The voice says yes, you can do as you please, so long as what I think you should do agrees.

Write a line, cross it out
Spill another, still no good
One more time, cross it out
I can't quit even though I should
Page to page, wasted ink
Word for word, still can't explain
What do I mean, I can't think
These thoughts have driven me insane

Only you are left to be found when all else is dark

Like a ball of twine, one end held tightly by my two aching fingers while the rest falls out from the scarred valley of her palms, my mind is unraveled at the sight of a thousand dead bodies; all the people that we wanted but never let ourselves become

I'm mad at you
And it feels good
To tell the truth

I know you can see me
Sitting here in despair
I know a lot of things
Like I know that you don't care
And you can hear me screaming
Oh why won't you reply
You can stop listening now
My throat has bled dry

I don't think
I lost my mind
I think I
Left it behind
I let go
Purposefully
I gave in
So completely

All day, every day
He tries so hard to hide away
But no matter how deep the hole, he can't escape from his own soul

He wants separation

This is not justification

He's living degeneration

Now this is desperation

I always find you when I'm dreaming, and once in the worst dream I ever had you said you were leaving. But in all the rest you stay standing by my side, or find me where I've been hiding and tell me everything will be alright. I've dreamt of you at least a hundred times, and it's always the best sleep of my whole life. The waking world can only compare when I'm with you anywhere, and when we're lying together with our arms wrapped around each other I don't want to fall asleep because no dream I have could be more sweet.

I used to think I was a writer, but now I know I've become a fighter. My words are my weapons, with enough ammo for everyone who eats them to come back for seconds. My wit is cool, my tongue sharp as a blade, I fire from the hip, taking down anyone in my way

As apathetic as the atmosphere, I form just to dissipate
Brush the ash off my shoulder, this world is smoke and grey
Radios blast between deaf ears, I don't understand the words
As rapid as this revolving rock, my heart beats for the whole herd

Freaking out in the parking lot, sitting in my car talking to myself, I came here to get something, do you know what it was? I can't make my self move because I thought about what was
Between you and me, wait no you could never keep a secret, you let all the groceries spill onto the kitchen floor, and now I've forgotten what I got them for.

just for once, maybe I'd be the reason you've been sick awake at night. Keep thinking no one's got you, I'll be here waiting patiently til you give me the right

My heart swings from the chandelier of your hope and dreams
Wildly swaying from the support of your cross beam
But I don't know if you can hold my weight
I might crash into your table, land face first on your plate
If you want I'll clean up, take you on a second date
But you're a fool full of food if you think I'm gonna change

If you dare to dig in and take the descent into the cratered crevices of my mishandled mind, I can't provide a promise that you'll like a penny piece worth of what you'll find

Reach down into your soul
You've gotta take control
Hold onto what you need
Give away all you can
And remember to love
No matter what happens

What's the point of a finite race when all of time is the same as space?

Let it rip, sink into me
Tell me how you hate what you see
Tear me apart, don't hold back
Let me hear the truth, let your heart attack
If you don't have anything nice to say, let it out and I won't turn away
I'll take it in stride
I want to know what you're holding inside

Sitting in a full room
Only know one person
Everyone else is empty
Including myself
A task I can't take
Even if i did
It'd only make me a fake

Is it still safe to call you best friend, or is that no longer your name?

At least there's comfort in the weight of shame, lifted free of concern for your future bout with fate, and of all the ways you could be laid away, you prefer the warmth of your old rusty cage

You blame everyone for their own imperfections because you're too afraid to admit that you're terrified of your own reflection

Sometimes the things I say make no sense
But I find no bliss in my ignorance
I can't find myself or anybody to latch on to
I don't know where I am or why I had to go
(I still miss you so)

I am so lost
I cant get out
I forgot how

Hunger and exhaustion have worn me too long
No one has offered me a love to feed on
I've been hunting forever and my feet are bleeding
Someday soon my heart may finally stop beating
(So sick of breathing)

I am so lost
I cant get out
I forgot how

Everyone around me does their best to lead me along
But every hand I reach for pushes me to do wrong
Why must I act like everyone else except for who I am
How do I know if I'll be saved or if I'm doomed to be ******
(I am not what I say I am)

You left us all outside to bleed
So we set out to be a dying breed
We don't need you to get what we need
So if its fine with you we're taking to the streets

Now I don't wanna cause a fuss
But you'll believe in god but not in us

I don't wanna tell you right from wrong
But the way you raised us caused us harm

I try to be something, most often I'm not
I used to be someone, who I am forgot
I can be nothing, its still more than I've got
I think I'm no one, don't ever tell me I'm not
The only reason I've made it at all
I've faked my way through every fall
I pretended i could hold a presence
Every action and every word, used to keep hold of my world
Abandon the truth
Forget the past
There is no proof
Just make this last

All this wasted time
Belongs to nobody
But I
All the feigned attempts
Served for nobody
But friends

There's a little voice ringing loudly in my head, screaming stay under your covers or else you'll wind up dead. His silent sound will drown out any doubt that I can ever do without leaving the safety of my house.

Everyone wants to be wanted the same way they want

Sometimes i feel so small, and so weak that i cant even hold the weight of my skin over my bones. The shaking of my skeleton rattles in my chest, making my shallow, trembling breaths sound like the ringing of the phone when i try to call you, and when you pick up is when my heart tries to skip a thousand beats, but drags itself on the ground for a thousand miles instead, bleeding and losing life every inch of the way.

I desire a mouthful of fire
I need to bleed bliss
I require a bed made of pyre
I want more than this

There is no light behind the clouds, only declining rays containing the memory of a light we can never keep.

There's a fading heart sitting alone in a car, wishing those wheels would take him far away, but he never gets farther than the corner bar. Drunk and ****** he drives home again but crashes on the way

I want to know all of the things you see in me, so can see how many of them I can believe

Here I lie, wide eyed and awake
Waiting to dream up my next big mistake
Your voice calls every time I fall
Asleep with the thought of you tucked into my arms
And the memory of your heart beating against my chest
So I lie, red eyed and intoxicated
Im under your spell, and the sheep have all been counted
Now if you could just join me in my room again
I need you here to silence the monsters under my bed
Should I slip into slumber, dont let me wake up again
I dont want to face the truth
I refuse to believe that this dream is dead

Stirring in stale smoke, I open my eyes to see her drive away. Its such a worn out joke, but its the only laugh I've had all day

I wonder where you're laying your body down tonight, and whether we're ever going to resolve this fight. Perhaps it's best that we both just say goodnight, because things in life can't always end up alright.

Johnny used to love us all, with passion for the simple things. Now he watches television and drinks beer to forget the troubles that life brings. Johnny used to have a mind, be in control, and at peace. Now he's got an aching back from holding up the world which has given him no relief.

I was out sailing across the great blue green sea
Searching for a friend and the meaning of my dream
I came across another ship that looked like it had been crushed to bits
Slowly I approached and let out a cautious call
I wondered if anyone could even hear me at all
Then from the wreck a little voice unleashed a helpless cry
I saw her holding onto a rope, floating alone just trying not to die
Her hair was dripping wet, clothes a soaking mess
Shed been there for more than a few days if it were up to me to guess
I left my post and walked down to the ledge
I offered my hand and pulled her up onto the edge
Within a moment our eyes had locked, shed forgot the life she lost
All she wanted was to be saved
But I threw her back and she sank beneath the waves

The moment called,
It's sorry you missed it.
You were too busy planning out your living.
You can't call it back,
It has already passed.
But do you really believe it was really the last?

Its a good thing you turned me down
I can't be the burden you'll carry around
I'm heavy with feelings that I can't explain
And it takes a gentle hand to pick up shattered glass
That's much more than it'd be fair of me to ask

Maybe if I don't think about it the mess will clean itself up,
And maybe if I didn't doubt about it I wouldn't be feeling so ****** up,
But maybe if I started shouting about it you would all see that I'm breaking up,
Or maybe if i stay quiet about it the pressure that I'd endure might be enough to ensure that I never get up

Me eyes turned towards the top of the tower that seemed to touch the sky, and thought to myself "if only drugs could get me that high" I'd jump from my peak while at peace, knowing that whether I fly or I die, everything would feel just fine

It's more different now than it ever was. I can't find the reason but I know the cause. it was you and me, we did it to ourselves, left behind the cabinet for a spot on the shelf, but this ledge can't support us both, I think it's time for you to go. I was here first, this is all I know, I'm sorry but I won't let it show

I can't control my love
it goes wherever it wants
Whether I myself am wanted there or not
It gets me caught in tight situations
like when I run into you in town
I can't keep seeing you around
Because whenever I do, I get the urge to reach out and capture you
I try to keep my eyes away, but in those moments my heart has all the say
I really hope I don't see you today
Because when I do you'll look the other way
I wish I could get a leash, tie up my heart and never release it
I wish I could break myself, and then rebuild with all the pieces
I'd build a wall nearly twenty feet tall, just to keep me away from them all
All the ones i want to love, the ones that will leave me undone
I'll lock my heart inside a cage, and there it'll stay until I come of age
When im mature enough to love without obsessing
When im smart enough to love without *******

Fake it, fake it, fake it
Pretend it doesn't hurt
Just let her think you're dead
Let her cover you with dirt
Fake it, fake it, fake it
Don't let that pain get through
Lay your head upon her feet
Lie to yourself like you always do
Fake it, fake it, fake it
Don't get yourself too close
And know my friend that if you do
You'll be left with just her ghost

This drink in my hand is calling the shots
I forget who I am, but I know who I'm not
A man with a plan, a man in control
Slip a pill down my throat, turn into a ghost
Find faith in my hate, abandon my hope
You say that it's wrong but I already know

To be your only light in life drains me of all I have to shine bright