Rachael

Rachael Jan 2017

It ate at her brain

The insomnia incessant

As the minute hand ticked

And the second hand clicked

Try as she might her eyes

Could not shut tight

Thinking of answers to questions which

Made her head and heart hurt

Cancerous overthinking

Perhaps it just might've been

The one that caused

All those sleepless nights

Rachael Apr 2014

don't

don't blame me when I walk away because you didn't treasure me when I was around
don't blame me for telling my friends about what a ****** personality you have when you hurt me because I ain't gonna bottle it up and feel upset over someone like you
don't blame me for being jealous when you hang out with others instead of me because you're the one who made me feel our friendship actually meant something to you at the start
don't blame me when our friendship comes to an end and we become total strangers one day
because you and I both know I've put in my best effort
so don't even try to point your nasty finger at me

Rachael Apr 2014

yours

your name leaves my lips with a smile
it teases my eyes
making them sparkle
a special gleam, there is

your fingers wrapped around mine
your arm against mine
the silence inbetween
somehow
strange, it doesn't seem

my head on your shoulder
my lip against yours

the moulding is perfect
my heart is now yours

Rachael Apr 2014

inhale

when you draw near
it's as if
the air thins
and I forget my breathing mechanism

when you draw close
my breath sharpens
shallow inhalation taking over

my pupils dilate
heart accelerates
muscles contract and

my mouth twists into a crooked smile
not too big, to the point
you think I'm overly excited
because of your presence
but not so small
you think
you're nothing to me at all

that's the multitude of the effect
the effect you have on me
pathetic
isn't it

because all I can do
is hope this incessant feeling fades
before it eats me
from the inside out

Rachael Apr 2014

popcorn romance

calms your nerves it does

gives you a little sugar when you're sad

it was a popcorn kernel romance
the ugly little kernel
not love at first sight

but then 'BAM' the explosion
full blown, her heart open and exposed

feelings pour out, once in a lifetime
she'll never be the same

he risks burning-
fingers, skin, scorched pulse and bone,
but hey you only live once

because a popcorn will make you happy
a popcorn will make you smile
and hey it may even fill your tummy for a little while

// inspired

Rachael Mar 2014

rotting

Like leaves falling
People dying
An apple rotting
My life crumbling apart

Struggling not to drown
I pray
It'll all turn around

The minute hand
Round and round
My tears
I'm holding them down

But they fall
And touch the ground

Rachael Sep 2013

Strangers

Why are we strangers
When we can be friends

Why do we walk past each other
Both out eyes flickering with recognition
Yet no acknowledgement of any sort is made

Why do I feel like I know you
Then again all that had happened between us
Was simply a moment of acquaintance

A fraction of our time spent together
And then we go our separate ways
If we were strangers
Why would I feel the tinge of sadness

Fix it
Fix that gaping hole between our, our-
What are we again?

Remind me, because It feels so insignificant I seemed to have forgotten.