He scrambles to find his words outside her front door, they all spill onto her front porch
She looks at him and all he can say is I don't know
She looks at the ground and says she has to go
He wanders back to his car but she doesn't leave the doorway
She proclaims out into the night "I knew you would run away"
He turns his head around and shuffles his feet on the ground
He's still looking for an answer the likes of which he hasn't found
With a little shake, he speaks back to the surrounding black;
"I thought I forgot my mind in a sack, I left it here and I want it back
It's been oddly dark and I cannot feel my heart, but I need all my parts if I'm ever to start
Maybe after I'm reacquainted with my brain, I can let you in without piggybacking all the pain
If the reattached pieces manage to cooperate, then maybe I'll see you at some later date"

I'm not intent on sharing my intention with you
I've no reason to sing my reasoning to you
I don't want to be wanted here
I don't need to be needed here
I have no feeling to feel for you
I have no ease to be easy for you

How hard it is to like people, because no matter how hard you try they apparently just don't want to be liked

All this wasted time
Belongs to nobody
But I
All the feigned attempts
Served for nobody
But friends

I can see my ghost. he's leading me somewhere and I'm not sure if I should follow. I know where he wants to take me, its a place I've been before, but going there would involve losing the greatest thing I've had in quite a long time, but we both know that I'll never be satisfied with a simple physical possession, we both know I desire the spirit of it and that anything less will leave me wandering through limbo lost and hopeless. I don't know if such a heavenly feeling is something I can ever have, so I might just follow him back to the deep underworld once again, and if its meant to be I believe that angel may take my hand and pull me out and away to the place I truly feel that I belong

I can't help it
It's just the way I am
Always to want more than
What I have
Its never enough
I can't change it
I want more than
I need to
It's not ok
But it's the only way
I know how to be
Always less than
What they want
It's less than
I could ever want
I'm just a selfish man
Always wanting more than
What I've been given
It's all good
But still I want more
I know I should
Try to be satisfied
With what I have

Everybody is my friend until I say I need them
Then they run so far away
I can't catch them so here I stay
Can you tell me why I'm so lonely
All I want is someone to hold me
My whole life I've had no mother
So if you hate me blame my father
I don't mean to be so off putting
I'm just never sure of what I'm doing
I'm always trying to please the crowd
But I'd love for someone to bring me down
I can't keep dancing for all of you
Even if its all I want to do