Pleasure in a world without pain will drive a man insane, just as darkness in a place with no light will still seem kind of bright

I've spent too long in these woods and now I'm afraid I'll never escape. These trees have now been watching me for several years, as I've shrunk from a man, full of promises and potential, just seeking inspiration, into a wanton waste of nothingness, just wandering wrecklesly, while these mighty wooden watchers just continue to grow, bloom, and blossom around me, and I simply cannot keep up with them.

For the longest time I kept my head above the waves and my feet stuck in the sand, but now your sea levels are rising, swallowing every place that I could try to hide, and I don't think I have it in me to keep swimming through your tide. I'm not ready to sink beneath this, but I no longer have a choice, so before my lungs fill with water, I need you to hear my voice.

There was nothing I wanted more, than to simply rest on the crest of your shore. All I needed was to lay upon your sandy space, and feel your spray splash onto my face. But now that your tide has taken my beach, washed over all that I used to see, there's no place I can go to be free. All I can do is let your current carry me in its hands, because I'd rather drown beneath your ocean than live upon dry land

What can you do when your heart is confused, and your brain is battered and internally bruised, and despite all the hope you try to hold in your head, at the end of the day you still wish you were dead?

You may think that you are, but you're no walk in the park. You're more like a ten mile swim straight down, to the bottom of an ocean where no light can be found, while I'm struggling desperately to breathe, because you put a kink in the hose that holds the air I need to breathe

I haven't showered for seventy two hours, it's been three days since you put me in my place again
And I don't want to believe that just like Jesus Christ, today's the day that I'm supposed to rise again.

Your heart has a body built to hold it, and that body comes with a mind made to control it, and all the parts of that work of art seamlessly seem to be telling me, there's a secret meaning in the way your skin's been speaking to me.

Drugs are fun
At least that's what they tell me
As I sit here with blood in my nose nose while choking on combusted crystal fumes, I think to myself, "what the **** are you doing, what's wrong with you?" Then I smile, laugh and reply to myself, "I'm too ******* high to give a **** about you"

I should publish a book, just so people can buy it and never read a single word
They can put it on their living room tables, and point it out when company comes over
"I read poetry, go open that book if you don't believe me" they'll say, and amazingly, when the book is opened, someone will know that their host is lying
Because if a person reads poetry, they would never buy my book

I've got you in my sights, way high flying through wide open skies
You and I are all alone up here, dancing around dangerously in the stratosphere
Dare I pull this trigger and take you down?
If I do I promise, I'll beat you to the ground

I've often been given the old aged advice:
"Don't put all your eggs in one basket"*
-but I don't really see a way to apply that logic when I only have one carrying case, and the fact that it's full of holes only makes things easier to misplace. Besides, I only have one egg to hold onto, so often I find my hands are my best tool to use, but too hard I squeeze such easily broken hopes, so all I ever get are shell shards and yellow yolks

Climb a tower,
Reach the top,
Be faced with three choices;
Remain at the peak alone,
Go back down the way you came,
Or accept adventure: jump and see where you can land

Your razor blade is still sitting on the window ledge in the bathroom, and I'd give it back to you, but you told me to get away, so that's where I'm gonna stay. I wonder if I should cut myself with it before I throw it away, set it to my wrists and pull open the veins, let myself pour down the shower drain while I contemplate the consequences of this game we chose to play.

What's a lonely boy to do
When he cant find anyone to
Paint gold over all his blues

And whats a broken soul to say
When he can never find a way
To express his deepest darkest pains

Suicide sure sounds nice
So nice ill think about it twice
Im afraid to pay the price
But someday soon i just might

A life of ease
Where love is free
And pain is nothing but a bad dream
I dont think it can be
But all i can do is believe

Your thoughts are like refugees, longing to find freedom and relief, from the mind they wish to flee
And they are also like martyrs, willing to fling themselves at death, wanting to prove they have meaning

I cannot hate you as much as I hate myself for loving you

I only want you to have a reason to smile, just a little reason to laugh for a while, a reason to joke in the face of denial, and a reason to believe that your fate isn't final

I cant see what my bodys doing
I think im really close to pooping
Ive never quite felt this way before
Except for when ive got a ***** begging from the floor

I said it once, and I'll say it again
Don't come back to me if you need a friend
I screamed it before, and I'll shout it once more
Once you are gone I'm locking the door

We all need someone we can speak truthfully to, an open ear to hear whatever it is that we're going through. And yet the sad thing is, I don't think anyone could deal with the words that I so often sift through.

I was told when I was young there's a little devil in everyone
You can't spit him out
You can't dry him up
Anything that you can try will only make him blink his eyes, And you'll **** yourself before he goes blind

I think i lost my talent for explaining what im holding
*** i cant find the words though theyre right in front of me
Im blinded by the feelings that i let get ahold of me
And i dont know what to do when it comes to me and you

Ive been on my own and working on my health
Peace of mind is what im seeking but i still need help
*** im feel like im still in the same place as where i fell
And im wondering if its any different from my old hell

Everything feels like, i dont know
Everyone one i see still wants to go
Away from me and i dont blame them none
I can see now i havent even passed step one

Such a sudden specter
A spirit I've felt before
Like raindrops on the glass, I can only watch as you pass through
And if I could catch a single drip for every time I've thought of you, I'd have enough to fill the entire ocean blue

Filled with fantastic fantasies
Memories I'll never make
Like airplanes in the atmosphere, I can only watch as you fly by
And if I could take flight every time that you cross my mind, I could soar forever and leave this world behind

Last night I longed to hear your voice
I begged god to let me see you whole
I swore I'd give up my life for just one night
I would do anything for just a moment with your soul

Our lives were crossed at a beautiful intersection
And even now as we prepare to part
I still hold a piece of you in my heart
I'll never forget the lesson I've learned
The sun only dissapears because the world has turned
But soon enough it will rise again
And when it does we'll still be friends
I'll always be there if you come knock on my door
Thank you for showing me what life is for

We do not live
We wish to be a not
We'd rather refuse to give
Than increase the lot we've got

"This time is for real, there will be none greater than this!"* - a record stuck on repeat

I hate who I am and can't stand what I've been, but not a single one of us can live without sin

Lately I've been learning some very important truths.
I've learned that you don't always need proof,
Just believe in what makes sense to you.
Everybody's entitled to their own point of view,
But make sure you stand by the truth you choose

I feel it growing
Between us it's starting to
We need to go now

I sit here with the ghost of you
Talking about nothing, just enjoying the view
The look of sadness claims your face
I open my mouth, but its too late
I close my eyes and accept my fate
I cannot speak, you fade away
If only I could go with you
I'm sorry for the things I said I'd never do
If only I knew
If only I knew
Way back when, you were my friend
Forever was never meant to be
Still I wait for you to lie with me
In this bed so cold, I'm tired and alone
But the ghost of you still lingers along
Cursed by the love that I led wrong
Forever was never meant to be
If only I knew what my words could do
If only I knew what I had done to you

I've been caught flat footed before but I always got away
When I opened my mouth I always had the right words to say
But now I've been found with my feet shoved down my throat
I have nothing to speak and I have no way to let go
of the skin I've been nibbling on so thoroughly
This flesh may rot inside but it does not sicken me
I have long since learned to suffer the taste of what you see

I need to tire myself out before I get home lest I be too awake to sleep on my own

I can live with being tired all the time, the reason why I can't get a good night's sleep is what's killing me

There's a sound that been beating me deaf between my ears
It's a melody made by mixing madness, anxiety, and fear
It's a song that you're lucky you'll never have to hear
But if you know the tune then sing it loud and clear
And I'll welcome you into the madhouse that is this mind of mine

It will snake
Its way back
Into my head
Before i know
I'll be dead
Replaced by it
I will not change
I will degrade
All the way
Into my grave
Where my bones
Will feed the same
Bugs and dirt
From which I came

She is the earth, the moon, the planets, and the stars
And when I sit alone with her side by side in my car
I can feel for once that heaven isn't very far

Oh cast away eyes, how much of me can you see today
Oh volcanic heart, how quickly will you burn me away
Oh contemptuous course, how far will you allow me to stray
Oh shallow songs, how many more must you make me play

I can't walk alone with you if you're gonna wear your clothes beautifully like that, and if you don't mess up your hair real quick I think I'm gonna snap. I can't look at you if you're gonna strut with all you got, and don't you flash your eyes at me or I'll have to gouge them out

You have to be strong, because even the darkest terror that you've ever seen is but to her just another harmless dream stacked against the nightmare that her whole life has been.

Sometimes this love develops a bitter taste, and it becomes a pretty tough pill to swallow, but I'm here looking to overdose and reach a higher place, so I'll open my mouth and choke down the whole ******* bottle

Like substance I abuse you.
I crave you.
There's nothing I won't do,
For a taste
Of my next big mistake
With your face

Inside my chest rests a hole
Black and bottomless, it goes straight to my center
Above it hangs a sign that reads: danger, do not enter
If you shine a light and try to see the floor, you'll find yourself staring into a vacant core
Absorbing all white
Spitting out just dark

A million conversations all in my head
A million chances to be better off dead
Yet every time I've chosen the safety of silence instead

I can't see the future, or any future to be precise
I can only see lies and a bed buried in ice
Where I lay my head
I won't think again

I never really wanted to
But I'll say goodnight
My hole is too holy to infect with your logic or your truth

I believe only in nothing, and that peace is a void
I don't believe that we are one of God's toys
When we all die
There's no paradise

We go absolutely no where
Just rot in the soil
And never dream again of something more out there

Look at my lying like a dead deer on the side of the road, got hit by a metal monster rushing to get where he wants to go. Now all you machines with rubber wheels for feet, just roll on by, don't look at me. Here I'll stay for a month or two til mother nature has her way with me. The rain will fall and bloat up my corpse, then I'll wash away as it continues to pour.

Sometimes I wonder where it went, or if you even meant the words you said, because lately I've been thinking about this pain in my chest, and I think now's the time to lay all of this to rest.

You used to cower at the smallest scent of trouble at your doors other side, and you'd run for the harbor to escape the land whenever storms headed ashore were soon to arive, not caring about what you'd leave behind or the people who wouldn't get a goodbye, suffering self-inflicted ruthless alienation every time fear found its way into the center of your mind, you'd kick and scream and swear you would die, just to put an end the terrors that only your eyes could find

You are doing better

The world I know does not exist, when you are by my side
It's replaced by a place of wonder, where smiles don't need to hide
A land of entrancing dancing, with the shaking of our souls
When we grab hold of each other, everything surrounding us lets go

*I just want to flow
In the place that I know
The sun always shows

I just need to breathe
In the place that can be
Only you next to me