I used to think I was a writer, but now I know I've become a fighter. My words are my weapons, with enough ammo for everyone who eats them to come back for seconds. My wit is cool, my tongue sharp as a blade, I fire from the hip, taking down anyone in my way

If you're gonna play this game you need to own a quick wit, because a real man knows his words are stronger than his fists, and you're as strong as any since you've yet to slit your wrists, so take the hope you hold and turn it into bliss

I wish I would die tonight and maybe tomorrow I could awake to a brand new life. Maybe I'd wake up with a couple of kids, a house, and a wife. Maybe I'd wake up and not have to pretend I don't hate who I am, not have to act like I have a plan, and not have to hold my own hands over my eyes as I cry every lonely night. Maybe I'd wake up to you by my side, but in bed I hide, wide eyed and awake tonight wishing just one thing could go right. Maybe I'll die tonight and not have to wake up to this life I lie, alone with nobody but I, and the thoughts of suicide, in this room devoid of light, where I lay down my every line in my attempt to express my plight. How tired I am of this fight to fall asleep and wake up in my favorite dream, the one everyone says could be if I'd just wake up and start to believe, be the things I mean to be, create the world I want to see, but I just can't leave, the sheets are calling me and I just might stay with them one last time, and leave this fantasy behind, forget about the life that my exhausted mind won't let me find, give up the expectations that I can break this bind, let my teeth begin to grind, and find my peace under a blanket of dirt outside

What about tomorrow, when I'm feeling better?
When I find myself, sleeping calmly in the morning light?
What about when I've raised to my feet, and stretched my leash again?
When I can take steps outside, without being bothered by greener grasses than mine?
When I do finally get "well" as you say, will you be there, or will the wait be too long? Perhaps I just need to be what I am, and if you don't want me then so be it.
So I ask you to tell me, is this goodbye?

My love is *****
My love is cheap
My love is the poison that your body seeks
My heart is pounding
Its awful sounding
I can't stop the feeling
Life's losing meaning
Your heart is pure
But you aren't sure
Can you hold on or will we go wrong
Its all up to you
There's nothing to do
Just sit here and wait for word of my fate

I don't know where I am, but I know the steps I took to reach this plane, a few wrong turns and a leap of lacking faith

Why walk in the footsteps of others, when you can soar above all on eagle's wings
Please my friend, don't shoot me down
Just because I don't keep my feet on the ground
I like the way I see things from up in the clouds
Away from the light and the sounds
That pollute your proclaimed holy ground
Away from the struggle and constant concern
Its just a trick that you too can learn
Forget your worthless, gold painted stones
Gather the love you keep in your homes
Spread it around and soon you'll be over the ground
Flying together, as one and for all with love

Life's a game of chance
Your parents are the dealers
Living stance is luck

There's a storm brewing within every single molecule of my skin

And pyres scorching blindingly bright behind each of my eyes

There's a tornado ripping across and pulling up every inch of my inner guts

And there's an explosion that's about to start planted deep under the hole of my heart

Sleep is nothing but a distant dream
Night is always faster than it seems
Light to dark, dark to light
Sleep has forgotten about me tonight

All this wasted time
Belongs to nobody
But I
All the feigned attempts
Served for nobody
But friends

Do you mean to be so alluring?
I'm not sure if you know what you're doing
To me. I see something in the way to speak
To me. I'd take it any day of the week,
But I don't know if you're really giving,
Or if this is just you being silly.
I hope you're aware and taking notice
Of all the things, I thought you'd know this.
If this is a dream then I hope you don't wake me,
But if it's not then I think I need a shaking.
It can't be real.
I'm yours to steal.
You make it feel
Oh so surreal

They say they know what you want, but I know what you need. They want to steal your heart,  and I bet they'll make you bleed. You don't have to stay, and if you choose to leave with me,  I'll give you everything, and I'll never leave your side. You will be my queen, and you will pay no price, because all my love is free, and it will last for your whole life.

Compromised
Pick a side
You can't stay
in between
Who you've been
and what you're
becoming

As apathetic as the atmosphere, I form just to dissipate
Brush the ash off my shoulder, this world is smoke and grey
Radios blast between deaf ears, I don't understand the words
As rapid as this revolving rock, my heart beats for the whole herd

No longer will we let ourselves be burried beneath the lives we've built
No more will we sit burdened by the weight of fear or guilt
Never again will we be halted from progressing past the sinking silt
We will expose ourselves and let them all see our skin of gilt
We will spread our light upon the world from atop our towering stilts
We will take the world we know and we will make it rebuilt

I havent felt this way in some time
Its been a while since i thought i could try
To fly away is my only wish
im tired of drowning with the fish
Theres a whole world out there whose beauty ive missed

I want to dance up in the clouds
Like before i was told i was not allowed by the voices that used to scream so loud
But now it seems they wont be coming around
So its time i got my feet up off the ground

I want to reach out and touch the sun
With wings that wont succumb to the heat
I need to escape this dark place that has long imprisoned me
And now it finally feels like i have a chance to get free
So im making my way to the sky and not letting anything stop me

I lost the rhythm, dropped the beat, choked the chords.

I think I'm slipping through,

cemented feet, on the corner, of responsibility street,

and romance avenue.

A famine of feats, a loss of belief, what else have you?

never a clue,
what not to do.

I crave clarity, a mind refined
My thoughts are like static
White noise drifting through my attic
Give my head a shake, see my ideas swirl like snow in a globe

Heart on a string
I'm waiting at the other sides end
Pulling away
Every time it's in your open hand

Self-worth is a word that I never had time to learn

I'm gonna make you want me whether you want to or not
If you think I've given up then it's clear that you forgot
I'm incessantly persistent and so utterly insistent upon having everything I want
And once I finally have you I'll kick you back out right on the spot

I sit here with the ghost of you
Talking about nothing, just enjoying the view
The look of sadness claims your face
I open my mouth, but its too late
I close my eyes and accept my fate
I cannot speak, you fade away
If only I could go with you
I'm sorry for the things I said I'd never do
If only I knew
If only I knew
Way back when, you were my friend
Forever was never meant to be
Still I wait for you to lie with me
In this bed so cold, I'm tired and alone
But the ghost of you still lingers along
Cursed by the love that I led wrong
Forever was never meant to be
If only I knew what my words could do
If only I knew what I had done to you

It's a really stupid feeling, one born of ignorance, coated with a seal of denial and faked zeal, wrapped in a pretty box of the the finest failures  you've ever seen, all tied off with a bow, made of the greatest compromise to life that's even been known, and it's for you, so I hope you like it

We do not live
We wish to be a not
We'd rather refuse to give
Than increase the lot we've got

Oh please tell me, scream it out, can you see me toiling to make sense, can you hear me foiling myself with ignorance. Oh please tell me, is there any other way to escape, is there any reason to have hope, is there any more that I can do to convince myself I should not love you.

If what I take doesn't **** me by tomorrow, its safe to assume it will just prolong the sorrow
If where I go isn't where I intend, its natural to presume I wanted to walk down dead ends
If the things I say don't ring softly through your ears, just know my heart is shook by the sight of all your tears

Beneath the canopy of falling stars
We sat and waited in my car
I looked at you as you stared silently
As I wondered what was wrong with me
You said I messed up, but you did so much worse
I only gave you everything, but still my name you cursed
Now as the tide pulls away, I reach for you as you do the same
Why were we ever so close, when all of my words are now spent on your ghost
I really wish that you'd have stayed, and I just cant accept the choice that you made
But now I think that its too late, you were lucky to have even escaped

We all want to disappear
To tear our insides out of the existence sphere

Enslavement of the common man
Working and toiling all the way to his grave
Always counting what he has
Every penny must be saved

I miss you
And it hurts a lot
I'd go back to then
But I forgot how
Now so distant
Your hands from mine
I hold them out
But can't catch you in time
Pulling away
I walk out
Into the cold
All alone

Darling, won't you drag yourself back into my bed?
It's warm and comfy here by the fire in my head.
I know it hurts to lie, down there on the floor,
I do it all the time, and I'm ready for some more.
Come on baby, won't you meet me beneath the sheets?
Let me cover you from your head down to those freezing feet.
We can stay here for a month, then feed upon each other when it comes time for us to eat.

Wanton wagons wander through county center cemeteries where people purchase poison to nurture natures needs

You used to cower at the smallest scent of trouble at your doors other side, and you'd run for the harbor to escape the land whenever storms headed ashore were soon to arive, not caring about what you'd leave behind or the people who wouldn't get a goodbye, suffering self-inflicted ruthless alienation every time fear found its way into the center of your mind, you'd kick and scream and swear you would die, just to put an end the terrors that only your eyes could find

You are doing better

I knew where I'd wind up, but I refused to believe that what I thought was true, and now I'm where I said I'd be, still alone and blue

I feel it growing
Between us it's starting to
We need to go now

Where this is going
There's no good way to know, but
Insides are showing

The mind is a cage
Prisoners are overfed
Thoughts make for slow death

If love eternal
Then I eternally rot
For what I have not

Girl one room over
Neither in my bed this night
Nor any other

What the **** is going on in your head
Your idea of life is my idea of death
What the **** did I do to you
Why the **** did I ever love you
Do you really think that this is best
You push down and put my will to the test
Everywhere I go all I see is ****
All I wanna do is find someone to hit
leave me alone
You left me home
You said you'd you'd return but you left me to burn
Do you really think you'll find a better man
Nobody else will ever love you the way I can
Self abuse
Life without use
You were the oxygen in my every breath
Now I'm ******* down poison hoping for death
I hope your heart is ******* broke
You made me regret every word I spoke
You told me that I needed help
But all you did was watch as I lost myself
You said you loved me but it must have been a lie
If a single word was true you wouldn't leave me to die
Everything I say
Everything I do
I'm done wasting all my time on you
I'm ready to learn how to embrace hate
I'm ready to stop caring about my fate
I ******* hate you for what you make me feel
You can't love me for what makes me real
I close my eyes
All I see is your face
I close my heart
All I feel is hate

I play dangerous games
The kind you don't forgive
Sick little scripts flow through my wrists
Taking down the host of e-motion

Sick of being told what's wrong and what's right
Tired of sleeping soundly every night
Bored of having to always keep up the fight
Frustrated with everything that is my life

At first I favored the other reptiles, with their damp, rigid bodies
They were easy to get along with, and I don't think they noticed I'd been imitating them
But I grew tired of lounging in swamps and settling for insects at every meal
I wanted to eat meat like the true mighty beasts