I'll dissolve my heart in alcohol
Cloud my mind and eyes in smoke and doubt
Piece by piece, I'll fall to peace
From madness grows the seed of freedom

You are what you are, you have to accept that. You are your scars and your bruises and the organs under your fat. You are the breath that you pull in, and you are the breath that you push out. You are the warmth of thinking about friends that you can't live without. You are everything you are meant to be, and if you'd just open your heart you'd be able to see, that everything you are is beautiful to me

The sirens are singing such violent songs, signaling that once again I have done wrong. My mind has been breached, my shores are not calm, but what can I do to silence their calls? They speak in poetry, metaphors for the harm that I've caused, and I can't understand their verse. My ears hear their words but my thoughts refuse to follow along. My actions show that I have not learned a single **** truth from the last time that I was burned, and all I can think is how good it would feel, to be fire again and know that I am real. I can create but I cannot touch the realities, yet when it comes to destruction I can ruin with comfort and ease, I **** every piece of the world that I see

You took that life and then you ran away,  now I'm out to get ya but I won't be catching you today
Giving you a head start the way I was taught to do, because my mother always told me if it's love then she'll wait for you
Just figure out what it is you gotta do, I'll be right by your side whenever you're ready to

All around me I see faces wearing expressions that say they're starving for love, but in a last ditch effort to protect what they have managed to save up, every single one of them has sewn their own lips shut, and they've lived their lives neither finding someone they could trust nor anyone who would ever give enough, because they're not willing to risk giving what little they were born with up.

Do you want to see how cruel I can be? Would you like to witness the sickest acts that this disease can **** out of me? Lay your eyes upon this clever beast, he is not as slick as he believes. You can view him as he is, and you will discover that under the veil of skin, there is an empty frame willing to wear whatever it needs, to hold out any hope that might be trying to find a way in.

Please don't try to stop me
I have to get away
Even though I like it here
I simply cannot stay
Even though I like you near
I don't want to leave
But I can't shake this fear
Its worse than you'd believe
I wish you could save me, my dear
But don't, let me disappear

We have all died at least once, and if you say you haven't, then you simply are too young to remember

Succumbing simultaneously to solitude and stupidity, I'm ferociously falling face first into infinity, the endless ****** of organismic existence, and the relentless reaches of unbounded urges. Viscerally and vehemently, I recall and recoil, as memories marked on the heart start to lock my parts.

Its time to start preparing lines
The stage is ready for your moment to shine
All the action has lead to this
The starring role was yours to keep
So now its time to sow what you want to reap

I leapt from the face of the earth,
and what I found was a place
where I could live with my name
while staying free from the blame
that would come down like rain
when I would refuse to feign
my enjoyment of the game
that we're all forced to play.

Wanton wagons wander through county center cemeteries where people purchase poison to nurture natures needs

Darling, won't you drag yourself back into my bed?
It's warm and comfy here by the fire in my head.
I know it hurts to lie, down there on the floor,
I do it all the time, and I'm ready for some more.
Come on baby, won't you meet me beneath the sheets?
Let me cover you from your head down to those freezing feet.
We can stay here for a month, then feed upon each other when it comes time for us to eat.

Aspiring broken
Corruptible dream
Eternal facile gripes
Hell in July
Keeping loose memories
Never organized plans
Queen reaps soul
Truth under veil
Willfully xeno
Yahweh's zeal

I've been trying to fix this broken heart
Its been a while since I could get it to start
The chemicals and fluids that I injest
Feeble attempts at joy at best
Not to say that I really tried
A hundred times I'd said I would
A hundred times I simply lied
Lied to myself in hopes I'd fall for it
But I can't believe I should even be in this pit
I'm just waiting in the bottom of the well
For the rain to fall into the hole in which I fell
Fill it up right to the top
I'll float on up and never stop

The seams are all falling off
Revealing whats been all along
The nightmares have not been starved
Full and fat
The hunger marches on
Coherent or not
Always with the "I forgot" or "I lost control"
March on soldier, secure the throne, for the masters on the side of the borders that you call home, and who have chosen to use this world for the good of none but their own
March on civillian, no one wants to help you because there is nothing left where you call home and that you own and that you could use to pay us back for what youd owe
Irrational as always
The response of veracious eyes, opaque disguise, and greedy minds
Chaos calls for this and worse
Nothing in this world can save them from it
Except for the vigor to hold those in contempt
And
We may feel like we are the few, but we are the only ones who can

Abandon work, buy two cigarette packs, and smoke every one as if kissing death will make it love you back

There must have been a thousand promises made over friendship and forever,  little messages of love sent to and from each other in moments I thought for sure should have taken us completely under. But we stood firm, feet planted fully in the sand with backs slanted to let the waves run up our spines so as to wash over and grant us relief from the pressure building around our minds, because we just had to prove we were stronger than the currents that tried so hard to carry us away together.

This has clearly progressed past what you had prepared
So now you're stalling, silent, and quite simply scared
But this is what you wanted, so go and take a chance
I swear you're gonna make it, it's all in your hands

I knew this would happen but I did nothing to stop it.
Does that make me guilty of the crime?*

I know you don't want to serve your time,  so when they ask if I had an accomplice, I'll take the blame and bare responsibility for all the pain that you've inflicted upon the life you sought to save.

I spend every penny like all the late lonely hours awake; wasting away wasted every single dollar day

I'm wishing you could be me
So that you can see
Everything I see
When you stand in front of me
So that you may believe
Every word that I will speak
When the topic of the week
Is how much you mean to me

We still talk sometimes, even though im trying hard to let you go, and I still write, rhyming lines, yeah you know that ill always be a poet.
And I've still got a few good words for you, a couple more metaphors so cool like how it used to be between me and you.
And I've got at least another punchline or two, because when all's been said and done and our precious time is finally up, its important that we can look back on the past, and laugh, and never forget the good times that we had

Vile was a woman
Or was it bile?
The bit of stomach acid that comes up and burns your throat on its way out when you're vomiting after you've already projected your stomach contents all over for everybody to see, was a woman

I could conquer countless countries
And neatly annihilate entire nations
All from the comfort of your palm

I would waste working worlds
And completely dispose every creature
All for the praise you might give

You're too afraid to take a single step out  towards your desire, because last time you tried you failed and got burnt by the fire. So you carry pails of water to extinguish every flame, and you'd be a liar if you said you weren't to blame for the darkened world that you have claimed

Oh starlight, oh starbright, oh only dot in my sky, why are you so heavenly high, why are you so frustratingly far? Why don't you come down here, because I just can't reach where you are

If she was poison, I'd die trying to convince her she was wine

The most relaxing way
To spend your summer days
Trapped beneath the heat
Ain't too bad with a drink
***** in your cup
Sip that sweet drink up
Fall asleep under the sun
Wake up with the stars above

Depression, depression
My soul obsession
Depression, depression
My sole posession
Hold onto me until the end
Let go of you just to pretend
I could never
I won't let her
Go

If you come over
I'll clutch my rabbits foot and my four leaf clover
I'll throw a pinch of salt over my shoulder
Then break my leg ten times over
And if I generate enough good luck
You'll actually want me enough to ****

There's nothing more important to me,
than all of the rose tinted memories that refuse to expire, and all the bad times that my mind disguised as something more than what transpired.

Nobody's perfect, but I am so much less than the rest

If you really loved me then
You'd still love me now
You'd do anything to make it work
It wouldn't matter how
You'd give all that you have
Because I'd do the same
But since you cannot
I know who's to blame

I miss you
And it hurts a lot
I'd go back to then
But I forgot how
Now so distant
Your hands from mine
I hold them out
But can't catch you in time
Pulling away
I walk out
Into the cold
All alone

You're just as guilty as I am of not speaking your mind, and just because I don't speak doesn't mean I have anything to hide. You can see the truth with all the needed proof when you look into my eyes.

He gave in again to savor some silver shrouded sin, and so the night was called in to begin her slow descent into the openings of his skin.

It'll never be perfect or everything you want, but if you learn to love what little you've got, you'll come to find that you've got a lot

You'd be better off leaving me for dead, because nobody can kick the voices from my head. They sit inside with chains tied to my throat and my brain, and anytime I try to pull away, they drag me back and hold me to the pain

Four eyed freaks upon the screen
The mind isnt what it seems
Broken thoughts and cycles recycled
Break the bind by breaking the mind
Keep the peace
Out of sight
Out of mind
Forget the all
Its left behind
The mind can change
And so should you
The only thing
You have to do
Is learn to change
Your point of view

If only you knew
How you consumed
How i tried to resist
Strength of your wrists
Your salt in my wounds
I took your medicine
You prescribed doom
I sat alone in your room
Speaking to your ghost
And your spirit loomed
Over a darkened room
I saw you and your skin
Paying the price for sins
I'll forgive you for them
We can go back to when
Everything was clean
Smartly running devine
Every gear spun on time
All cogs were aligned
I just want to restore
The love that i swore
Forever and ever more

I think your insides would look prettier on the outside, so
Lets take those intestines and tie them around your throat

Now it's time to open the stomach

Remove the kidneys, the spleen, and that ugly little thing you call a heart
But before we start with the hacking apart I want to tell you a secret
The surgeon is running a bit late, and I don't have the patience to sit here and wait, so if you don't mind if I do, I'm gonna rip into you and I'm sorry, but I forgot to bring you some glue, and by the time that I'm done you'll no longer be one, but a thousand little pieces floating around in your tub

What could be so wrong with me that I see a piece of me inside of you when you do all those wicked things you do?

Some will find this to be a surprise
Every morning a new sun will rise
With this gift of a new day
We must try not to say
Nothing is worth dying for
Sacrifice will leave you with less than before
But letting evil succede will leave you alone at the door
If you load the gun or tighten the noose
You're the only one with nothing to lose

Half is better than none
But I can't settle for less than whole
Half is still less than all
So I guess I'm selfish
I don't want to need this much
But I need more than what you say is enough

This room is too loud
I'm not trying to meet all these people right now
I'd rather be outside sitting cold on the ground
Just go away, strange angers my brain range

I can barely breathe when they surround me

I'm so perfectly inprefect
There's nothing I can't **** up
Give me a fortune and I'll waste it in a day
I'll throw every penny away at the pinball arcade
I'll win just a free game when billions could have been made
Give me an icetray, and I'll show you how to **** up the task
The cubes won't be cubes, no they'll be burning piles of ash
I'm sorry but Billy won't have cold drinks at his birthday bash

Give me a life to live, and I'll live through it all wishing I did

There's no escape from the ideas inside of my head and there's no avoiding the thoughts that I'm trying to forget