dysfunctional feelings
"I love you too"
exactly my point,
influenced by conformation.
direct deposit
overdrawn enthusiasm
settles my broken heart

With these lines, pages fill
though never what I really mean to say.
What was it that caught you by surprise?

Left standing alone on a fault,
escaping silence with intervals of fear.
Why do feelings go unfelt? Who is not in debt from interest?

Solemn, vacant, paradise deserted?
Empty conversation is what we have.
Confronting absolution,
chased the shadow from the door-
allowing space for  child's life to pass without wanting to know more.
Enchanting tales insist the mind be tranquilized.
Preventing instinctive reactions-
Focus,
Wait, smoke in my eye

Simplified in silence
Capture these emotions
calculate my temptation
to run away and never look back
I'm lost in love
not searching for exit
excited by senses
touch, taste, sound
feeling you near
even though you're nowhere around

Counting on time to be by my side
Never thought today would come
That the yesterdays would lead me here
A false sense of self, in a world with whom I am lost

I find myself here again at this place
questions with no answers

Beginning again to find a place to rest
Trying to find comfort in my loneliness