The shot rings through the hall,
I gasp as I hear it through the thick wall.
I look at my father,
who has fear in his eyes
he tells me it will be O.K.
but I know hes feeding me lies.

The men break the door
My father pushes me to the floor
be quiet he says
what happened after
in my memory it will stay.

The shoes I see
run circles around me
they seem to not notice
as I hide in plain sight.
I remember their footprints
marking the carpet
the circles on the floor
mark my soul forever more.


They run around my father
screaming and dangerous
my father tries to calm them down
and then I heard
A shot that made my heart sore
as I watched my father
fall to the floor.

This cold and untouched heart,
has for many years laid apart,
now it is blunt and stark
no longer a weapon of my soul.

But recently I've gained
an electric feel
cause whenever I think of you
my spine start to reel.
It tingles up my back
and leave a mark
right in the center.
Right in the heart.

They say a human,
can only use 10%
of his entire mind,
well these days I am reduced
to a mere 2%.
I stand in class,
unable to answer
I stare at my page
clueless on what to write
and I play sports
without the fire of passion inside me,
because its only 2% of my mind.
One day a man asked me,
what has happened and do you regret it?
I stood and said
"no sir, no I do not"
Because that 8%  I gave to you,
to make me focus
on every little thing you do.

Can you hear the wings?
the wings that take the suffering
and lift them up to great heights
only to let them fall to the ground?
Can you hear the wings?
that have a devilish beat
a rhythm alluring and enchanting
one that you cant avoid
but you know destroys you?
Can you hear the wings?
that lift up those who work
for a better place in the world?
The wings that break
Your Holyland
so that you will no longer
have a place to stand.

Finished and done,
you've had your fun
Now I'm alone,
empty to the bone.

Before my spirit was dead,
I always said,
I'd go the distance
but now my soul
has no resistance
to the chains of loneliness and regret.

You kept me around,
forever bound
by you plastic smile
you controlled me
for more then a short while.
To the point
that until now
that I'd follow your lead
even if you asked me to bleed.

After all this time
I bet you've forgotten
everything we did
everything I did
just for you
but I will never
and I wish you could remember
that even if
you crush my heart
into a million pieces
I'd rebuild it again
just so you could break it.