She is the earth, the moon, the planets, and the stars
And when I sit alone with her side by side in my car
I can feel for once that heaven isn't very far

I hate everything that these words have come to represent, all the things I refuse to do and all that I pretend

Yes I can write all about how badly I want this and that, but once my desires try to leave the page I stab them in the back

Never have I tried to tame the hell that I create, I only wait and watch as nothing changes and I stay the same

Any thought that might distract me from my quiet sulking act, pushed aside by the fears I've been feeding and letting grow fat

Every day I leave marks upon the skin of my note pads, keeping track of all the cracks in my conscience and all the dreams I wish I had

There lie some truths inside my mind that I won't dare to ever spill, because if I were to read what I would write it would make them real

I mess up on purpose because I don't know natural movement.

I can't trust anybody with anything I feel, if I do I might be wrong.

So I'd rather be fake and aware of my isolating intensity.

I'd destroy my world if you'd just go down on me.

You go on with big brown eyes
Seeing the shadow hiding in every ray of day
You always find where every rainbow ends in the sky
And only recognize the frowns you cross in town

The solitary sink where my soul can swim
The single state I can survive in
The remote reason for me to roam
The ringing reality I reap from home
The fleeting feeling of forgotten feasts
The frantic results of frivolous feats

The mind of a writer is like the body of a prize fighter. It always ends up getting beat around, and every once in a while it gets knocked down, yet every time it finds its way back to its feet, because nothing but death can make it accept defeat

Boredom may drive you to some scary places
Where ignorance hides behind all of our faces
What we ignore is everything we fear
Don't ask me why, I don't know how I got here

I'm sorry
If my words
Have not been what you want to hear
But I'm not sorry
If my words
Have reminded you of your own fear

Could you ever imagine, thinking of a future where you did not exist?

I can feel myself slipping away, because theres not much holding me back, these days, its so hard trying to hold myself together, because even if i could do it from now until forever, i dont think, i should, know that its not so bad, but i could never really get the hang of acting like that, so i say so long, to this part, of my heart

Oh my heart, why do you do what you do to me? You make me so hard to get and...

so easy to be forgotten

Sometimes I wonder where it went, or if you even meant the words you said, because lately I've been thinking about this pain in my chest, and I think now's the time to lay all of this to rest.

I want to know where feelings go when they die
If they cease to exist, or if they were never more real than you or I
I wonder if those feelings don't dissipate at all, but fade and lie in wait for another day
Lying dormant, trampled like a doormat
All other emotions have right of way
Everything trying to escape
All I want is to stay
Just for once I want to feel
I want to know that its real
If I could just feel once more
To know if love can be reborn

I'm so sick of the cycles we run ourselves through.
We apologize and then continue all the awful things we do.
Never able to stop, but we all understand,
We are tasked with building live upon foundations of sand,
unable to hold the weight of this earth's heavy demands.
We'll fight when we have to, and we'll steal what we can.

You are my favorite star, but the sad thing is you no longer burn, and I'm just praising the last of your rays as they're hurtling towards earth. Decimated by your own design, it will not be seen that you were gone until it is far beyond my own moment to shine. I will waste my days looking to the sky, letting my eyes be filled with hope from a light whose source has already been lost to time.

We never really did wrong, but we know we never did right, so let's do what what is left, let's give it a try tonight

A thousand times I'd said I'd try
A thousand times I simply lied

I do not
Like being ignored or forgotten
I do not
Like being alone or bored
I do not
Like being

wear your soul over your skin, filter the feelings you let in, edit the feelings you let out, and always remember what life is about; not the things that you have, but the people that you love and would hate to live without

Maybe for a moment I should try to breathe while sitting alone and silent, while I focus on the peace that I've been struggling to find, without you standing by to spit daggers into my sides, every single time I lose control over my mind

Is it only a dream
Or is it a disease
Is there any relief
That these eyes will see
Madness into modern men
Regress into our children's pen
Inhale the smoke from burning desire
Choke on the fumes and fall into the pyre

I wish I could meet you
But I'm too afraid
If I could see you
You'd still go away
I should have called you
But I couldn't try
If I could hear you
You'd still say goodbye
I wish I could hold you
But my heart says no
If I got to have you
You'd still choose to go

The demons that used to dissolve in alcohol have learned to hold their shape, and the terrors that used to tremble in smoke have learned to stand their ground, and the evils that used to evaporate in your presence have learned to keep you away

Our natural rights have been forgotten
Freedom must be something that nobody understands
Life should be unplanned and pleasant
But instead we work and follow other's demands
What is existence if it comes with a price
We must take our lives back with our own hands

I'm tripping over something
I know it isn't new
I'm falling into a strange thing
It could just be you
I have found my missing mind
There's nothing I can't do
And my heart has finally found
A love more than true

Ring goes the bell, triggering my mind
Ring goes the bell, moving down the line
Motions exploding, emotions corroding
Mountains crumble, elephants stumble
Breaking down, all the same
Breaking down, push them away
Can't fake it
can't take it
Wasting my time
Waiting in line
Ring goes the bell, every thirty seconds
Ring goes the bell, the voice always beckons

It might be dumb of me to ever believe that there could be one out there meant for me, because when it comes to she I can never seem to find one who enjoys seeing me the way that I know how to be

I hate everything that these words have come to represent
All the things I refuse to do and all that I pretend
I can write all about how badly I want this and that, but once my desires try to leave the page I stab them in the back
For myself, I can never tame the hell that I create
I can only wait and watch as nothing changes and I stay the same
Every day I leave marks upon the skin of my note pads, keeping track of all the cracks in my conscience and all the dreams I wish I had

Angelic in nature but he slips through the fracture
His mind is at ease  
He'll always ask please
He's lost in his mind
His hearts out of rythym and he can't find the words within him
All he wants is to feel again
Love or hate its all the same
We all live the same lives but go by different names
We all tell the same lies but play different games
We lose ourselves in seemingly unstoppable moments
We fritter and fray as we lose control of our components

Insides get tight while the mind unravels again, as alarms are ringing through walls of muscle and skin
Stubborn but patient, the heart beats on, waiting for a sign that it won't be wrong

The last thing anybody wants is to be told they don't have a choice, that their mind on the matter is none but a harmless voice

Where can your fear be found?
What sets off your sirens?
Does my presence provoke your defense?
Who was it that exposed your weakness?
Will you let me approach your coast, Or am I the thing you fear most?

I don't think any of us are ever truly ourselves unless we are alone. There will always be parts of ourselves we want to hide from the eyes of those we respect.

It wouldn't matter if I didn't write, these words would still go unread by the people whose actions put them in my head

This could be the place where I lay my heart on the line, or shrug you off again and say I'm fine
You could be the heart where I can easily rest my head, or the hole where I can be buried along with your best intent

It's my constant conscious consideration that I don't want a cataclysmic complication, but this constant intoxication is a writhing indication that I have already let all the bricks fall right off the wall

Its a madhouse in my mind
I hate the love I can't find
No place is safe for peace to hide
There's no escaping once you're inside

I hate to love
I love to hate

I love from afar
I hate when you're close
My heart has a scar
It goes deeper than most
I loath your love
I find pleasure in pain
I hope you know
I'll have nothing to say
Would you please leave
I need to be alone
I don't believe
I'll ever find my own

Like a ball of twine, one end held tightly by my two aching fingers while the rest falls out from the scarred valley of her palms, my mind is unraveled at the sight of a thousand dead bodies; all the people that we wanted but never let ourselves become

I'm just trying to keep it all in my head
If I let it out, I think I'll wind up dead
But lately I've been bursting from the seams with fear
And I've been wondering just why it is I'm still here

You told me to listen to myself.
"Follow what feels right."
So I sit here tonight, alone, and ******, brooding over the choice I have chosen.
You said I need to fix myself.
I agree that I'm broken
But if you can't care for me when I'm sharp little pieces, what makes you think you could love me when I'm whole?
You cried that I wouldn't fight for myself.
"Be a man and take what you want!"
So I'll take my love and my life, because I'm selfish, and you're right. I'll end this shame we've sunk into tonight.

This heart is beating and it stops all the time
Any time I think of you I hit the flatline
But maybe someone else can restart the rhythm
Because I can't keep beating for you if you won't even listen

The voice says yes, you can do as you please, so long as what I think you should do agrees.

I can't help it
It's just the way I am
Always to want more than
What I have
Its never enough
I can't change it
I want more than
I need to
It's not ok
But it's the only way
I know how to be
Always less than
What they want
It's less than
I could ever want
I'm just a selfish man
Always wanting more than
What I've been given
It's all good
But still I want more
I know I should
Try to be satisfied
With what I have

You are everything and everywhere, there is no escape

Cuz if she won't
I'll have to go
Wander off far
Away from our home

Around the world
In search a girl
Who's worth more than
My girl at home

Find another
Woman like her
Who wants to be
My entire world

Only you are left to be found when all else is dark

Tell me how does a man take his life and make something more of it,
And how does a man ever take a wife and not get bored with it