It's a really stupid feeling, one born of ignorance, coated with a seal of denial and faked zeal, wrapped in a pretty box of the the finest failures  you've ever seen, all tied off with a bow, made of the greatest compromise to life that's even been known, and it's for you, so I hope you like it

I couldn't hear what you were saying
It seems that my attention is fading
The on coming lights have got me distracted
Please let that last thought be retracted
I don't want you to think that I had this speech practiced
I just wanted to say that I think we went to far
We drove ourselves crazy from the backseat of this car
Now we find ourselves stranded and out of gas
If only we remembered the mistakes we made in the past
Maybe we could have saved ourselves enough to make this trip last

I'm a liar
It's what writers do
We make up stories
Because if we don't
We're afraid you'll think
Less of us for
The little lives we
Lead through our misery
Without the lies
We would have to be
The worst thing you see
We hate ourselves indiscriminately

I'm sorry that it's true, but keeping to myself is easier than keeping myself honest with you.

I wish I would die tonight and maybe tomorrow I could awake to a brand new life. Maybe I'd wake up with a couple of kids, a house, and a wife. Maybe I'd wake up and not have to pretend I don't hate who I am, not have to act like I have a plan, and not have to hold my own hands over my eyes as I cry every lonely night. Maybe I'd wake up to you by my side, but in bed I hide, wide eyed and awake tonight wishing just one thing could go right. Maybe I'll die tonight and not have to wake up to this life I lie, alone with nobody but I, and the thoughts of suicide, in this room devoid of light, where I lay down my every line in my attempt to express my plight. How tired I am of this fight to fall asleep and wake up in my favorite dream, the one everyone says could be if I'd just wake up and start to believe, be the things I mean to be, create the world I want to see, but I just can't leave, the sheets are calling me and I just might stay with them one last time, and leave this fantasy behind, forget about the life that my exhausted mind won't let me find, give up the expectations that I can break this bind, let my teeth begin to grind, and find my peace under a blanket of dirt outside

Can you tell me what's so wrong with taking it slow?
Can't you see I'm not ready for where this could go?
"Let's throw away all that timid patience" you say,
Oh but what if something in that pile could save us one day?

Nothing will go as planned until you start supplying your demand

Jump out the window and try to fly
The worst that could happen is you crash and die
And even that wouldn't be too bad
Just try not to think of the things that make you sad
On the way down you might change your mind
But now its too late, you left second chances behind
Maybe somebody will catch you before you hit
But to be honest you really don't give a ****

I needed some help down on the old farm, I was wondering if you could come lend me an arm. I didn't mean to scare you or cause you any harm, I just needed someone to help silence the alarm. The locks on the cages have all rusted and snapped, but the pigs are happy just to play in their crap. The horses got free, I don't think they're coming back. I don't care for the sheep though, their fleece is ***** and black. I guess I'll just let them all stay out tonight, because getting them back alone is too much of a fight

Can I just lie and say I I'd be fine spending the rest of my life without you by my side, every time I see the morning light in the same place we laid ourselves down in the night?

Up
Down
It makes no difference
Now
Then
Can you make sense of it
I'll
Do
Just almost everything
To
You
Just to feel anything

I've worn the masks that you all made
The face of the worker who's underpaid
The face of the student who flunked his test
I can't find one I like to wear best
I've seen through the eyes of an only child
One who's been held back from running wild
I've seen through the eyes of an orphaned son
Who's only wish is to be loved by someone
All these masks, one in the same
I wear them all, I wear this pain
On my sleeve this heart has bled
In the footsteps of others I've been led
Just who do I want to be today
I'll wear a new mask to forget yesterday
I've heard rejection through the ears of screamer
I've tasted defeat on the tongue of a dreamer
So many different faces
All heading to the same places
Together they hide what lies beneath
They exist just so you won't see me

Last night I fell asleep with my lover next to me
I tossed and turned through all my many manic dreams
And I thought at least when I wake up she'll be there to comfort me
But when I opened my eyes she had become just a memory

Oh my sweetest dream, why did you not stay
Was it something I did or something I forgot to say
I don't think it's right but what can I do
I'll go back to bed I guess and try to dream of you

The devil in the distance grows closer with each step
And the angels in the air have faces full of regret
Coming into focus, I can read his face
We all came here knowing no one would escape

I'm not intent on sharing my intention with you
I've no reason to sing my reasoning to you
I don't want to be wanted here
I don't need to be needed here
I have no feeling to feel for you
I have no ease to be easy for you

You know I could never walk away
I'm gonna stay no matter what I might say
You could **** me off to the moon
And when I return you'll still be welcome in my room

I either drink to much or think to much, no space in between
I neither control myself nor anybody else, can't do anything I mean
I'll kick you or kiss you, it all depends how you act
I'll love you or loathe you, those are the facts
If you tell me Monday that I won't see you tomorrow, I'll feel forgotten again
I'll sit til Sunday waiting for you, but you won't be there in the end

I hope, that after all these years, the person you've become is happy

I won't walk anywhere with you, because I'm crawling to the end. You can get down with me if it pleases you, or you could go right on ahead

You're in denial of the truth, despite that every morning you wake up lying next to the proof. You stare it in the eyes and say this can't really be real life, I must still be dreaming of you

What once was the center of so many worlds, A light for all to see, will never be forgotten as those planets still turn

A star that has gone and spent all its will to burn

All these thoughts in my mind could start a forest fire
Burn down your home with a book of matches on your eighteenth birthday
Oh well, **** me, right
I was just trying to light the cake
Oh yeah, well **** me, twice
You said we needed water, but you had to wait because I could only find ice
That's what you get for living up north
Not unlike that time you read the wrong book for your book report
Teacher gave you an F, but thanked you for trying

Wedged into my ways by hammers of guilt and shame, I've buried myself beneath heavy bricks of blame

I've been holding onto this for some long time now, and I believe it might be wrong. Did you know that I've been waiting, and you weren't the first to have me like that. Just like the last you always look right past all the signs I try to throw your way. Now I'm empty with nothing left to give but up, yet still I can't walk out of this place.
It seems your gravity has no hold on me when all I want is to be pulled into you
Please don't think that I wouldn't want to, but if you won't then there's nothing I can do
I have to let go
Drift off slowly
Won't you let me
Find a new star
To crash into

You've got only one life to experience everything, so take every chance offered and ignore the call of safety, telling you to do what's been done before;

"Be like all those people who grew old and bored"

Do what you want and never take no for an answer, because tomorrow you could wake up and come down with cancer

Be anything and everything that your heart desires, because your body will likely break before you are ready to expire

Ever ready to compete, if you arent first life is incomplete
Routinely changing the routine of change
Developing abilities amd enhancing our reach amd range
Dominating those who do not seek the prize, all to get ahead of those who we see with fear shrouding our eyes

When you manage to let go for just five seconds, you become five seconds more whole

The truth that I refuse to reveal
I'd rather feel pain so at least I know I'm real
I'll take my place at the tips of your feet
Kick me while I'm down, don't let me fall asleep
Should I slip into a slumber, my hopes and dreams will take me under
I'll awake in rage and confusion
Convinced to believe in this delusion
Mad enough to attempt this solution
We both know this is not a resolution

There is no more hope, I've run out of faith. I don't want to see you, or remember the lines of your face. I've felt this before, and I know of nothing worse. I don't believe in saviors, I know I'm bound to this curse. My love is all I have, and I have so much to share. It's such a shame my friend, that you won't let me be there. I only want too much, and I know that it's a sin. There's nothing I can do, just cry as my mind endlessly spins.

Is there anything left of me that you have not already hurt, a single stretch of skin where your name has not been burned?

Does anybody else ever feel as empty as I do?
No matter what I try, be it drugs or meditation, or simple self mutilation,
I never feel like the child I was born as, not a single easy day has passed
Since I was taught that the world just doesn't care, and it'll take what you love and laugh as you suffer there

With this, a first kiss,
we can find freedom from fear,
and bust into bliss

Every time I look up to the sky, the clouds fall and wash away everything but I
Nothing matters to me, except for the fears I hold and the lies that I believe
Life is such a joke, and everybody's laughing as I struggle to hold onto a shred of hope

We should get together and talk for a minute about the weather, then bring up what we feel inside but I know we won't because we fear what we'll find. Our hearts do not confer, she loves him and I love her, and the pain inside each of us burns, and every day the world still turns, and we'll awake each morning with nothing but lessons that went unlearned. I hang on her every word, and she hangs around for him like a bird, ready to fly at a moments notice, and my attempts to approach will always be hopeless, as I get close she'll dissapear like a ghost, and we both know this and tomorrow we still won't let go, life will go on and time will flow, and no matter how slow we'll do what we can to not let it show, but soon enough one of us will have to go

A patient heart will always take the part of the one who's ready but will wait to start, because a single mistake may make it fall apart, so it would rather be left alone with a silent ache in the dark

I've been wasting a whole lot of time lately, as I've been pacing the rate of my heart's escaping. I've been counting the hours as they grow, slowly chasing the minutes to where I don't know

Now I hide behind my eyes with silence, blinding you to the noise inside my mind

Your car got taken for a measly sum, and mine went to the flames under the winter sun, so we both lost out before our time was done, but I'm tryna tell you that it all matters none.
Because before we started this war of excommunication, and going *** for tat over every nonsensical spat, there was something golden coating what we had, but somehow we ended up throwing it in the trash, and I'd give every arm and leg that i have to get it back.
Now i know its been a while since youve heard my voice, and i apologize for the times ive stalled and all the times I've fallen apart.
You have no idea the damge thats been dealt, and you know not the extent of the heartbreak that ive felt.
I dont think i can continue,  though i swear I've prayed that I could.
And everything that we never did, I've always wished that we would.

Your disease, it will evolve
Take new shape, then dissolve
Around your world it will revolve
Its a problem you can't solve

Clouds look like islands, dotting the horizon, blanketing the ocean

Heart on a string
I'm waiting at the other sides end
Pulling away
Every time it's in your open hand

I play dangerous games
The kind you don't forgive
Sick little scripts flow through my wrists
Taking down the host of e-motion

If every poem written in love was a prayer to god for peace, i could make non believers out of the highest priests, and if every little note was a cry for mercy and relief, i could bury all of hell under the weight of my grief

I came here to be alone
Won't you stay away
If I had came here looking
It certainly wasn't for you

I never feel alone when I'm by myself at home, but when I'm out with my friends it never wants to end

I hope that he's all you need
Let him make your dreams come true
But don't let him know what makes you bleed
He might just turn and abandon you

How hard it is to like people, because no matter how hard you try they apparently just don't want to be liked