My demons within.The darkness has found me & I've fallen deep within, My demons awaiting I must face them all again. There's loneliness & emptiness, self-loathing,& shame. Worthlessness, sorrow, heartache, & pain. Helplessness, hopelessness, restlessness, fatigue. There's lethargic & uncaring, fear & financial strain.There's always headaches body-aches ,guilt,plus shame. The tears are uncontrollable & they fall like rain. With panic attacks so strong they make me so Ill ,there's the nights I can't sleep without alcohol or pills. Suicidal thoughts always rears it's ugly head I'm strong in my beliefs that's why I'm still not dead. Bring on Violence & rage so far has hurt only me,but the pain I cause others are wounds that do not bleed. So I shut myself off from the ones that I love most,because I cannot let them see me vulnerable & exposed. Like a cancer it knows no gender and color it does not see, Depression is not weakness but an Illness that's stricken me.
