I get this feeling
in my chest.
Almost like a pain; the same pains that lingers after a fresh wound.
It's the same feeling I get when,
I'm in fear.
Like a pressing on my chest and
A tightening rope on my stomach.
But I excuse it distastefully and with haste.
Then I get this feeling in my stomach;
Like a million butterflies inside, like a constant tickling but
It isn't funny this time.
This is the same feeling I get when I'm nervous.
The pressure to act, the time is now.
But uncertainty of, "what action to take" is overwhelming.
But still I brush it off methodically and with grace.
And then I get this thought in my head;
The same thought that comes about when I know that it's
Game time, time to perform, time to act,
The calm before the storm.
But I'm confused.
And I can't channel my feelings and I start to go mad and I can't control myself and I'm blind with rage and thought and emotion and my heart starts to race and I can't hold it in and then,
I'm calm.
I now I know what I must do.