lonely but not
sad but not
happy but not
glad but not
love but not
hopeful but not
sleep but not
life but not
death but not
thoughts but not
talking but not
angry but not
bad but not
good but not

inside my head i feel
happy
sad
glad
mad
bad
empty
hurt
tears
pain
lost
gone
scared
fear
fight
time
hope
love
life
death
sleep
awake
thoughts
sometimes i dont like whats inside my head

i'm more then my hair
im more than my skin
im more than these lips
im more then these eyes
im more then these hips
i'm more than this body
i'm more than this talk
im more than you know if you could the time to see

behind these brown eyes there tears that fall almost every night
behind this smile is tears that fall almost every night
behind theses brown eyes is pain no one knows about
behind this smile there is pain no more no ones about
behind these brown eyes is a world no one knows about
behind this smile is a world no one knows about
behind these brown eyes is soul that wants nothing but to shine
behind this smile is a soul that wants nothing but to shine
as i sleep i dream
as i sleep i think
as i sleep i feel no pain
as i sleep i see no tears
as i sleep all i see is nothing

Angel on my shoulder I'm here
Devil on my shoukder I'm here
Angel on my shoulder I love you
Devil on my shoulder I love you
Angel on my shoulder cry if need to
Devil on my shoulder cry cry cry no one cares
Angel on my shoulder u mean the world to me
Devil on my shoulder dont believe that crap
Angel on my shoulder I do care that's why I'm here
Devil on my shoulder jump
Angel on my shoulder noooo
Devil on my shoulder yes
Angle on my shoulder let me hold u dear
Devil on my shoulder there never here
Angle on my shoulder I will not leave you
Devil on my shoulder I will not leave you
Angel on my shoulder I need you
Devil on my shoulder I need you.

on this day you were born to make this world a better place
with the time we had i would change some of it to make us happier
sorry that didn't work out the way i planned it to
my children you are the air i breathe
my children walk down a lonely path
my children run away from this life
my children will stay and fight
i smile because i know you are all right
i'm sad because you are not here
i miss your laughs an miss your voices
my children you are the air i breathe
my children walk down lonely path
my children run away from this  life
my children will stay and fight
i miss you an love you
i wish to hold you
my children the air i that i breathe
my children walk down a lonely path
my children run away from this life
my children stay and fight
people being jealous making our lives a wreck
taking the only thing i have left
i do not want you to cry
one day we see each other again
until that day i want you to know i love you an miss you an cant wait to hold you
my children the air that i breathe
my children walk down a lonely path
my children run away from  this life
my children will stay and fight.

jim a salesman lives in a cabin in the woods
on a hot sunny day he would sit outside and relax
on this day day the sun isn't shining so he would sit in his room with the light on pretending it was sunny day.

on a summer day
the weather was hot and bit of a breeze was blowing
sally sue was outside in her bare feet wearing her favorite pair of pink shoes
standing under the apple trees with the sky a clear blue

on a october day the wind was blowing
and leaves were falling down off the trees.
all different colours , some were red yellow and orange
as the leaves were falling down they were coming down in a wave like motion
the leaves covered the ground couldnt even see the stones that were on the ground

iam happy
iam fine
im ok
bad lair
i got you
i have you
i feel you
bad liar
i hope
i wish
i pray
bad liar
i hold you
i love
i care
bad liar
i sleep
i cry
i walk
bad lair.

my babies times two
my love times two
my fight times two
my life times two
your smile times two
i miss you times two
i love you times two
i know you're alright
part of me will always be with you times two
dont cry
don't whine
be happy times two
i love you times two
i miss you times two

my sweet angel girl
my heart
i miss you
i miss your laugh
i miss your jokes
i miss your smile
my sweet little girl
when i'm upset i think of you
your my sweet baby girl

my sweet baby boy
not so small no more
my handsome man
my only boy
my first love of god
my everything
i now your smart
i know your great
i know your happy i couldn't ask for more
when i feeling blue your face is what i see
when  i want to cry i do for you
my baby boy
my handsome man
my only boy

your smile is perfect to me
your body is perfect for me
your heart is perfect for me
your laughter is perfect for me
your days are perfect for me
your nights are perfect for me
stop thinking its all waste of time an let it be
come let me be all that you need
let all the doubt go free
you will never find another like me
come sit by the sea
come look at the trees
come walk with me
again let it be .

dark night brings crying eyes
day light brings wide open eyes
come walk with me
come hold me tight  even when i try to fight
stop making everything so hard let it sit and think
do you even know what time it is ?
stars are bright as we know
pen in hand
paper on the table
write  what comes to mind she says
write until your hands fall off
smoke your cigarette
light your joint
drink your *****
run your bubble bath
and avoid the world

when you voice won't say it
when you eyes won't show it
when your lips won't say it
when your heart won't know it
when your mouth won't touch it  
when you walk on by
when your hand won't in brace it
when you cried wont help
that when you know it's all silences .

eyes dont lie
eyes dont cry
eyes don't wonder
eyes don't talk
eyes don't count
eyes dont love
eyes don't smile
eyes don't fight
eyes dont hope
eyes dont hurt
eyes dont forgive
eyes don't fear
eyes dont feel
everything i just said was a lie
eyes tell lost
its your mind that drives you nuts.

you know what hurts

You know what hurts feeling forgotten in a world full moons and stars
You know what hurts feeling like sun only shines on the ones who see it but not need it
You know what hurts crying waiting for a reason why an takes you days to figure out why
You know what hurts waiting to talk but dont want to make people think
You know what hurts walking and crying and running until you cant breathe
You know what hurts laying in bed wishing
You know what hurts when you can't tell if your feeling anymore or just want to cry
Days
Nights go by
You know what hurts I do

You know my name
But not my story
You know my heart
But not my pain
You know my strength
But not my scars
You know my body
But not my love
You know what I say
But not how I feel
You know my tears
But not my fears
You know my life
But not my fights
You know my angels
But not demons

Forgotten girl  

You know  that girl who calls herself ugly
You know  that girl who  feels not good enough
You know that girl who everyone replaces
You know that girl who cries herself to sleep
You know that girl who trys to stay positive
You know that girl who would love you until death
You know that girl that would move mountains for you
You know that girl that everyone call names
You know that girl who would rather see you smile then herself
You know that girl who would rather lay in bed then sleep
You know that girl who drinks
You know that girl you forgotten about just dead in her sleep

Sceared
I want to but sceared
I feel to but sceared
I need you but sceared
I want you but sceared
I have to but sceared
I say so but sceared
For the times I let people have my time they show me why they  dont need it
I know not all are the same
probably should believe that to
Just know I am near
Just know I'm here
Just know I'm not going anywhere

Hurt
As I lay here
I wonder why
I wonder how
I wonder how long
I wonder how much more
I wonder nothing
I feel it
I see  it
I dont want it
But it always follows me like a stalker on full moonlight night
Time doesn't let it heal
Times doesnt know how just let's it stay
Crying seems to help but what are you  crying for
Love?

Pain
No one know this
No one own this
No one loves it
No one wants it
No one sees it
But everyone wants to share it
But everyone wants to talk about it
Sad
Happy.
Crying
There a comes a time when you have to let it go
All of the above.

Good girl

I am smart
I am petty
I am loyal
I am trustworthy
I am good listener
I'am caring
Iam loveable
I am honest
I'm a good girl

single

Stay awake
Can do what I want
Can see who I want
Can go where I want
Can talk to who I want
No one lying
No one cheating
No fighting
Staying single is good
Then why I feel so alone

Darkness
Days go by
Nights come and go
Wanting to stay in bed
Wanting to sleep
Wanting to feel again
Wanting nothing from no one
Wanting nothing but to be hold
Wanting someone tell I'm not worthless
Dreaming of you like a fool
Dreaming of a life that will always be a dream
When crying no one around
Cutting was my only way out
I can do better
I know I ******* can
Why why why
Why do my demons want to play now
Angles fighting for me but my demons are winning.

sleepless nights

Feeling tired
Falling a sleep
Thinking
Crying
Finally a sleep
Wake up
Lay back down
Holding my dream so tight
Finally a sleep again
Wake up
Stay awake
Sleeping again
Wake up
These are the nights I deal with
These are my nights

Dark night
Dark out
Cold wind
Snowing
Moon out
Stars out
Silence
Only hearing my foot steps
Seeing nothing
But only my breathe
Roads are long way home
Cold dark nights
Tina lombardo

i use to think being with someone is a good thing
i use to think being in love was a good thing
i use to thinking being hit was good thing
i use to think being lied to was a good thing  
i use to think running away  was a good thing
i use to think i was pretty was a good thing
all i  wanna do is sleep
all i wanna do is cry
all i wanna do is died
all i wanna do is talk to you
all i wanna do is feel
all i wanna do is cuddle
all i wanna do is kiss
but no i'm alone
and will forever be

im old
but young
kids i have
but none with me
people lie to over up their *******
lies lies lies
loved ones gone
to soon no time to retry
cry cry cry
have friends but feel alone
have family but feel alone
sad sad sad
been abused
been *****
been lied to my men
depression kicks in
i try to feel alive but i wanna do is died
sleeping all the time wishing time would go by
drink
smoke ****
i use to cut to feel alive
days go without talking
fat
pretty
big thighs
music
movies,
tv
walking
pink
thoughts
afraid of highest
poor
italian
so here why don't you tell them  something they don't know about me

im ugly
im worthless
im nothing
i cry
i cut
i wish to feel different
i feel alone
not begging for attention
sleepless nights
the world is ****** place
over thinking
stay?

Life
Born to live
Child to live
Teenager to live
Adult to live
Motherhood to live but gone
Couples to live but not never happen
Beaten an abused looking for love but all I found was a fool
Had one but gone to soon
Friends to live but only found a few
Taken by pain I cried
Take by angry I will rise
Taken by love to survive
Sleeping at night to cry to feel alone I want to died
Happy but sad
Sad but happy
Everyday is a struggle
Time pass by
Lay here wanting for what I cant hide
Talk is cheap but why you lie
Honestly trustworthy I could cry
Why why why
May never know why
Live laugh love is a crime
Age old but people think I lied
Poor but pretty is that a crime
Again though no answers why
Time for sleep so the day can arrive
Bad thoughts try to climb
Good thoughts try to jump high
Come on you must know why
Death....
My story not over with guys.

Sign
When I talk your there
When I think you there
When I dream your there
When I cry I wish you were here
When u talk I'm there
When you think I'm there
When you dream I'm differently there
When you cry I wish I was there
Theres signs I seen them
Theres signs I feel them
There signs i know them

As I sleep one night long ago
I had a dream some i remember some i dont
Feels so real
Felt like nothing i have ever felt before
The parts i remember I'm happy
The parts I dont I'm sad
As I sleep other night long ago
I had other dream
Again some I remember some I dont
Again feels so real
Again felt like nothing I felt before
Is it wrong to feel this way I ask myself that  every day

As I sit in the fields of flowers n grass
I pick the smalls one
I look at it
I keep it
I let it go
Where ends up no one will ever know
Could grow again you never know
It could lay there wishing someone would hold it tight and never let it go
That poor little flower will never know
I feel bad I let it go
I go and find it
I pick it up
And hold it tight
Telling it I will never let ya go

walking bam im there  
talking bam i'm there
standing bam im there
sitting bam im there
laying bam i'm there
sleeping bam i'm there
these are the things  i will be there for when you need me
dark hours bam im there
drinking bam im there
crying bam i'm there
i need you bam im there
theses are the things i will be there for when you need me
love bam i'm there
crying bam im there
theses are the things  i will be there for when you need me
bam

being crazy is hard i feel like crying
being crazy is hard i feel like dying
being crazy is hard i feel like running away
being crazy is hard i feel like laying
being crazy is hard i feel like talking
beng crazy is hard i feel like nothing
being crazy is hard i feel like i don't belong
being crazy is hard i  feel like sleeping
being crazy is hard i feel like dreaming
being crazy is hard i feel like .....
being crazy is fucken hard

being crazy is hard
you dont wanna cry you wanna run away
lay back down
take a nap
take a walk
take a pill
crying without knowing why
feeling like your alone
drink drink drink
being crazy is hard
take a stand
take it day by night
thoughts thoughts thoughts
holding your hand
laying on your lap
let it all out
being crazy is hard

day time put  on a show
day time make them laugh
day time make them talk
day time run around
day time sleep
switch
night time alone
night time sad
night time lonely
night time no one around
night time sleep for now

walking home all alone on a cold winter night herding nothing but silents
so peaceful you don't know if someone is crying if someone is lying if someone is talking if someone is sleeping
but it doesn't matter cause you are alone
walking home alone in the dark thinking  i  can overcome these thoughts
walking home all alone in the dark you see two people holding hands
while walking home all alone in the dark you reach home and look around crawling to bed
sound asleep you are dreaming of nothing but when  you wake to *** you see me standing there
what should i do
but stand there watching you .

what does one say ?
what does one do ?
what does one feel ?
what does one think?
what does this all mean?
when one can say
when one can do
when one can feel
when one can think
this means one is whole
i think not
one does not feel an think alike one can only imagine
what now you say
i say doesn't matter one will listen?
you can ask
i think if you do then the world will and you have peace will overcome

I write for it brings me peace
I write for it has no time
I write to be happy
I write to he sad
I write to tell
I write an write
I dont need a reason
Its none of business
I keep to myself
I feel no rush
I want it go away
I can pretend so well
I maybe a actress you will never tell
I lie to cover your feeling
I lie to cover your wants and needs
I want to sleep and let it all come out in my dreams.

I'm happy.
I'm sad
I'm glad
I'm mad
Im confused
I'm laughing
I'm lost
I'm found
I'm loved
I'm hated
I'm pain
I'm scars
I'm abuse
I'm beaten
I walk
I sit
I lay
I stand
I cry
I dont
I sleep
I dont
I feel like I have no one
But yet I  do .

Your smile
Your hands
Your body
Your mouth
Your heart
Your eyes
Your laugh
Your feelings
Your mind
Your soul
Your just what I think about

A poem by me
Crying
Sitting
Laying
Crying
Crying
Crying
Thinking
Thinking
Thinking
I feel so lost
I feel so sad
I feel so well I dont know anymore
Like time has no hands
And days have no time
Memories  have lasted
Memories have gone
What now
What should i do
What  should i feel
I have  words
I have thoughts
I'm ............

i find myself thinking of you
i find myself dreaming of you
i find myself talking to you
i find myself crying for you
i find myself wishing of you
i find myself wondering about you
i find myself going crazy over you
why why why
do i feel this way i never wanted to
i don't want to feel anything but i do
i know  you don't about me but a girl can wish
i wish you cared
i wish you would
i wish you lay next to me
i wish you look at the moon with me and the stars too

you know your connected to someone when you feel them when they are not around
you know your connected to someone when you can tell how they are feeling without knowing
you know your connected to someone when you can dream bout them
you know your connected to someone when you can think of them on any random day
you know your connected to someone when you can think of them on any random night
you know your connected to someone when you have a gut feeling that it's true
you know your connected to someone when well you just know

good for those who loved this time of year and want to celebrate it
the tree is up
the lights are up
the gifts are wrapped
the food is cooking
the drinks are flowing
the pets are sleeping
the family is talking
the friends are visiting
the snow is falling
the stores are closing  
the weather is freezing
time of year to be happy  
this time of year is when you don't want to celebrate it wants to be alone
the tree is nowhere to be found
the lights aren't up
no gifts wanted
no food cooking  
maybe some drinks
the pets are there for you
the family not around
the friends not talking
the snow is here
the stores are closed
the weather is  making it hard for you
time of year to be depressed

I don't wanna be here no more
I don't wanna feel anymore
I dont wanna deal
I don't wanna say
I don't wanna love no more
I dont wanna hold on no more
I don't wanna say it
I don't wanna be here no more come take me
I don't cry for help
Maybe I should **** myself
Maybe I'm not listening
Maybe I should run so far away to scream
Maybe maybe maybe
But we know I wont
Maybe i can be where people know
Maybe just maybe but who ******* knows
Time heal what heart wants nope not mine i rather died then feel this
Maybe maybe sleep will help

Sit
Lay
Sit
Lay
Look at the clock the hands go around
Thinking of everything that goes on
Why I am not laying with you
Why I am thinking of you
Why I am dreaming of you
Why why why
I dont have the answer only you do
I listen to your words
I repeat them in my head
I listen to songs remind me
I sing then to make me feel good
I want to scream
But it wont help
Take as I am
Little ****** up
Little insane
Little crazy
My soul keeps asking me
What should I say when I don't know what to say
Come with me and walk through the woods where we can lay a d up at the same moon and stars