Randi Nichols

Randi Nichols Nov 2022

You walked away and I've been searching for men like you since...

Men who speak pretty lies,
  Who make promises they won't keep,
    Who leave people in a shambles

And in your absence I found them everywhere.

I found them ready to take up my time,
  Ready to use my mind and my body,
    Ready to leave once something better
    came along.

And now that I am grown with a child and family of my own I have to stop myself from searching because all they do is what you do.

They see, and they want, and they use, and
They take up space that isn't theirs to take.

So I am laying down my search.

Because after all these years and all these tears over all these men who are like you at the end of the day I never found you, just issues.

And I don't want those anymore...

Randi Nichols Jan 2018

All You Do Is Weigh Me Down

I wear our memory like a boulder
Chained around my feet
Sinking me; drowning me

I can't get you out of my head
You weigh me down
And I can't reach the surface

Every happy moment I have
Stained with thoughts of you
Like wine on the carpet

And I wonder how it feels for you
To be able to wear us like air
Like I was never there at all

Randi Nichols Jan 2018

Are you there?

I've thought of you
....every day
.......every hour
...........every minute

And I wonder
.....how you are
........are you happy
............are you alone

And I remember
......that you are
........and that you're not
...........and that you aren't thinking of me at all.

Randi Nichols Jan 2018

Figment

I see you in all the places you do not go.
In the grocery store by my house;
At the park where I walk my dog;
At the coffee shop downtown.

And I hear you in all the songs you do not sing.
In the sad songs that make cry on my way home;
In songs about love that make me smile;
In songs about fun times that we've never known.

And I feel you in places you've never touched.
On the palms of my hands that you've never held;
On the top of my head that you've never kissed;
In the beat of my heart that you've never heard.

And then I wonder if you were ever there at all.

Randi Nichols Jun 2013

Better That Way

I can feel us slipping away
And I guess it's better that way
Because I can't hold on to any part of you

And although we both want it
Our friendship would never fit
Into the futures that are waiting for us both

Our talks will grow to few
Until there's nothing left of me and you
And we will just live on in each other's memory

And I will marry a good man
That I love more than life
And you won't be there to see me walk down the aisle

And you will find a lovely woman
And she will share your passions
And I will want all the happiness in the world for you

Because in the end we were a chapter, not a book
A verse, but a not a poem
And now I know it's better that way.

Randi Nichols Jun 2013

The Almosts

We pretend we won't lose touch
But we will
People like us always do
We are the almosts
The almosts never last
We never last in love
We never last in hate
We never last as friends
So we fade
We fade into our own lives
We fade into memories
That may cross out minds every once in a while
We fade into acquaintances.
Into strained "how are yous" and "I'm doing fines"
Because to be close is too painful
But to hate is impossible
So we fade into that place
The place for the almosts

Randi Nichols Mar 2013

Sometimes the Best Memories are Unfinished.....They should stay that way

I know it's over
But when I pass that parking lot
I remember how we held each other
Knowing it would be the last time
Not caring that it was so wrong
And I haven't felt anything like you before
But we left it there in my car
We kissed goodbye
And we knew it was the end
And now we talk but we don't say anything
And when we see each other we're careful not to touch
Because the world would explode
So you go your way
Meeting new people
And I stay here
And I'll marry my best friend
And we will both be happy
And the world will be safe
Because it wasn't ready for us
And neither were we