Can you tell me why I crave your skin on mine?
Or how you used to hold me with your calloused hands?
When deep down you knew you never meant for me to get comfortable because you weren't staying.

Can you tell me why my beating heart still aches for you when I beg it to stop?
As many times as you broke my heart into more than two pieces, I still somehow manage to scoop the remaining pieces up and convince myself that you will be the one to fix this.

My brain replays the memories we created like a movie, when it ends, my brain screams for it to be played one more time like a child and their favorite song.
Will the memories fade like the child's love for the song?

I cannot stand to be alone anymore. When everything is settled down and calm, waves of overwhelming feelings engulf me and I cannot escape.
Is that why you are never alone?

I hear our song on the radio and I immediately turn it off.
Do you let it play like any other ordinary song just to avoid the question of someone asking "why did you turn it off?"

My walls wonder why I have not hung up any more pictures of you, I reply "No more adventures."
Do you think of me when you go outside to take a picture of the sunset?

At night, I used to count down the days I wouldn't haft to sleep alone anymore.
Do you continue to add up the days you've slept alone? I hope the number keeps adding up.

I sit outside at night and I stare at the moon, I feel better when I realize that you and I see the same moon.
Do you realize that no matter where you go, the moon you see is the same one I see?

My eyes see everything different now. I no longer watch the sunset and I no longer love the ocean.
Is that why you're afraid to look around? Are you still afraid to put on your glasses?

Everyday without you, I run a marathon. My life has become a repeated marathon of exhaustion.
Why did you stop running?

There are over 6 billion people on this earth and I wanted you.
Why didn't you want me?

Sometimes I sit and wonder about you
What you do, what music you listen too
What time you go to bed
What runs through your head
sometimes I try to believe we’re still connected
But distance is the awakening and I’m the only one affected
the day you decided to leave
Was the day you got rid of me
my dreams allow me to escape reality
In my dreams I am a new me
No more you and I can see
The beauty I forgot about being free
Letting go of everything heavy
Letting go of everything I loved
I feel shoved out of my own heart for a minute
i look and my love for anyone else is acute
Why is it so easy to dream about being free
It feels good, it feels right for me
But I cannot go forward to save my life
I don’t know why this is such a fight
To let you go
Is to see me grow
In a lot of ways, I feel like I'm moving on....maybe I'm just afraid of emotional attachment in my current state
How it makes me finally feel awake
who we were and who we are now create a storm
The warmth I feel, the calm before the perfect storm