My eyes hurt this morning,
until I saw your smile.

I'll pick the one who makes me laugh
Who cooks me food
Who anticipates my feelings
And does his best to make it better

The one who has a life
Who doesn't need me
But really wants me
And knows I want him

The one who is
A total punk
Like me, but not like me
At the same time

Intelligence that spills over
Into every aspect of his life
Confidence, joy
And love he needs to give away

Most importantly,
The one who sees want he wants,
Reaches out,
And grabs it

(Like me)

I bought a guitar
and a longboard
all in one evening

Hoping to make these
my new prized possessions

I'll get rid of all the distractions
and focus on my interests
I'm afraid are momentary
Like everything else

But this is different.
My board and I are alone
We'll become best friends
And I'll stop back at the skate shop
Just to tell them how our friendship is
And hope I'll see the nice dude
Who advised me to get the same board he did
Starting out
Or the girls buying kneepads
Who looked so *******
And like girls I'd want to know

And my guitar and I are
Already in love
Because of the way I've always felt about music
I'll come back and buy a travel case
And a five-year warranty
And return in ten days for a group lesson
And try not to have a crush on the boy with the
Flying fingers who sold me the sweet-voiced
Guitar
And listen for the one who played Come As You Are
Trying out his new guitar
And I thought it was the perfect song for me

Out of school
No longer with an arbitrary community
I'll create the ones I should have joined
When I wasn't shuffling papers and
Being successful

Thanks for welcoming me
My board's brand-name is Welcome
I'm looking for a home
And I want to finally be me

Many nights,
I glide in my car
along the narrow path carved
into the silent and solid
woods.

I play my human music
as I watch the inhuman
go by.

I realize what I've really loved
all these years
not who
never who

and I roll down the window and
stick my arm into the rushing air
my soft young hands
with their veins
are now a little older

I smile and I
laugh into the night

blissfully
alone

I am buoyant.
I know that below
The safety of the surface
Everything is out of my control.

Yet up on my raft
I have a view of the horizon
That makes me feel certain
There is no end to my sailing.

If something should sink me,
I should not mind.
I had the whole sea.
I just ran out of time.

I'm about to lose you.
To something that is neither of our faults.
While I know you still care for me,
We'll probably never see each other again.
We're each following our dreams,
and that means being apart.

I try to be normal.
But in this state,
I'm either hyper-aware
of everyone's shallow
material
preoccupations
that keep them from being sick with love
and grief
like me.

Or
it's just this horrible,
horrible,
darkness inside
that is so strong
I tear up all the time
or if I don't tear up
I'm about to throw up.

Why is it so hard?
Later I'll appreciate the gifts you gave me
but it seems that as soon as they were here, they'll be gone.
And I'll forget them.
Hopefully not along with you.

I have my fears
But no matter who you are
or what our futures will be
You've taught me things
nothing can change.

One moment of weakness
Can't change the strength
We give each other
In the way we rise above it all.

It's hard to find someone smarter than me
But I know you're wiser
When you tell me what to do,
And it seems so simple.

Man, I thought I was chill till I met you.
But you're cool enough to put out fires with your gaze.

Yet I am anxious because of you
Until I think I understand you
What you want from me
Is someone you can respect...

Nothing is for sure even our memories
And your words which still strike through me
With such piercing precision
I have no fears