We knew each other in a past life
I could feel the pull to her,
On the first night I asked if she was okay
And that was that

The universe took our fates and crossed them
Our souls forever connected
Wondering in what time we loved as well
A time less complicated

Who were we?
Lovers? Enemies?
What brought us together on that fateful night?

It feels like we met at the perfect time
A time when we needed a friend
Why then?
Why us?
What's the plan?

She doesn't believe in falling in love
But I wonder if she believes in soulmates?

There is something to be said about pain
How the simplest things can make your heart sink
That pit in your stomach
And the tingling in your jaw

There are times when I think I should have kept my mouth shut
And my heart pure
It makes me wonder if when I die,
Will my family build me a tomb
Or throw me away like trash

This is why pain hurts
It makes you think
And with all the thoughts I have
I can't help but wonder
How I could ever deserve her
How with all the pain I've endured
And the thoughts I have
She always decides to stay

I don't offer much but take all she gives
So why do I feel pain when she does?
Why can't I live without her?

My heart aches for her
And that leads me to wonder why she hurts
What her thoughts are
And why she needs me

If my heart is a wick, then she is the flame
A warmth that melts away my walls
And burns my fears to ash

So why do I hurt when I think of her?
Is the fear of losing or pushing her away?
What if I never said "hello"?
Would we be alive?
Would we have felt this pain?

She holds my hear in her hands
A light squeeze to let me know
She'll never let go

There's something to be said about love
How it always hurts
And is somehow more painful than death

Shaky
The world spins
My ears ring
My vision blurs
My heart thumps
My hands shake

What a weird feeling
The feeling of not letting go
Like a crocodile and a zebra
Or a bee and a flower
It almost feels like losing

The water splashes
My wishes twist
My soul jumps
My mind screams
My fingers ache

What a weird taste
The taste of falling down
Like a chain with a weight
Or a moth with a flame
It almost feels like caring

Don’t think about it
Or it won’t come true

Don’t dream about it
Or it will never end

Don’t tell anyone about it
Or it will never happen

They will sell you diet pills
And you’ll be the first to buy it

They will tell you to **** yourself
And you’ll be the first one to try it

Don’t think
Don’t dream
Don’t tell

The three rules
Of the dying human

You will never be sorry
But you will always regret
That you took those poison tablets

It’s easy though
Because you feel bad for yourself
And everything’s fine
Just as long as you don’t act sad

Throw yourself into your worries
And you’ll come back a madman

Get devoured by a demon
And you’ll under what a dark creature sadness is

***** up all your organs
And you’ll know what the dying feel

Drink an animal’s blood
And you’ll become the most poisonous spider

Eat the flesh of a human
And you’ll become the cannibal you’ve always been

I lost myself that night
Wandering and wondering about everything
Hoping to see the light of day once again
That did not happen

I was stripped of everything I called my own
My thoughts consisted of a single line
“I can’t believe this is happening to me again.”

Nightmares
Flashed before my eyes
I tried to fight against the world
But in the end I lost
But in the end I died
My thoughts became a black puddle on the sidewalk

“Hmm...” I wonder now, “Maybe I’m not dead.”
I’m happy with my end
Happy that it happened
Although, I do wonder what it would be like to live again

Your ghost haunts my dreams
It won’t let me sleep
Its face is always a blurry photograph

I repeat the lines you said to me
“Don’t leave me, don’t let me fade away.
Stay with me, don’t leave me be.”

I watch you fade as the darkness encloses
I see you cry as my sorrow passes through
You hear me scream as the smoke hides all
Life is nothing now, because we are gone
The feeling of falling is finally free,
But the feeling of breathing is so far

Help won’t come for us, even if we cry
Snow suffocates our minds into twisted children
Always remembering, but also forgetting
Never living out our dyings
Skidding to a halt at our final light

Don’t let me die on my own
Please let me live all alone