I never looked at you
When you were frowning
I didn't want to see you angry
Especially not at me.
I like to fake everything
Pretend we were happy
As a child I often
Played make-believe.
I lived for those moments
(I'd live for them still)
Where your eyes lit up
As soon as they met mine
But that was always
All too fleeting
The joy so quick
To be left behind

But still
I never looked at you
When you were frowning
And lately
I can't look at you at all

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