Maybe I'll just piece together the bruises that you left.
I'll call it a masterpiece; it's a work of art.
A collage of empty, poisonous smiles,
and bones you left exposed to gusting winds.
Painted in are the lies you spat at me;
the toxic words billowed because of their lack of depth.
So I'll stitch together the vast variety of materials you left me,
and I'll transform vile memories of you and I
into a work of art.

the possibility of you was my blanket
the intrigue of your lips
pressed onto wherever hey decided
kept the frigid wind from blowing through me
frozen crystals of ice were melted off
my guilty body
guilty
i was delusional
potential isnt promise
so when the trace of you left the air
the snow was vicious and penetrated my flesh
and
now
i'm
so
cold.

i like my body when it is with your
body. It is so quite new a thing.
Muscles better and nerves more.
i like your body.  i like what it does,
i like its hows.  i like to feel the spine
of your body and its bones,and the trembling
-firm-smooth ness and which i will
again and again and again
kiss, i like kissing this and that of you,
i like, slowly stroking the,shocking fuzz
of your electric furr,and what-is-it comes
over parting flesh….And eyes big love-crumbs,

and possibly i like the thrill

of under me you so quite new

exclamation marks mean something of excitement
joy to the world
guess what
im so happy
i'm dying of ennui
what the hell is an exclamation mark


commas are when you need a break
just a pause
before you go on
and i've never gotten that before
where's the comma for me to
take a minute to
stop killing myself
over the fact i'm so
busy

periods are the only real one


they mean

it's all over





i am all over too.

hey.
i know he loves me (or) so he says. and i'm a torn up rooftop whereas he's the sun being welcomed by the earth when all the land had been covered by the gloom for weeks. so i guess the rainbow girls are more important to him than something that's a violation of the standards of the houses on these suburban streets.


hello again.
today the sun and the rainbow were next to each other in the sky, and when i got home, the roof collapsed.
they said it would cost thousands to repair it.


goodbye.
i don't have the money for a new roof.

I caught glimpes of
Unzipped veins in
The swirls above and
Skin cells falling
Around my head and
I shed off the dead atoms
Smothering my weathered lungs and
My flesh is enslaved to
Alluring beasts with
Spirals in their irises and
They engrave a lattice on my tongue so
Crimson fluid saturates my chin but
The unzipped veins twisting the
Neurons in my brain causes
Me to taste your lips when
I sample my oozing blood and
Snakes are slithering up my thighs and
Splitting & expanding encasing me in
Gore and warmth but
I will not
Survive this time.

cold embraces in the midnight dark
blue streaked with the liquids and fluids
in my head
in my body
within myself there are
combinations of strands that freeze with the frigid ice cubes
i'm freezing in my skin