You see me and I see you
Now what are we gonna do
Because I know you know
And you know I know
There's something deeper than we let show

I'd rather drown beneath your ocean than live upon dry land
I'd rather starve through your famine than eat from any other hand
I'd rather be lost in your desert than find myself alone
I'd rather sleep beneath your bridges than have the comfort of any other home
Because without you, life makes no sense
And I would rather suffer by your side, than spend my time in ignorance

Im all about that sweet decline,  when nothing's right but i feel just fine
I know how pathetic it is, the life that i have tried to live
Excuse for this
Excuse for that
Its a wonder that ive made it past
12 bottles on the table
Turned to 17
And 24 still somehow able
But will i last til 27
Or come up short of the group in heaven
I dont know how much farther ill go
Self destruction is all i know

When given two choices I always choose wrong, whether I upset you by staying quiet or offend you with a song. No matter what I say or don't say, do or don't do, there's always a reason my decision hurts you.

What does it say about you that the only love you've truly known, was thrown from your hand like a skipping stone
And what does it say of me that the stone has made its way back to shore, as if it was begging to be thrown once more
Next time you must toss it with such wicked strength, it will have no choice but to lay where you watched as it sank
And though all stones may eventually return to shore, the stones that return are still smaller than before

Remember all the weeks that we'd spend holed up in my house
Just a couple of thieves hiding out from the cops
We had a couple of things and I thought that I had you and I thought that you had me
But then you blamed me for taking the same things from you that I caught you taking from me
I was only picking up all the feelings you left lying on the ground
I tried to hide it but I could tell you knew even though I never made a single sound
Red handed, I tried to touch your face
But you just pushed me out the way and left me believing I was to blame
Because you knew the time had come and just outside the police were surrounding the place

You got away
I told them I made you do it
I could never rat you out
Even though you left me standing there while they came in to take us down

Now I'm serving my time, and I tried to write you once or twice even though I dont expect that you'll reply
I've got a few more years in here I think, and It's gonna give me the time that I think I'll need to sort you out of my mind
And I hope you always get away from the police, and I hope you always get whatever help you need, but I pray that when the day comes and I get free, I pray that you will stay away from me

Hello friend, how are you
I'd really like to talk, just us two
We can chat for hours about the mundane and trivial
And maybe express our feelings over tomorrows morning cereal

The chances are slim
I best walk away
I think I'll save my luck
For another day

So tell me babe, what do you say
Will you seize this chance or let life slip away
I beg you please, don't leave us this way
Is there nothing I could do to convince you to stay
Please just go to sleep, and find peace in your dreams
Just remember me, and don't forget to believe
That there's nothing except for love that will ever set you free

Have you ever tricked yourself into believing the force of your steps is what moves the world beneath you, and that your every breath is what pushes all the people away? It's true; you alone are all there is, and you are responsible for all that exists

What are you doing?
Have you not a clue at all?
Being on high all the time is a short fuse away from wasted life, and its a round about way to pretend you are right.
You stay up all night because you can't sleep, and its eating at your conscience every hour of the week like you're the all night dinner from down the street

I've walked roads the lead nowhere
Built of stones crushed by despair
I've followed paths into the dark
Through long nights
Past bright lights
Never stopping to see where I am
Wandering alone without a plan
There's a road over a raging river
I take a step and the whole bridge shivers
I hope I don't fall and break through
I need to find my way in these woods
I'm crossing over now without a thought
Ignoring the danger and lessons I've been taught
The splintered spruce might break beneath my weight
But I have to keep moving to catch what got away

Running around
Trying to get ahead
Life's a competition
Or at least that's what everyone says
but I don't think that it makes much sense
Living a life to have more than the rest

Was your last guest a foe in disguise
What betrayal did you see in those eyes
Have you hidden your heart in a tower of stone
Are you keeping your treasure for yourself alone
I seek not your gold but your side on the throne
For my love can brighten all of your unknown

Girl one room over
Neither in my bed this night
Nor any other

Someday you may find yourself in a distant land, and you'll find You've forgotten the fear from which you ran, but now you're scared and alone without a hand to hold, and you're worried that you'll grow too old, and that nobody will want to take you in from the cold.

So you're on your own, you've made a new home, but you're still alone, and you can't remember what you had been told, so you scramble to show just how bold you are but you fold into pieces as the story goes on just the same as it always does

Time to make this mold new, out with the old for attempt number two, but make sure what you say you're going to is true, or you'll find yourself unable to be anything but blue

Do not like this, because it is sad,
Sorry,
Weak,
And poorly put together
Please, do not praise this effort
It is empty, shallow, and uninspired
I am not a poet, I hope you know this
I am alive, and so very tired of spilling words like tears onto the shoulders of people I will never meet
But this is all I have, so be it terrible, lazy, and pathetic, it is all I have, even though it is not enough

I'm gonna make you want me whether you want to or not
If you think I've given up then it's clear that you forgot
I'm incessantly persistent and so utterly insistent upon having everything I want
And once I finally have you I'll kick you back out right on the spot

Freaking out over future plans.
Failing to grasp things with my hands.
I dropped the ball into the Atlantic ocean,
hoping it'd make a sick explosion,
but it just sank to the bottom of the sea.
What the **** is wrong with me?

In the face of your glory, I will tremble but not stumble
I will raise my head, and look up
To the stars your eyes contain, jewels I may never reflect brightly from, though I am graced by their fabulous glean as you aim them at me.
With a sensation arising of desire and admiration,
I will meet your magnificent stare,
And I will be pulled into your space

Everybody is my friend until I say I need them
Then they run so far away
I can't catch them so here I stay
Can you tell me why I'm so lonely
All I want is someone to hold me
My whole life I've had no mother
So if you hate me blame my father
I don't mean to be so off putting
I'm just never sure of what I'm doing
I'm always trying to please the crowd
But I'd love for someone to bring me down
I can't keep dancing for all of you
Even if its all I want to do

Why do we sit?
Why do we lie?
Why don't we stand?
Oh that's right, we'd die

What the **** is going on in your head
Your idea of life is my idea of death
What the **** did I do to you
Why the **** did I ever love you
Do you really think that this is best
You push down and put my will to the test
Everywhere I go all I see is ****
All I wanna do is find someone to hit
leave me alone
You left me home
You said you'd you'd return but you left me to burn
Do you really think you'll find a better man
Nobody else will ever love you the way I can
Self abuse
Life without use
You were the oxygen in my every breath
Now I'm ******* down poison hoping for death
I hope your heart is ******* broke
You made me regret every word I spoke
You told me that I needed help
But all you did was watch as I lost myself
You said you loved me but it must have been a lie
If a single word was true you wouldn't leave me to die
Everything I say
Everything I do
I'm done wasting all my time on you
I'm ready to learn how to embrace hate
I'm ready to stop caring about my fate
I ******* hate you for what you make me feel
You can't love me for what makes me real
I close my eyes
All I see is your face
I close my heart
All I feel is hate

Somehow I keep
Letting you slip
Through my fingers
And under my nose.
Then when you're gone
I don't feel a thing
But your memory lingers,
Like the smoke in the air
That I breathe in my sleep,
I Inhale as much of you
As my lungs can keep,
Until I am thoroughly
And completely choked.
The house is on fire,
But I'll never leave this roast.
I'm just dreaming of you,
As I sleep alone
Inside my burning home

I try to be something
Most often I'm not
I used to be someone
Who I am forgot
I can be nothing
It's still more than I've got
I think I'm no one
Don't ever tell me I'm not
The only reason I've made it at all
I've faked my way through every fall
I pretended that I could hold a presence
Every action and every word
Used to keep hold of my world
Abandon the truth
Forget the past
There is no proof
Just make this last

There is a tension running through my veins today. The blood inside them feels thicker than my skin, and the seals that hold it together are struggling to keep me in.

I saw the wild cats playing in the street
They see me
They eat meat
I once tried to approach them, to see what they could teach
The one I spoke to told me, its best if you stay out of our reach
If you try to catch them, they'll always get away
You cannot control them, but if you're silent they might stay
You may try to tempt them, with a mouse or a fish
But should you ever feed one, be sure it doesn't bite your wrist

No matter what I try to do, it never seems good enough for you. One wrong move and you'll turn from gold to blue, and you'll leave me feeling angry, bitter, confused, and so very ******* used

Someday that heart of yours is going to get you killed, and the one you die for won't stay to foot the bill

What a beautiful day to set the world to flame
I'll burn down this city before I die of shame
On a night as dark as the void behind my eyes
I'll build a fire to ignite the whole sky

Tear down the hospitals that couldn't fix the pain
Wreck the television stations for all the **** they play
**** all the scenes and smite the popular crowds
**** absolutely everybody that I'm going to let down

You are what adds flourish to the light and dark, you are what gives either their meaning

I am flying high on a pair of wings that aren't mine
They're borrowed, bent, and a bit broken
But they carry me to places no one can see
Where I can be alone, at home, and ******
If you must then rip them from my back
Because all good things must end but may still begin again
Maybe someday I'll grow my own and let my true colors be shown
These wings they comfort me as they carry me over all that I can see
But I'm sure if I could just grow my own I could fly beyond all that I know

The cauldrons are churning up in the abandoned attic
The televisions are all promoting a state of perpetual static
The streets are shrouds of smoke filled with folks you've seen
The world itself is a joke when you only feel safe in your dreams

This latest fashion is becoming quite the passion
Nights kept awake by alcohols bitter taste
So say cheers to the future and all that you'll do
And say a prayer for the hopes that you're still holding on to
The night is young and so are you
You have all your life to make dreams come true

There's nothing quite like when you lie to me
by lying in my arms,
silently pretending that we can be
more than just you and me.
And there's nothing I love more
than when you lie to me from the floor
and tell me that you don't want me anymore.
So there's nothing I can do
but lie beside and lie with you.

I choose to use you for my own self abuse.

I should really stop digging this hole, right?
I mean, what do I have to gain by going any deeper?
And I've been at it long enough I'd say, because I see nearly three irreplaceable years that so quickly slipped away

I let myself get ****** in so swiftly
Just so I can try to be part of someone else's whole, because there's too much empty space in my own to ever complete my soul

The words only sound good in my head
When i see them on paper i think my brains gone dead
Nothing seems coherent and every syllable is arbitrarily placed
No rhyme or reason except for what ive come to expect from the one whose lost his skill with the pen
Im at the end of my rope and i cant use my words to cope because everything i say makes me feel like im just a dope headed loser whos got nothing but a single string around his throat holding him back from choosing to become a ghost

Where this is going
There's no good way to know, but
Insides are showing

Every time I fall, I sink like a stone
Dropped into the ocean
Tossed by endless waves
I never get to rest
Someday I'm sure, I will reach the shore
Only to be taken back by the tide
Pulled back under the crushing ways

You've gotta prove that you can own it
Make them know how bad you want it
Tell them what you'd do to hold it
Let your skin show like you told it
Once you've got it don't let go

Don't let go

Noises from their mouths, that's all that words are; so the decision lies with you - can they leave a scar?

I wish I could join you there in a dream, though I'm sure you don't know what I mean, but here I lie with wide restless eyes, trying to keep it all inside, and I'm sweating slightly with a little shake.

You make me feel so awake

A moment alone
I feel so at home
Same old thoughts waiting by the fire
Same wasted future ready to expire
I'll meet them in midnight glow
Can't let anybody but you know

When these arms have nobody to hold, part of me wants to stop growing old

Honest words are hard to come by, and I don't mean to say I've been telling lies, but anything that I have said has always been a less true version of the sentences swimming in the deepest depths of my head.

No longer will we let ourselves be burried beneath the lives we've built
No more will we sit burdened by the weight of fear or guilt
Never again will we be halted from progressing past the sinking silt
We will expose ourselves and let them all see our skin of gilt
We will spread our light upon the world from atop our towering stilts
We will take the world we know and we will make it rebuilt

Fake it till you make it
Make it then you break yours
Fake it til you retake it
Take it all the way to a corpse

Pleasure in a world without pain will drive a man insane, just as darkness in a place with no light will still seem kind of bright

It's becoming clear that its not me, but everything that I believe
The little lies that materialize and pile high til they blind my eyes
I want to trust in my own thoughts and find comfort in my heart
But the truth is that I just can't see the reality of everything that is me

I wish I could provide the proof for you and let you read it through and through
Then let you tell me what to do, but you'll never know me the way I do

Its hard to focus on a single idea
Every imagined betrayal
All the made up pain
They seem so real in my brain
The emotions that endlessly erupt
The feelings that I can't feel enough
I always want to have to much
And it's to the point where I want to give up
Because I'll never cease the cause of pain
I'll always find a way to make it rain
Soak myself as i pour on the shame
Always playing to win a losing game
It's all that I know how to do, because in the end I'll never know the truth