plenty of holes on the outside for you to let me in. Because I know you know neither of us wants to die alone, so open up your head and pull out your heart, be my warm bed and I'll never let you starve. Oh dear my dear, oh wretched old me, I promise you that I'm just a harmless disease. I may drain you of strength, make you feel beaten and broke, but I'll never take your life or threaten to leave you on your own.

Your heart has a body built to hold it, and that body comes with a mind made to control it, and all the parts of that work of art seamlessly seem to be telling me, there's a secret meaning in the way your skin's been speaking to me.

The voices of peace and love that used to sing so loudly had gone and made themselves silent, so all that we heard were the screams and shouts being violently hurled in both directions, as we tried and soon failed to bring back that most beautiful sounding melody.

I don't love you anymore
I'm sorry that it has to end this way
But I just cant put up with the pain
Of watching you long for a love that isn't mine
Please believe me, for so many nights I cried
Wishing that I could have had you by my side
But I've made up my mind, and I'm going to find
A way to move on from what i never wanted to leave behind

I'm so scared of losing what we have

I don't want to have to forget because the pain of remembering is too intense. I don't want to wait through the empty years until I can finally look back on our time fondly and know I've moved on. I don't want to have the violent and guilt ridden nightmares reminding me of what I've broken. I don't want to feel the engulfing embrace of loneliness or the fantastic freedom of self destruction. I don't want to avoid certain songs that I love to prevent the ugly feelings of shame and regret that carry over every note of the tunes I used to consume with you. I don't want to be forgotten by you
I want you with me, always

All around me rain is falling and I can hear the thunder calling my name
A line of light rips across the sky,
splitting the horizon in half. The world has broken into pieces
And from where I'm sitting, I can't find a single reason to move my wheels
The places where my friends are will drift from the rock where I've parked my car on top
The girl I love and all future chances at companionship will sail away as I sit here on my lonely strip

I said it once, and I'll say it again
Don't come back to me if you need a friend
I screamed it before, and I'll shout it once more
Once you are gone I'm locking the door

You're just as guilty as I am of not speaking your mind, and just because I don't speak doesn't mean I have anything to hide. You can see the truth with all the needed proof when you look into my eyes.

Sometimes I think what I say isn't what I mean
But I don't know the difference
I've got such a messy head
And I'm too worried about how to clean it best
I spend hours plotting how I'll find the motivation to move
But there's always a disruption once I get my groove
I say I want my freedom but I don't know what that means
Is it really freedom if you don't even know how to be
And I act like I'm too good for anyone and that they all sicken me
But the truth to that is that without them I wouldn't want to breathe

I want you, and I mean all of you, not just the pretty pieces you want me to see. I want to consume your darkest and dirtiest parts and all the secrets you keep concealed in your heart. I desire the taste of your greatest regrets, and to drink from the fountain of your most dishonest intents. I long to know just how low you have brought yourself to get where you are, and to truly understand everything from your past that ever broke your heart.

The chances are slim
I best walk away
I think I'll save my luck
For another day

I think it can only be a dream
A life at peace
Free from disease
Where what we please
Is always seen
Where what we need
Is always free
Where what we want
Need not be bought
Where what we sought
Is always caught

I mess up on purpose because I don't know natural movement.

I can't trust anybody with anything I feel, if I do I might be wrong.

So I'd rather be fake and aware of my isolating intensity.

I'd destroy my world if you'd just go down on me.

I'm imagining infinite instances, inspiring insatiable insanities, inside implausibly intrinsic ideas, increasingly infiltriating inner ideals

Start it off with a few choice words
Make them sweet
Make them hurt
Get the attention you've so long desired
Then cut down the one you once admired
Emotional attack, a verbal assault
Kiss the wounds with a pinch of salt

Drugs are fun
At least that's what they tell me
As I sit here with blood in my nose nose while choking on combusted crystal fumes, I think to myself, "what the **** are you doing, what's wrong with you?" Then I smile, laugh and reply to myself, "I'm too ******* high to give a **** about you"

This has clearly progressed past what you had prepared
So now you're stalling, silent, and quite simply scared
But this is what you wanted, so go and take a chance
I swear you're gonna make it, it's all in your hands

I'm not sorry anymore
I've made my choices
And now that you're gone all I have are the voices
The ones that told me to get away
The ones that beg for an end to pain
They tell me what to do and where to go
They tell me lies but there's nothing else I know
So I choose to believe that this is what's best
I can't fight it so I'll lay you to rest
I don't want to let you go
But its better for you and that's all you need to know
If I can spare your life then I'm doing what's right
Because I can't let you watch when I turn out the light
If worst comes to worst then I'll live alone with this curse
And when it comes time to accept my defeat
You won't be here so you won't have to see it

Awesome,
Breaking,
Crashing,
Deafening,
Engulfing,
Flood,
Gallopi­ng Horses,
Insanely Jettisoning,
Killer Landslide,
Maniacally Nebulous Outpourings,
Perceptively Quizzical Rhetoric,
Slumbering Truth Under Veils,
Willfully Xenomorphic Yokeless Zen

What do I need
Is it a verse, something romantic and clever
Or is it an epic, once in a lifetime endeavor
Would a simple, yet short and heartfelt confession do it
Or would the awkward silence break me, as I stare into your eyes knowing that I already knew it
I had a chance, but still I ******* blew it
Maybe its all in just being myself
But if its something special I could use a little help

I'm not intent on sharing my intention with you
I've no reason to sing my reasoning to you
I don't want to be wanted here
I don't need to be needed here
I have no feeling to feel for you
I have no ease to be easy for you

My mind is a straightjacket, and no matter how long I struggle or how strongly I flail, I can't break free from or quiet the thoughts causing a racket
My life is a padded cell, and no matter how loud I scream or how hard I slam my head against the walls, nobody hears my cries or even comes to help
You are the nurse ratchet of my existence, and no matter what I say or how many pills of advice you force down my throat, it seems that I'll never be well enough to relinquish your resistance

Stirring in stale smoke, I open my eyes to see her drive away. Its such a worn out joke, but its the only laugh I've had all day

Where can your fear be found?
What sets off your sirens?
Does my presence provoke your defense?
Who was it that exposed your weakness?
Will you let me approach your coast, Or am I the thing you fear most?

Was your last guest a foe in disguise
What betrayal did you see in those eyes
Have you hidden your heart in a tower of stone
Are you keeping your treasure for yourself alone
I seek not your gold but your side on the throne
For my love can brighten all of your unknown

Dont be fooled, loyalty builds interest. Sometimes youll get paid your due the way good parents should teach their  children to do, but you'll also be prey to be played by those who pray for a generous and vulnerable soul to use

I guess I'm just seeing things that aren't there, hearing little whispers that echo through the night, they tell me that something isn't right
I think its because I'm looking for it, chasing ghosts through the dark, without even the smallest light to guide my heart
Sometimes I feel your presence when I'm alone, other times it feels as if you want me to leave, and its always the worst that I choose to believe

He's been grinding his teeth
And you best believe
That he will soon reach
The gums deep underneath

Freaking out over future plans.
Failing to grasp things with my hands.
I dropped the ball into the Atlantic ocean,
hoping it'd make a sick explosion,
but it just sank to the bottom of the sea.
What the **** is wrong with me?

We all need someone we can speak truthfully to, an open ear to hear whatever it is that we're going through. And yet the sad thing is, I don't think anyone could deal with the words that I so often sift through.

I think i lost my talent for explaining what im holding
*** i cant find the words though theyre right in front of me
Im blinded by the feelings that i let get ahold of me
And i dont know what to do when it comes to me and you

Ive been on my own and working on my health
Peace of mind is what im seeking but i still need help
*** im feel like im still in the same place as where i fell
And im wondering if its any different from my old hell

Everything feels like, i dont know
Everyone one i see still wants to go
Away from me and i dont blame them none
I can see now i havent even passed step one

I wish I could meet you
But I'm too afraid
If I could see you
You'd still go away
I should have called you
But I couldn't try
If I could hear you
You'd still say goodbye
I wish I could hold you
But my heart says no
If I got to have you
You'd still choose to go

Why does it always come to this
Losing my way
Over the same old road
It only goes one way
But I don't know which way to go
So every now and then I turn around to where I've been and start walking back

This room is too loud
I'm not trying to meet all these people right now
I'd rather be outside sitting cold on the ground
Just go away, strange angers my brain range

I can barely breathe when they surround me

Is it only a dream
Or is it a disease
Is there any relief
That these eyes will see
Madness into modern men
Regress into our children's pen
Inhale the smoke from burning desire
Choke on the fumes and fall into the pyre