Please step back into my light
My only wish is to set this right
Bruised and misused
You
Bored and confused
Me
Swirling and twirling straight into our end
We both let go but continued to pretend
Blaming the other for the average of our failure
I said she had abandoned me
She said I was wrong and just couldn't see
But what I heard was enough
She became the enemy
I continued spinning into a twister of hate
She went back to the ******* that she used to date
And yet we were still the same
Filled with feelings we can't tame
Nobody understands it if we try to explain
We shared a bond, fusing mutual pain

You will never find yourself if you choose to hide from everyone else

Have you ever tricked yourself into believing the force of your steps is what moves the world beneath you, and that your every breath is what pushes all the people away? It's true; you alone are all there is, and you are responsible for all that exists

What I could start with my words would shake the nest of every bird in the world

Joey was a friend of ours
He died when we were young
Now we make jokes about it
And so his name lives on

I had a dream that you called me the other day
You left me a message saying everything would be ok
I'm sorry I missed your call, I blame it on fate
It's never my fault, something always makes me late
I tell a lot of half truths, and I tell bold faced lies
It's up to you to decide where to draw that imaginary line
I don't mean to be me, I blame it on the medicine
Its done a lot to calm me down, but it exacerbates my sins
I can't focus on the ground, I still like to walk on clouds
There seems to be no other way, I'll remain broken until the grave

What does it say about you that the only love you've truly known, was thrown from your hand like a skipping stone
And what does it say of me that the stone has made its way back to shore, as if it was begging to be thrown once more
Next time you must toss it with such wicked strength, it will have no choice but to lay where you watched as it sank
And though all stones may eventually return to shore, the stones that return are still smaller than before

For no one, I'll do anything
For myself, I'll do nothing
For you, I'll do everything

In the face of your glory, I will tremble but not stumble
I will raise my head, and look up
To the stars your eyes contain, jewels I may never reflect brightly from, though I am graced by their fabulous glean as you aim them at me.
With a sensation arising of desire and admiration,
I will meet your magnificent stare,
And I will be pulled into your space

Sometimes I wonder where we each would be, if you didn't decide you had to go, or if instead I was the one who chose to leave

I'm gonna make you want me whether you want to or not
If you think I've given up then it's clear that you forgot
I'm incessantly persistent and so utterly insistent upon having everything I want
And once I finally have you I'll kick you back out right on the spot

They say they know what you want, but I know what you need. They want to steal your heart,  and I bet they'll make you bleed. You don't have to stay, and if you choose to leave with me,  I'll give you everything, and I'll never leave your side. You will be my queen, and you will pay no price, because all my love is free, and it will last for your whole life.

Four rearing to tear you apart
Horses tied to your legs and arms
The steeds take steps to stretch you flat
Scorpions sting suspended back in surprise attack
Fire spiders consume the flesh biting every inch with no rest
Bees swarm intending to harm and bleed from toe tips to end of arms
Ravens reveal and ravage the face tearing eyes and lips from their proper place
Enough is enough the four horses rush on pulling you to pieces and like that you are gone

Tonight I appear bigger through the false perspective of my broken mirror.

I find my eyes but they cannot see the space inbetween the sky and the sea directly ahead staring back at me, and as my eyes try to scour through the night for the ledge thats out of sight, my legs begin to push while the wind gives me a shove, then suddenly I'm  flying at full speed over the ocean towards the edge just up ahead.

Should I not discover a way to get myself down and back onto solid ground, I'll fly off the horizon into the void, consumed by the unknown. But I have gone too far, and should I gain my mind again, I'll slip and fall into the water beneath my feet, and there alone I will drown.

I'd rather drown beneath your ocean than live upon dry land
I'd rather starve through your famine than eat from any other hand
I'd rather be lost in your desert than find myself alone
I'd rather sleep beneath your bridges than have the comfort of any other home
Because without you, life makes no sense
And I would rather suffer by your side, than spend my time in ignorance

Someday you may find yourself in a distant land, and you'll find You've forgotten the fear from which you ran, but now you're scared and alone without a hand to hold, and you're worried that you'll grow too old, and that nobody will want to take you in from the cold.

So you're on your own, you've made a new home, but you're still alone, and you can't remember what you had been told, so you scramble to show just how bold you are but you fold into pieces as the story goes on just the same as it always does

Time to make this mold new, out with the old for attempt number two, but make sure what you say you're going to is true, or you'll find yourself unable to be anything but blue

I guess I'm just seeing things that aren't there, hearing little whispers that echo through the night, they tell me that something isn't right
I think its because I'm looking for it, chasing ghosts through the dark, without even the smallest light to guide my heart
Sometimes I feel your presence when I'm alone, other times it feels as if you want me to leave, and its always the worst that I choose to believe

Your car got taken for a measly sum, and mine went to the flames under the winter sun, so we both lost out before our time was done, but im tryna tell you that it all matters none.
Before we started this war of excommunication and going *** for tat over every nonsensical spat, there was something golden coating what we had, but somehow we ended up throwing it in the trash, and I'd give every arm and leg that i have to get it back.
Now i know its been a while since youve heard my voice, and i apologize if i start to cry, its just that i dont know how to handle how strange it feels to know that at least ive tried.

I knew where I'd wind up, but I refused to believe that what I thought was true, and now I'm where I said I'd be, still alone and blue

What are you doing?
Have you not a clue at all?
Being on high all the time is a short fuse away from wasted life, and its a round about way to pretend you are right.
You stay up all night because you can't sleep, and its eating at your conscience every hour of the week like you're the all night dinner from down the street

It may not
seem perfect,
or like everything
you could want,
but love will
always be found,
if you allow yourself
to appreciate
what you've got

Remember to fake it with all of your heart
I found that you play the most convincing of parts
When you're down on your knees
Begging of me
To set you free
But I don't want you or any of your responsibilities
Be a man
Take charge of your life
Maybe then
Some dumb girl will become your wife
But for now stay away from me
Don't you dare look at me
With those sad eyes
Remember the time
You said goodbye
This is like that
Except I'm letting you die
My friend
You will be born again

The sound will call the ears of ready runners, the race will be started, and I am the starting line.

BANG!

Now they're all sprinting away as fast as they can, and it's only a one hundred meter race to the end, so I'll never see any of them again.

I want to start this off with a few choice words.
I could make them sweet, but that's more than you deserve,
and I would make hem kind, but I believe they should hurt,
like when you told me, "This thing between us isn't going to work".
I thought that I lost it, I couldn't believe what I heard.
After all that I gave you, it was my name that you cursed.

I was scared of what I felt, but I know you were too

You're afraid of dying alone
with no one there to hold your bones
And I'm afraid of what I'll never know
Like how far we could really go
Because I'm making progress, but I'm much too slow
I don't think I'll reach you before it's your time to go.

Oh what i used to be
A mess upon the floor
Empty bottles
Empty hearted
Didn't care anymore
About you or anyone at all
Wrapped up in my madness
Giving way to selfishness
Broken fingers
Broken mind
I forgot how to give
And the feeling wasn't missed at all
But somewhere deep inside
There was something that i tried to hide
The truth that i was dying to deny
I wanted to get better but i didn't know how
To ask for help seemed so impossible
Because i was drowning in the alcohol
My lungs were full of beer and i couldn't speak at all
But somehow i found the strength to get to a better place
With a little help from those who i thought had started to hate me
And now that i can look back and see just how awful i was
I just wish to be forgiven for all that i have done

What do I do about you
You, the one who  catches me off guard at every opportunity
And every time you give me the option of making a move I sit like a stool
You, the soul that I feel wired too, connecting through the dimensions, to comprehend the thoughtful demons, who
Command times true demise, you
The being who can see
I am not you
But part of me can be
If it is you
That sees what I see
In me and you
There is a bridge between

Girl one room over
Neither in my bed this night
Nor any other

Do not like this, because it is sad,
Sorry,
Weak,
And poorly put together
Please, do not praise this effort
It is empty, shallow, and uninspired
I am not a poet, I hope you know this
I am alive, and so very tired of spilling words like tears onto the shoulders of people I will never meet
But this is all I have, so be it terrible, lazy, and pathetic, it is all I have, even though it is not enough

We bit our tongues
Until they fell off

Now we must find
A new way to talk

I'm sitting home alone trying to reach death through the phone, he answers and says he's got someone on the other line, and he asks if he can call me back in five, I say ok hang up and go out for a drive, because I know he won't call me back, I've tried this at least a hundred times.

We're all tired, from always sleeping on the floor,
And we've decided, that we dont want this anymore!
It's time to rise, because kneeling isn't opening any doors,
And we're gonna fight, because we're not afraid anymore!

I cant stop going back to all the things that i know wont work
I forsake the lessons ive learned in the hopes that things will be different this time
But it's always the same
Drunk or high
It won't help me remember how to fly
Ive forgotten how to use my wings
And how to use my voice to sing
The melodies that used to pick me up and dance in my head have found their way to playing on the brighter stages with new friends
Its all been lost to the passage of time and if this is all that ive got left i see no reason not to die
Empty chrouses and a cacophony of silent applauses
Vacant seats and dead vibrations in the air
There will be no break for intermission
This show goes on hold for no one
With a decaying babckbeat for none to hear
And a drowning melody that will flood your ears
You will soon learn that theres no method to the madness
Its just a pouring out of all the things that make up sadness

No doubt you feel like a big man, coming from a town smaller than the back of your hand, coming from a family that always had what you need, you never had to look for a place where you could eat. There's no shame in admitting that you had it easier than a big percentage, but you deny the opportunity you've been given while claiming you're a savage. You're a scared little boy and that's all you'll ever be, stuck in a tiny town that you'll always be too afraid to leave.

I am flying high on a pair of wings that aren't mine
They're borrowed, bent, and a bit broken
But they carry me to places no one can see
Where I can be alone, at home, and ******
If you must then rip them from my back
Because all good things must end but may still begin again
Maybe someday I'll grow my own and let my true colors be shown
These wings they comfort me as they carry me over all that I can see
But I'm sure if I could just grow my own I could fly beyond all that I know

Why do we sit?
Why do we lie?
Why don't we stand?
Oh that's right, we'd die

The cauldrons are churning up in the abandoned attic
The televisions are all promoting a state of perpetual static
The streets are shrouds of smoke filled with folks you've seen
The world itself is a joke when you only feel safe in your dreams

Someday that heart of yours is going to get you killed, and the one you die for won't stay to foot the bill

Hello friend, how are you
I'd really like to talk, just us two
We can chat for hours about the mundane and trivial
And maybe express our feelings over tomorrows morning cereal

She hates the way I say I'll do something and then prove myself wrong by doing nothing at all

She doesn't like how I can be so inconsistent in my approach to everything but it's my fault

She can't stand it when I sit back and let myself get tossed around by my need to answer paranoias call

Back door
Waiting for
The one I'm sure
Won't be the cure
All these doubts
I want to deny
But here I am
Wanting to cry
I'm to weak
To ever be
Anything like
Her kind of guy

The chances are slim
I best walk away
I think I'll save my luck
For another day

I try to be something
Most often I'm not
I used to be someone
Who I am forgot
I can be nothing
It's still more than I've got
I think I'm no one
Don't ever tell me I'm not
The only reason I've made it at all
I've faked my way through every fall
I pretended that I could hold a presence
Every action and every word
Used to keep hold of my world
Abandon the truth
Forget the past
There is no proof
Just make this last

Was your last guest a foe in disguise
What betrayal did you see in those eyes
Have you hidden your heart in a tower of stone
Are you keeping your treasure for yourself alone
I seek not your gold but your side on the throne
For my love can brighten all of your unknown

For the longest time I kept my head above the waves and my feet stuck in the sand, but now your sea levels are rising, swallowing every place that I could try to hide, and I don't think I have it in me to keep swimming through your tide. I'm not ready to sink beneath this, but I no longer have a choice, so before my lungs fill with water, I need you to hear my voice.

There was nothing I wanted more, than to simply rest on the crest of your shore. All I needed was to lay upon your sandy space, and feel your spray splash onto my face. But now that your tide has taken my beach, washed over all that I used to see, there's no place I can go to be free. All I can do is let your current carry me in its hands, because I'd rather drown beneath your ocean than live upon dry land

I woke up this morning and got myself a beer
Turned on the tv to see a woman in heels selling fear
A pair of jokers are lying on the floor and i forgot to lock the door
I wonder if they'll find us before we head out to sail the shore
And i wonder if they'll save me from this place before im lost to the insane
I cant feel the skin that holds the bones that make up my frame
I can only feel the pain, guilt, and shame of never knowing peace again

Noises from their mouths, that's all that words are; so the decision lies with you - can they leave a scar?

When these arms have nobody to hold, part of me wants to stop growing old

All I wanted was to listen to you sing, because you used to smile when you'd let your voice ring, and I was proud to have the privilege to be there listening.

Where this is going
There's no good way to know, but
Insides are showing