Lonely candle on my birthday cake
Gasping for attention, putting its life at stake
The lonely candle wants to dance and celebrate,
Wave its shimmery flame although it's shy
but my,
Nobody willing to bring it to life.
Sailing by itself on chocolate waves
Searching for the one thing its heart craves:
To be lit up by a generous hand
To be serenaded with warming chants
Willing to sacrifice its new-born life; to see a smile
On that well-rounded face of mine
Willing to give in to my lips,
Revealing scars left behind my teeth that bit
The silky surface while making a wish,
Stealing the candle's light with a single blow
It doesn't mourn to the loss of its glow
But melts of joy as it knows
That it was the center of the show
Put on every year to ease my blues
Hoping that some of the wishes made upon its death
Will give life to the chance of them coming true

Lonely candle in the darkness
Know that I honor and thank your kindness
For you've given me enlightenment on this day
That was supposed to be filled with happiness, not pain
Bursting with sun rays, not rain
But instead, i'm devastated to say
Today was the worst of all birthdays

Feel the darkness beneath your skin
Your beating heart stealing the thread of light that is too thin
Too thin, too weak to make it in
That its existence blooms with the sparkles in your eyes;
Rarely to brighten up these two starless skies
As rarely as the sun warms up the winter lands
Or the rain waters the dried-out summer plants.
It's not long before those sparkles fly out
When you look up to the heavens,
Hugging the fortunate souls with your cloudy skies
Your mind wants to scream, wants to shout it out
Let the world know that the trembling in your galaxy
The lonely black stones in your eyes
The unheard pain buried deep in the sea
In a little abandoned box that nobody chooses to see
Isn't an exaggeration of a misled fantasy
Not a trauma caused by the toughness of your daily life
Not a scar from a sharp knife
But a sign of insecurity
Towards yourself, your beauty
Your size, your weight, your height, your color, your religion
Your fears, your weakness, your beliefs, your addiction
Now paralyzed, can't take a decision
You don't want to fail
Don't want to regret
Don't want to loose the sparkles that you have left
Don't want to feel lonely in the darkness
Don't want to be left alone with your thoughts
Don't want them to make you believe another beautiful lie

These days seem so empty
Feels like sorrow has gotten to me
Sadness, emptiness..set me free
Layers of rocks stacked over my lungs
Air struggles to get
In
And
Out
Like a thief breaking into a random house
Secretly, silently sneaking
In
And
out
Comes in empty-handed
Leaves charged with guilt, can't stand it
It being the though of having disturbed
The strange soul living inside of me
That feels imprisoned in its own body
Knees tremble, nothing worth fighting for
Giving up on bones, falling straight down to the floor
Tired of carrying all this hope
Cause it's time to let go
Of everything that ties us up and drags us down
Powerlessness is a strong enough sign
That
Money doesn't grow on trees
Karma is really a ***** that can never be pleased
Starving empty stomachs live under the shadows of luxurious villas
Selfishness will soon **** us
Countries are suffering from terrorism
While we limit ourselves to caring about materialism
This isn't a fight to live, it's to survive
From the cruelness that has taken over and strived

With a shy smile on her face she peeked into the place
Lost as a sheep would be away from its flock
She stood there in the doorway hesitated before she finally talked
Her pain was hiding under an innocent tone
She took a few steps forward and when she saw me
Relief sparkled on her pale face i could barely see
She said: will you please type the number of the nearest taxi on my phone?
Where am i, what's the name of this city?
How long will the taxi take to get here?
Tell him not to be late
I need to escape
Can i please stay here and wait
Until the taxi comes and carries me away?
I nodded, she rushed to the nearest chair and sat on it
I walked away to get my cleaning kit
Tables needed to be wiped clean
So did her heart, it seemed
As i came by to check on her
Ask her if she needed coffee or dessert
Her hand instantly wiped her tears
That had drown a humid pathway on her red cheeks
She forced a smile into her face
Looked at me with watered eyes and bitten lips
"Thanks, i'm fine" she said
"I'm just waiting for my ride"
As the taxi drove by on the other side of the road
She rushed out of the restaurant waving goodbye
Risked her life crossing to the other side of the highway
Must have had a tough night, that poor thing
And the taxi carried her away..

Inside your high-fenced garden i have entered
Climbed over the sky-high gate you had cluttered
Stepped on every little beautiful flower
Burned its perfume without a care
Smashed the petals into powder
Dehydrated the ground with the water i wont share
****** out the remaining pride you had
Buried the life you had in you in the deepest layer of the ground
Attacked the pure love you had found
The dreams, the hopes you had lit up
With the fire of your excited eyes
Every door i had widely opened has been shut
Selfishness took me off guard
Now, Its setting an admirable prize
For whoever finds MY missing pride
I look down to my feet and my socks are no longer white
They've turned darker than my inner shades
From the mess that i am
The huge pond of mistakes i've made
The knives i've used to cut out your roses
The rocks i've thrown at your soldiers
That you had place to keep me away
From your heart, from your mind, from hurting you this way

Unusual feelings colonized my core
Unusual heartbeats race their way out of my pores
My body tries to shake peculiar sensations away
Skin glowing with sweaty drops going insane
Nerves breaking
Hands shaking
Nervousness took over by surprise
Never felt like this around you
My heart sounds like an excited child
Running around like a fool
Wondering when's the time to open the presents
That's what i find myself doing in your absence
Counting the days, the minutes, the seconds
Counting the stars in the sparkly skies
Reminded of the crystalized diamonds in your eyes
That light up every time you see me smile

How can a Human behold such a celestial love?
All i know is that a love like this only exists in the skies
In the purity of the heavenly hearts
You say i deserve to be loved this way
Even more if possible, you say
Someone with a heart like yours
Someone with a soul like yours
Deserves this mistaken love
Not me, i'm full of flaws.
You don't see them in me
This is not how it should be..
I get lost in your staring eyes
My companions in my lonely nights
I can't get over the way you look at me
Those eyes, this black peaceful sea
I love the way you love me
I love how you made me see
I love how you taught me
How to love myself, how to be free
This passion you have for me
Has to be a felony
If i ever open my eyes
If i ever look back at those days
If this is a lie, please tell me
I won't be surprised despite
The happiness, the serenity you brought me
If this is a lie, here's my confession
This lie's greater than any shallow truth i'll ever hear