red cheeks
brown hair
with pretty blue eyes
and a skinny waist
and good grades.
but cold.
she shines as bright as the sun
to hide the fact that her body
is below freezing
below water
below ice
she tries to breath
to scream
to fight.
limbs wrap around her
pulling at
her hair
her arms
legs
clothes
heart.
the deep depth in which
every memory lies
is tangled
twisted
cracked
shattered.
still think you know her?
try again.
look in the mirror
tell me who you see
or, don't see.
blue cheeks
icy hair
with grey eyes
and a skeleton body
and who gives a f*ck?
cause you sure don't.

You think you lost me,
That's only half true
But I can't tell
If I still love you.

I still think,
What if I told you?
What if I said,
Can we take a moment,
And pause.

Take a step back,
Or maybe two
Because I don't know,
If I can trust you

Well actually,
I don't know
If I can trust myself

Tell me what to do,
And I'll promise
To stay with you

To stay by your side
I'll tell you how I feel

And put my life,
My trust,
And my love back into you,
and your beautiful soul.

I stand in the rain
my boots getting wet,
waiting for you,
for it to stop,
but then I realize,
that it's my own teras
that are falling to the ground.

My cheek is streaked
with tears,
and my heart
is full of fears,
that you will not return.