I will be the first to admit that I am hard to handle.
I am a perfect hurricane.
I will destroy everything you love and everything in my path.
I will make a mess of your heart…of your entire life…
I am hard to handle.
My expectations are nearly impossible to meet,
And once my trust is broken it is gone for good.
I can be a high maintenance *****.  
I will love you and I will hate you in the same moment,
But I promise you if I love you I do it with all of my heart,
And on the nights that you do not message me,
Expect me to wonder what I have done wrong.
Because in the end…it will always be my fault.
I will spend every moment,
Wondering what prettier girl you are cheating on me with.
I will find every reason to suspect that you are lying to me,
Even when you tell me you love me.
I will read between the lines of everything you say.
I will never believe a single word you say.
I will press every button you never knew existed,
When you tell me that you love me and I cringe,
Do not pull away. Just say it again and again until I grow fond of the word.
Please…
Be patient.
On the nights when all I can do is cry I don’t expect you to have a solution,
Just hold me…and tell me while you’re here everything will be alright
And maybe one day I will believe you.
But until then, I will spend hours planning the day that you leave,
I will expect you to leave.
They all do.
I will make a mess of your heart…of your entire life…
So that you do not make a mess of mine.