it's an odd situation when you know that the only reason
you are not who you want to be, you are not really living
because you are the only one holding you back

why can't i write a story
why can't i find a girlfriend
why can't i stop drinking
why can't i motivate myself
why can't i stay in shape
why can't i matter

these thoughts run in circles around my head
laughing mocking taunting
and yet i know the answer
me myself and i

i'm so afraid of failure that i'll do nothing and fail
so i don't even have to try