Just another night where I'm alone in the crowded room
And you save my ***
Another night that I get to lay next to you
Wondering if you are staring back at me because there are feelings
Or because I'm happily playing along with your game
Because sometimes when you say "I love you...
.... like a friend of course"
I wonder if that look in your eyes is a trick
Or are you really looking guilty right now?
Why when we joke about what it would be like if we dated
You all of a sudden have something very interesting on your phone
Why you avoid eye contact in public
As if you are afraid of someone assuming the wrong thing
Like god forbid you have feelings for someone
I get your "bad boy" image wasn't easy to come across
and trust me it's not going anywhere
I just want to know why I try so hard for you to know I care
yet you make caring look so **** easy
how I carefully articulate the perfect sentence
and you reply with the sweetest
most simple
"relax ***"
As if you really can tell how I'm falling apart
but yet I know you don't see any of it
Because if you knew this
If you saw the confusion I go through
every ******* time you say or do something romantic
I know **** well you wouldn't keep doing it
the only sticky situation you want to get caught up in doesn't involve feelings
at least it shouldn't
yet you kiss me like you need me to breathe
and I have caught you looking at me with a sweet sadness in your eyes that couldn't be mistaken
So I'm gonna ask you one more time
be honest
How in ***** sake do you feel about me?