You're just as guilty as I am of not speaking your mind, and just because I don't speak doesn't mean I have anything to hide. You can see the truth with all the needed proof when you look into my eyes.

I'm in one of those moods again
  where everything makes me think of when
      you and me used to be the best of friends,
and id give anything to make this reminiscing end.

I could pick up my pen,
   write poems for the best days that we spent,
      or all the awful things that you ever said
         til every last and forever lost hen,
ready to be slaughtered, comes home to their shed.

Yet when that sun rises red
   into the single pair of dead,
      empty eyes, lying in my bed,
         I'll remember that I have nothing left,
            except for the silver stained in dread,
and memories of you, swimming in my head.

All I can do to make this end,
   is try my hardest to pretend
      that I could go my whole life and
         live without feeling the regret
of never loving you again.

There are some things I hate thinking about, and sometimes I let them slip out.
I say a lot without speaking loud.
Just a misplaced word or two is all it takes, for me to show you that there's something melting all the glue that holds me together and keeps me true.

How can I ever hope to break through when I've already been broken by all the mounting proof that what I once believed was never even true?

The most relaxing way
To spend your summer days
Trapped beneath the heat
Ain't too bad with a drink
***** in your cup
Sip that sweet drink up
Fall asleep under the sun
Wake up with the stars above

Its time to start preparing lines
The stage is ready for your moment to shine
All the action has lead to this
The starring role was yours to keep
So now its time to sow what you want to reap

I could conquer countless countries
And neatly annihilate entire nations
All from the comfort of your palm

I would waste working worlds
And completely dispose every creature
All for the praise you might give

go ahead, do whatever, just be stupid
going with the flow just isn't worth it
there's no point to live if you don't live by your own purpose
The ideas of others may get you far, but they'll rarely let you be who you really are
Sometimes it gets so hard to see, when all their shadows grow around me
They all stare down at me, eyes filled with pity, hoping i'll be what they've grown to expect

Some will find this to be a surprise
Every morning a new sun will rise
With this gift of a new day
We must try not to say
Nothing is worth dying for
Sacrifice will leave you with less than before
But letting evil succede will leave you alone at the door
If you load the gun or tighten the noose
You're the only one with nothing to lose

Swept up into a dream
The likes of which I'd never seen
Time when fast but we went slow
And nobody around us could have known
All the incredible and amazing places that we would see
We walked out the front door into another room
We looked behind us and saw that the distance grew
There we were so far from where we began
Both standing there, not alone, but hand in hand
Ready to face the impossible and unknown world again
We reach a window open it up
We climb out and were on a mountain top
From up here everyone can hear us now
And there's not a thing in this world that can bring us down

I've been trying to fix this broken heart
Its been a while since I could get it to start
The chemicals and fluids that I injest
Feeble attempts at joy at best
Not to say that I really tried
A hundred times I'd said I would
A hundred times I simply lied
Lied to myself in hopes I'd fall for it
But I can't believe I should even be in this pit
I'm just waiting in the bottom of the well
For the rain to fall into the hole in which I fell
Fill it up right to the top
I'll float on up and never stop

You took that life and then you ran away,  now I'm out to get ya but I won't be catching you today
Giving you a head start the way I was taught to do, because my mother always told me if it's love then she'll wait for you
Just figure out what it is you gotta do, I'll be right by your side whenever you're ready to

Die you demon, yes die you disaster
I can't find clarity, I can't even control my conscience
Solvent of sanguine, can't say I'm sure
Pale to perfection, can't pile the potential
Now is never, and nowhere is near
Finding my freedom, and forgoing my fate
Wasting my wishes on wanting of wisdom

The seams are all falling off
Revealing whats been all along
The nightmares have not been starved
Full and fat
The hunger marches on
Coherent or not
Always with the "I forgot" or "I lost control"
March on soldier, secure the throne, for the masters on the side of the borders that you call home, and who have chosen to use this world for the good of none but their own
March on civillian, no one wants to help you because there is nothing left where you call home and that you own and that you could use to pay us back for what youd owe
Irrational as always
The response of veracious eyes, opaque disguise, and greedy minds
Chaos calls for this and worse
Nothing in this world can save them from it
Except for the vigor to hold those in contempt
And
We may feel like we are the few, but we are the only ones who can

I used to wish for slits through my wrists and a hole in my skull, but when the blood would start to flow, I wouldn't learn anything I didn't already know, and the pain did not go, it only slowly continued to grow with each mark I left to show

I used to get into fights, screaming bouts against the wind and the sky, but when the words in my throat would finally run dry, I'd realize I had only been shouting in the hope of reaching the soul trapped behind my eyes, to free him from the denial that coated each of my lies

All around me I see faces wearing expressions that say they're starving for love, but in a last ditch effort to protect what they have managed to save up, every single one of them has sewn their own lips shut, and they've lived their lives neither finding someone they could trust nor anyone who would ever give enough, because they're not willing to risk giving what little they were born with up.

There must have been a thousand promises made over friendship and forever,  little messages of love sent to and from each other in moments I thought for sure should have taken us completely under. But we stood firm, feet planted fully in the sand with backs slanted to let the waves run up our spines so as to wash over and grant us relief from the pressure building around our minds, because we just had to prove we were stronger than the currents that tried so hard to carry us away together.

He gave in again to savor some silver shrouded sin, and so the night was called in to begin her slow descent into the openings of his skin.

Up in the treehouse the lights have all gone out, and the curtains are keeping the sun from shining in. The floor boards are broken so you best watch your step or you might fall to the bottom and be met by your death. And I really don't mind if you want to fertilize the ground surrounding my fort, but if you're gonna do that let me know so I can dig a grave for your corpse

I leapt from the face of the earth,
and what I found was a place
where I could live with my name
while staying free from the blame
that would come down like rain
when I would refuse to feign
my enjoyment of the game
that we're all forced to play.

Like an old record, I've played your voice in my head a million times over, so much so that the vinyl is starting to degrade and the sweet sound that I used to hear is distorted and pretty soon it will be worm out completely. And like an old photograph that I can't stop picking up, the edges of your face are wrinkled and torn, and someday you'll be so faded that I can't make you out at all. Your smell has already been forgotten, like trying to remember the smell of a house that you haven't lived in for over a decade. The familiar smell of the wood floors and dinner on the stove are impossible to recall, replaced by the new carpet and the take out left on the counter to rot and stink up this new home of yours.

It'll never be perfect or everything you want, but if you learn to love what little you've got, you'll come to find that you've got a lot

You are what you are, you have to accept that. You are your scars and your bruises and the organs under your fat. You are the breath that you pull in, and you are the breath that you push out. You are the warmth of thinking about friends that you can't live without. You are everything you are meant to be, and if you'd just open your heart you'd be able to see, that everything you are is beautiful to me

We still talk sometimes, even though im trying hard to let you go, and I still write, rhyming lines, yeah you know that ill always be a poet.
And I've still got a few good words for you, a couple more metaphors so cool like how it used to be between me and you.
And I've got at least another punchline or two, because when all's been said and done and our precious time is finally up, its important that we can look back on the past, and laugh, and never forget the good times that we had

Depression, depression
My soul obsession
Depression, depression
My sole posession
Hold onto me until the end
Let go of you just to pretend
I could never
I won't let her
Go

Life's a game of chance
Your parents are the dealers
Living stance is luck

Do you want to see how cruel I can be? Would you like to witness the sickest acts that this disease can **** out of me? Lay your eyes upon this clever beast, he is not as slick as he believes. You can view him as he is, and you will discover that under the veil of skin, there is an empty frame willing to wear whatever it needs, to hold out any hope that might be trying to find a way in.

You say sorry doesn't mean anything to you, well I guess that means you should mean nothing to me, because all I see is a sorry excuse for a human being.

If everything was sunshine all of the time your plants would all wither and die

Oh starlight, oh starbright, oh only dot in my sky, why are you so heavenly high, why are you so frustratingly far? Why don't you come down here, because I just can't reach where you are

Please don't try to stop me
I have to get away
Even though I like it here
I simply cannot stay
Even though I like you near
I don't want to leave
But I can't shake this fear
Its worse than you'd believe
I wish you could save me, my dear
But don't, let me disappear

We have all died at least once, and if you say you haven't, then you simply are too young to remember

Darling, won't you drag yourself back into my bed?
It's warm and comfy here by the fire in my head.
I know it hurts to lie, down there on the floor,
I do it all the time, and I'm ready for some more.
Come on baby, won't you meet me beneath the sheets?
Let me cover you from your head down to those freezing feet.
We can stay here for a month, then feed upon each other when it comes time for us to eat.

This has clearly progressed past what you had prepared
So now you're stalling, silent, and quite simply scared
But this is what you wanted, so go and take a chance
I swear you're gonna make it, it's all in your hands

There's nothing more important to me,
than all of the rose tinted memories that refuse to expire, and all the bad times that my mind disguised as something more than what transpired.

I'm wishing you could be me
So that you can see
Everything I see
When you stand in front of me
So that you may believe
Every word that I will speak
When the topic of the week
Is how much you mean to me

I've barely been able to think whenever you've been around, and I could rarely speak more than two words to you between these past two weeks. Things are changing at such a rapid rate and I don't know if I can keep up with your elevated pace, and when we're both in the same place I feel like I've drifted beyond the bounds of space

If only you knew
How you consumed
How i tried to resist
Strength of your wrists
Your salt in my wounds
I took your medicine
You prescribed doom
I sat alone in your room
Speaking to your ghost
And your spirit loomed
Over a darkened room
I saw you and your skin
Paying the price for sins
I'll forgive you for them
We can go back to when
Everything was clean
Smartly running devine
Every gear spun on time
All cogs were aligned
I just want to restore
The love that i swore
Forever and ever more

Please go on ahead, destroy your head
Yes my friend, let your pain end
But could you please, before you're dead
Hold my heart, with your last breath
Take me with you, be happy again

I don't long for a life full of faces where I'll fail to find a pair of eyes with a soul like mine behind them.

I havent felt this way in some time
Its been a while since i thought i could try
To fly away is my only wish
im tired of drowning with the fish
Theres a whole world out there whose beauty ive missed

I want to dance up in the clouds
Like before i was told i was not allowed by the voices that used to scream so loud
But now it seems they wont be coming around
So its time i got my feet up off the ground

I want to reach out and touch the sun
With wings that wont succumb to the heat
I need to escape this dark place that has long imprisoned me
And now it finally feels like i have a chance to get free
So im making my way to the sky and not letting anything stop me

All the words i wanted to say, the pointless poems i wrote when i was home alone, theyve all gone away, swept up in the whirlwind you caused when you left and took with you every dream i had. Scattered to the land and lost floating in the sky, im finding the pieces of me that you apathetically misplaced and im recovering the parts of myself you so wastefully threw away.

There and here i disappear for reasons easy to understand but hard to find the root of,, and my branches dont bend these days, theyve all begun to break
Down and out, back again, and then thrown out the door again, always lost, always confused, and on the losing end
Of life, of love, of simple self fufilment, ive tried every way you speak of yet i do not feel whole
Where i lie, with glassy eyes, i try to find the spies that lie amongst the company with which i try
To keep appearances and quaint relations, much a bother, i cant be dealt with
Desire, a pitchfork,  flames or stone
It does not matter to ne, for none shall own my throne

I'm so bored
And life is short
Ive learned from all
My past mistakes
Yet still the same
Mistakes I make
My only wish
Is to escape
To a different world
A far off place
Where no one can find me
And where theres nothing to remind me
Of the memories that haunt me

Wanton wagons wander through county center cemeteries where people purchase poison to nurture natures needs

Blocked in the mind
Though the answer is there
What is there to do
But despair and feel blue

Oh what i used to be
A mess upon the floor
Empty bottles
Empty hearted
Didn't care anymore
About you or anyone at all
Wrapped up in my madness
Giving way to selfishness
Broken fingers
Broken mind
I forgot how to give
And the feeling wasn't missed at all
But somewhere deep inside
There was something that i tried to hide
The truth that i was dying to deny
I wanted to get better but i didn't know how
To ask for help seemed so impossible
Because i was drowning in the alcohol
My lungs were full of beer and i couldn't speak at all
But somehow i found the strength to get to a better place
With a little help from those who i thought had started to hate me
And now that i can look back and see just how awful i was
I just wish to be forgiven for all that i have done