Freaking out in the parking lot, sitting in my car talking to myself, I came here to get something, do you know what it was? I can't make my self move because I thought about what was
Between you and me, wait no you could never keep a secret, you let all the groceries spill onto the kitchen floor, and now I've forgotten what I got them for.

I can't see the future, or any future to be precise
I can only see lies and a bed buried in ice
Where I lay my head
I won't think again

I never really wanted to
But I'll say goodnight
My hole is too holy to infect with your logic or your truth

I believe only in nothing, and that peace is a void
I don't believe that we are one of God's toys
When we all die
There's no paradise

We go absolutely no where
Just rot in the soil
And never dream again of something more out there

I know you can see me
Sitting here in despair
I know a lot of things
Like I know that you don't care
And you can hear me screaming
Oh why won't you reply
You can stop listening now
My throat has bled dry

What's the point of a finite race when all of time is the same as space?

My heart swings from the chandelier of your hope and dreams
Wildly swaying from the support of your cross beam
But I don't know if you can hold my weight
I might crash into your table, land face first on your plate
If you want I'll clean up, take you on a second date
But you're a fool full of food if you think I'm gonna change

Only you are left to be found when all else is dark

Oh my heart, why do you do what you do to me? You make me so hard to get and...

so easy to be forgotten

I used to think I was a writer, but now I know I've become a fighter. My words are my weapons, with enough ammo for everyone who eats them to come back for seconds. My wit is cool, my tongue sharp as a blade, I fire from the hip, taking down anyone in my way

Could you ever imagine, thinking of a future where you did not exist?

Write a line, cross it out
Spill another, still no good
One more time, cross it out
I can't quit even though I should
Page to page, wasted ink
Word for word, still can't explain
What do I mean, I can't think
These thoughts have driven me insane

I always find you when I'm dreaming, and once in the worst dream I ever had you said you were leaving. But in all the rest you stay standing by my side, or find me where I've been hiding and tell me everything will be alright. I've dreamt of you at least a hundred times, and it's always the best sleep of my whole life. The waking world can only compare when I'm with you anywhere, and when we're lying together with our arms wrapped around each other I don't want to fall asleep because no dream I have could be more sweet.

I don't think
I lost my mind
I think I
Left it behind
I let go
Purposefully
I gave in
So completely

Let it rip, sink into me
Tell me how you hate what you see
Tear me apart, don't hold back
Let me hear the truth, let your heart attack
If you don't have anything nice to say, let it out and I won't turn away
I'll take it in stride
I want to know what you're holding inside

As apathetic as the atmosphere, I form just to dissipate
Brush the ash off my shoulder, this world is smoke and grey
Radios blast between deaf ears, I don't understand the words
As rapid as this revolving rock, my heart beats for the whole herd

There's a little voice ringing loudly in my head, screaming stay under your covers or else you'll wind up dead. His silent sound will drown out any doubt that I can ever do without leaving the safety of my house.

Is it still safe to call you best friend, or is that no longer your name?

Sometimes the things I say make no sense
But I find no bliss in my ignorance
I can't find myself or anybody to latch on to
I don't know where I am or why I had to go
(I still miss you so)

I am so lost
I cant get out
I forgot how

Hunger and exhaustion have worn me too long
No one has offered me a love to feed on
I've been hunting forever and my feet are bleeding
Someday soon my heart may finally stop beating
(So sick of breathing)

I am so lost
I cant get out
I forgot how

Everyone around me does their best to lead me along
But every hand I reach for pushes me to do wrong
Why must I act like everyone else except for who I am
How do I know if I'll be saved or if I'm doomed to be ******
(I am not what I say I am)

Stirring in stale smoke, I open my eyes to see her drive away. Its such a worn out joke, but its the only laugh I've had all day

You left us all outside to bleed
So we set out to be a dying breed
We don't need you to get what we need
So if its fine with you we're taking to the streets

Now I don't wanna cause a fuss
But you'll believe in god but not in us

I don't wanna tell you right from wrong
But the way you raised us caused us harm

I cant see what my bodys doing
I think im really close to pooping
Ive never quite felt this way before
Except for when ive got a ***** begging from the floor

I try to be something, most often I'm not
I used to be someone, who I am forgot
I can be nothing, its still more than I've got
I think I'm no one, don't ever tell me I'm not
The only reason I've made it at all
I've faked my way through every fall
I pretended i could hold a presence
Every action and every word, used to keep hold of my world
Abandon the truth
Forget the past
There is no proof
Just make this last

What's a lonely boy to do
When he cant find anyone to
Paint gold over all his blues

And whats a broken soul to say
When he can never find a way
To express his deepest darkest pains

Suicide sure sounds nice
So nice ill think about it twice
Im afraid to pay the price
But someday soon i just might

A life of ease
Where love is free
And pain is nothing but a bad dream
I dont think it can be
But all i can do is believe

There is no light behind the clouds, only declining rays containing the memory of a light we can never keep.

The moment called,
It's sorry you missed it.
You were too busy planning out your living.
You can't call it back,
It has already passed.
But do you really believe it was really the last?

All this wasted time
Belongs to nobody
But I
All the feigned attempts
Served for nobody
But friends

I desire a mouthful of fire
I need to bleed bliss
I require a bed made of pyre
I want more than this

Maybe if I don't think about it the mess will clean itself up,
And maybe if I didn't doubt about it I wouldn't be feeling so ****** up,
But maybe if I started shouting about it you would all see that I'm breaking up,
Or maybe if i stay quiet about it the pressure that I'd endure might be enough to ensure that I never get up

Everyone wants to be wanted the same way they want

There's a fading heart sitting alone in a car, wishing those wheels would take him far away, but he never gets farther than the corner bar. Drunk and ****** he drives home again but crashes on the way

This drink in my hand is calling the shots
I forget who I am, but I know who I'm not
A man with a plan, a man in control
Slip a pill down my throat, turn into a ghost
Find faith in my hate, abandon my hope
You say that it's wrong but I already know

I'm a liar
It's what writers do
We make up stories
Because if we don't
We're afraid you'll think
Less of us for
The little lives we
Lead through our misery
Without the lies
We would have to be
The worst thing you see
We hate ourselves indiscriminately

Reach down into your soul
You've gotta take control
Hold onto what you need
Give away all you can
And remember to love
No matter what happens

I want to know all of the things you see in me, so can see how many of them I can believe

I was out sailing across the great blue green sea
Searching for a friend and the meaning of my dream
I came across another ship that looked like it had been crushed to bits
Slowly I approached and let out a cautious call
I wondered if anyone could even hear me at all
Then from the wreck a little voice unleashed a helpless cry
I saw her holding onto a rope, floating alone just trying not to die
Her hair was dripping wet, clothes a soaking mess
Shed been there for more than a few days if it were up to me to guess
I left my post and walked down to the ledge
I offered my hand and pulled her up onto the edge
Within a moment our eyes had locked, shed forgot the life she lost
All she wanted was to be saved
But I threw her back and she sank beneath the waves

I wonder where you're laying your body down tonight, and whether we're ever going to resolve this fight. Perhaps it's best that we both just say goodnight, because things in life can't always end up alright.

It's a really stupid feeling, one born of ignorance, coated with a seal of denial and faked zeal, wrapped in a pretty box of the the finest failures  you've ever seen, all tied off with a bow, made of the greatest compromise to life that's even been known, and it's for you, so I hope you like it

I've worn the masks that you all made
The face of the worker who's underpaid
The face of the student who flunked his test
I can't find one I like to wear best
I've seen through the eyes of an only child
One who's been held back from running wild
I've seen through the eyes of an orphaned son
Who's only wish is to be loved by someone
All these masks, one in the same
I wear them all, I wear this pain
On my sleeve this heart has bled
In the footsteps of others I've been led
Just who do I want to be today
I'll wear a new mask to forget yesterday
I've heard rejection through the ears of screamer
I've tasted defeat on the tongue of a dreamer
So many different faces
All heading to the same places
Together they hide what lies beneath
They exist just so you won't see me

I can't control my love
it goes wherever it wants
Whether I myself am wanted there or not
It gets me caught in tight situations
like when I run into you in town
I can't keep seeing you around
Because whenever I do, I get the urge to reach out and capture you
I try to keep my eyes away, but in those moments my heart has all the say
I really hope I don't see you today
Because when I do you'll look the other way
I wish I could get a leash, tie up my heart and never release it
I wish I could break myself, and then rebuild with all the pieces
I'd build a wall nearly twenty feet tall, just to keep me away from them all
All the ones i want to love, the ones that will leave me undone
I'll lock my heart inside a cage, and there it'll stay until I come of age
When im mature enough to love without obsessing
When im smart enough to love without *******

Can I just lie and say I I'd be fine spending the rest of my life without you by my side, every time I see the morning light in the same place we laid ourselves down in the night?

It's more different now than it ever was. I can't find the reason but I know the cause. it was you and me, we did it to ourselves, left behind the cabinet for a spot on the shelf, but this ledge can't support us both, I think it's time for you to go. I was here first, this is all I know, I'm sorry but I won't let it show

Can you tell me what's so wrong with taking it slow?
Can't you see I'm not ready for where this could go?
"Let's throw away all that timid patience" you say,
Oh but what if something in that pile could save us one day?

I'm not intent on sharing my intention with you
I've no reason to sing my reasoning to you
I don't want to be wanted here
I don't need to be needed here
I have no feeling to feel for you
I have no ease to be easy for you

Sitting in a full room
Only know one person
Everyone else is empty
Including myself
A task I can't take
Even if i did
It'd only make me a fake

I either drink to much or think to much, no space in between
I neither control myself nor anybody else, can't do anything I mean
I'll kick you or kiss you, it all depends how you act
I'll love you or loathe you, those are the facts
If you tell me Monday that I won't see you tomorrow, I'll feel forgotten again
I'll sit til Sunday waiting for you, but you won't be there in the end

Me eyes turned towards the top of the tower that seemed to touch the sky, and thought to myself "if only drugs could get me that high" I'd jump from my peak while at peace, knowing that whether I fly or I die, everything would feel just fine

All these thoughts in my mind could start a forest fire
Burn down your home with a book of matches on your eighteenth birthday
Oh well, **** me, right
I was just trying to light the cake
Oh yeah, well **** me, twice
You said we needed water, but you had to wait because I could only find ice
That's what you get for living up north
Not unlike that time you read the wrong book for your book report
Teacher gave you an F, but thanked you for trying